Frustrated....

Being healthy is hard, I am surrounded by skinny people and it makes me feel like a fat sloppy pig. The people that aren't skinny, just don't give a damn about their weight and that frustrates me (trust me, I know it's not by business). I work in an office where there is chocolates, cakes, cheesecake, candy or some other kind of weakness at every corner.  It is so HARD to resist temptation. Everything is a huge ordeal, getting to the gym, getting through the workout, and then going to bed and trying to do it all over again. I don't feel comfortable in my skin, when half naked women are running around all the time.

I try so hard to be proud of myself and what I've accomplished so far but I really want to curl up with a pint of chocolate ice cream, a brownie, and a Starbucks frappucino. So last week, I relapsed bigtime and luckily I didn't gain anything mainly I think because I was still in the gym. I can't find anything to replace my love of Coke. I hate diet sode and I know it's empty calories but I love it so much. I'm getting frustrated by all of it. I don't want to stop, I want results and I want them NOW!!!! I'm creeping up on some milestones though and I am excited about that! I am about to hit 30 pounds lost (3 to go) and in 6 pounds, I'll be in my 150's which I haven't even thought about in 9 years. That excites me, I'll be even more excited when I get there.

On a happier note, and away from my tirade. The Biggest Loser comes on tonight and I am so excited, that show manages to motivate me to hit the gym hard the next day.  So hip hip hoorah for The Biggest Loser