Maybe if I get this off my chest it won't bother me so much.
I am going to be 40 in five months. And I am so depressed. I am going to be 40 in five months and I am broke literally speaking I filed bankruptcy in June. I am going to be 40 years old and I weigh more than 200 pounds. I am going to be 40 years old and I don't have a family, my sister died suddenly four years ago, my mother won't talk to me for over a year and my brother who is on her side won't talk to me for over a year. I am going to be 40 years old. I tried to apologize to my mom but she won't accept my apology. I tried to apologize to my brother but he never responded. I am going to be 40 years old and am broke, overweight and with no family. Never in my wildest dream did I think this could happen to me. This is not the place you want to be at this age. I have nothing. I live paycheck to paycheck. I don't own my house, I don't car, savings, 401K nothing.
Maybe it's TOM but am going to be 40 years old and I feel miserable.
Posted By: BreatheAgain
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08/13/2008 14:48
(((((HUGS)))))
You are going to be 40 years old and you are still breathing, still here despite everything you're dealing with. To me that means you are very strong woman. Just keep making the best decisions you can for yourself, one at a time.
I am sorry you are feeling down!! You still have your hubby and daughter, and things will get better some day. At least you know that you have done everything to reconcile with your mom.
I'm so sorry you are feeling so down. But remember, you DO have a family. Family is not always blood. Just remember that. You have your husband and your daughter. And you have us. I love ya girl! Did it help to get it out?
You for sure have a lot of stuff....but I believe God doesn't give out more that we can take.....I've even believed that at my lowest times.....reflect on what happening....there is a lesson in there somewhere.
