09/23/2010 21:07
I just cann't wait anymore !!!!!!!!
I can not wait to get this weight off. That's how I felt this morning, I was talking to myself and saying "God I cann't stand to be this fat anymore". All of a sudden I realize how much I hate it. I don't hate my body, I just hate being this size.
Well you see when I gain weight I don't buy new clothing, I have been wearing the same size 16 or 14 pants (like 4 in total) all year. Because one day I woke up in January and I was 207 pounds and now 8 months later even after some failed attempts at losing weight I am 217. 10 pounds in 8 months. That's insane. How does that happen?? Can anyone tell me??? Its insane. Well of course I want to take off the fat suit and start wearing my real suits. My work suits. Specially now that Fall is coming (well it is going to get here to NY at some point, right now it is 87 degrees out). I just cann't stand it anymore, its not that I hate my body (I was going to say something about that and lost my train of thought). I don't hate it, in fact I like it. I don't really think am that fat or that I look that bad. I just want to be smaller because I know am supposed to be smaller. Cause you cann't possible look ok at 217 pounds, maybe 187 but my weight has to be under 200. I just cann't wait for it to be under 200.
I am doing really well on Medifast. So far 4 days of success !!!! I just cann't wait anymore.