You know I usually have some stupid song stuck in my head and the past few days I have been putting them as my title...I guess that will be alright until I get a nasty one stuck in there...oh wait, Kim says I already have (lol).
So today is WI day. I am down 3.4 pounds. I am not thrilled. I am not thrilled because I know that TOM is on his way to Franklin and that this week is gonna be a rough one (weight loss wise) and I am gonna have to work my butt off to not have a gain next week. Guess I would have rather lost 2 pounds this week and 1.4 next week...does that sound stupid?
Anyway, it is Monday once again...my busiest day here at the office. And it is a payroll week so I have to try to get all 150 or so employees pay checks done...weird how mad people get when they dont get paid. I will make it around to everyone in a bit...I hope.
And yes, I know that I have an OCD issue. I try to make lite of it. I blame my mother for this issue. If you have read my blog for a long time you already know that she and I dont have the best relationship. When I was little my room was never clean enough and when I had a "cleaning chore" it was never done good enough. Now my mother is NOT a clean freak nor is she OCD. But as an abused child you are always trying to please everyone and when the things you do are never good enough then you just keep trying harder and harder to please the person who you arent good enough for. Anyway, as I became an adult I carried with me the cleanliness thing. But it slowly turned into other things too...like checking (several times) to be sure the doors are locked before I go to bed at night, anytime something has to be tunred off, I check it over and over to be sure its really turned off...you get the idea. And my cleaning thing has caused some fights in my marriage. I try to control it as much as possible. But if I had to guess I would say that I spend about 20 hours a week cleaning my house. Now my house isnt huge...its a 3 bredroom ranch. But I never think its clean enough...but doesnt everyone have thier own stupid little quirks?
My DH just sent me a text..."As your attorney, I advise you to eat all this acid."...what in the world?
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04/21/2008 12:36
Double Checking
I do a lot of the checking over and over on the doors and lights and things like that. So I have it some too. And I freak out sometimes about my house because my mom's house was always so nasty. I can't turn into her. NEVER!
Anyway, how bout you work your butt off this week and lose 1.4 on top of the 3.4 this week?! Wouldn't that be great?!
I like all my clothes on matching hangers.....they are all white plastic......sometimes my DH does the laundry and puts my clothes on different hangers.....I just quietly change them so he won't think I'm a weirdo.
For reminding me that losses are not always on the scale. :) I really need to get my mom to start measuring me, but that always made me way uncomfortable, so I think I will judge by how my clothes fit for now. lol.
We all have them, just most of us don't admit them! LOL I like things to be symmetrical and will reorganize until they are. If I get too much stimulation on one side of my body (get your mind outta that gutter girl) then I have to have some on the other--like if someone repeatedly touches my right arm, I will unconsciously touch my left. Aren't we humans interesting? LOL
Anyways, congrats on the loss...and thanks for being such a wonderful support person for me (and so many others). You are appreciated!!
I would want to clean 20 hrs a day. DH and I have constant arguments over the cleaniness of the house. Our house is not messy by any means. And DH never lifts a finger. But he grew up with his Grandmother and she went as far to iron underwear. So I guess he expects to see the same from me. I would love to be more organized. So if you want to give some of your OCD to me I would be more than willing to take some.I am a constant worrier about leaving things on though. Like, if we leave the house I want to immediatley turn around and go check the stove even if I havent cooked anything on there that day. So I agree, we all have our own obsessive habits. Take care.
Girl you are crazy! 3.4lbs is amazing especially at this stage in your journey. Even IF you have a gain next week it will AVERAGE out. girl, you ROCK! don't forget that! (((hugs))). I know things must have been really rough when you were younger. The important thing is that you are aware of your "issue" and try and maintain it to some extent. Love ya girl!
I am a constant worrier about leaving things on though. Like, if we leave the house I want to immediatley turn around and go check the stove even if I havent cooked anything on there that day. So I agree, we all have our own obsessive habits. Take care.
. But you know that. And it sounds like you are aware of why you are like that. ((hugs))