You all are so wonderful. Your truly are my lifeline and support system. I want you all to know that I value and appreciate evey comment and caring word you have wrote. Even though I may not be able to catch up on all of you....I love you and I'm thinking about you.....
Today was my 26th birthday. Not the best but not the worst. I drove to Walla Walla, WA to see my dad in the hospital. I'll post a pic. Please ignore my fatrolls. I probably notice them before you do. lol.
My dad wasn't feeling too good today. He has low blood sugar issues like me and hasn't been able to eat since last Monday. He was so groggy he didn't even remember that it was my birthday. He and my mother never forget it so it was a little strange.
My mom took me to Applebee's since we dont have anything like that here and that's where I wanted to go. I had the tilapia off of the WW menu, the chocolate cake off the WW menu, and their sangria fruit drink. the food was good. The drink--- I was a little disappointed in as I love sangria and I'm sure this was loaded with cals.
I love you guys. I'm truly sorry If I'm not able to catch up on all your blogs. I'm thinking of you though--- please know that.
Well, I'm almost too tired to write this. I decided to go ahead and WI anyway. I was up .4lbs. Hardly a half a pound and I will take that.
My dad got out of surgery this evening and the surgery went well. However the cancer in his liver is not able to be removed and the dr. said that chemo would not get rid of it. He will still recieve chemo to "slow" it down. These means that my time with my dad is now limited. To what? I dont' know. the dr. seemed to hint at 3yrs.
I have to be strong for everyone and I'm playing "communicator" in the family. When I'm alone I have totally broke down. My heart hurts very bad....
I love you guys! Your support right now means so much. I don't know for how long I will need it....weeks, months, or longer.....BUT thank you.
I haven't been eating unhealthy but I have been over eating. I also have been drinking a little more than I should.
I now have to be the "strong one" for my family and deal with a not so thriving marriage. VERY hard with a 17 month old.
I love you guys! Did I say that yet? My dad goes into surgery tomorrow! I'm trying to stay positive.
I will probably go toWW's tomorrow but I may use my "FREE WI pass". I just cannot deal emotionally with a gain right now. We'll see. I get on the scale in the morning.
I'm trying hard to keep up with you all but please understand if I can't. I still am thinking of you!
EDIT: Does anyone think Mark's wife should be worrying after watching TBL???? I mean, I know he cried but there is some chemistry!!!!
So, I guess now that I know more info now I can post one of the reason I've been so stressed.
My dad was just diagnosed with colon cancer. He has a 90% obstruction-- so it's serious. It has also already spread to his liver. They also found one artery to his heart is clogged.
They are putting him into surger SOON. Wednesday in fact. They will remove part of his colon and also place this catheter type thing in his chest for chemo. In two weeks he will start chemo.
I have no idea how my parents are going to make it through financially. I certainly in no position to help. Please keep my parents in your prayers and thoughts. I'm going to have a lot on my shoulders now as the "only daughter" that lives close by (or even truly cares for that matter).
I'm so tired, I'll have tos ave more for later. I haven't been too focused on healthy eating. Not an excuse I guess but at this point in time other things are occupying my time and mind. I did eat at Applebee's today since there is one in the town that my dad has to go to the hospital at. (we are so rural that this is in a different state too I might add). I ate off the WW menu. It was okay.
I will try and catch up on blogs but please forgive me if I dont'. I love you guys! Thank you Carmen for checking on me!
I was down 1lb. I'm happy with that as there has been no running. In fact today I was having horrible IBS issues and wasn't able to go to the restroom ( I know Shelley, TMI LOL) . I thought "Great! This is going to completely ruin my WI!" So with bloat and all I lost a pound. Maybe it would have been more???
I was beginning to think no one loved me anymore because apparently the email notifications aren't working again! But I logged in and sure enough-- you guys DO love me! lol. Well, I love you too-- even if I can't comment on EVERY blog. Thank you all for your sweet comments about DD. I personally, think she's a doll. But I'm bias.
Wow, what a weekend. I'm totally pooped from it. My ear is still healing so of course no runs but I was so active this week I think I burned some mega calories.
Easter was good but exhausting. I got to see my sister and neices and that was great. Ciara hunted eggs for the first time. Got some great pics!!!! I hardly got to eat any Easter dinner. Probably a good thing! I had not really eaten the entire day then dinner came and everything was so chaotic that I only got three bites of ham, two bites of mashed potatoes, and four bites of asparagus. NO Easter candy either!
I'm still am dealing with a personal issue and I ask that you all just keep being great EP buddies to help me through this. I love you guys!
I hope I have a loss tomorrow! Wish me luck! I've been bad about blogs so I'm on a mission to check on everyone! Love ya! This a pic of Ciara on Easter...
I didn't blog yesterday guys--- I'm in the "midst" of my stressful weekend I spoke about earlier. I'm okay and my eating is good. No runs because I want to make sure my ear is healed and I'm about done with my antibiotics before I venture out in the wind/cold. I seem to still be losing so that's good!
Last night I edited my alfredo sauce recipe I shared earlier.....
TRY THIS IT IS WAY BETTER! Add a 3RD wedge of g/herb light L.C., ONLY use ONE tbls of flour, & 6OZ of chicken broth. It is MUCH BETTER AND SO MUCH CHEESIER. I recalculated points and it is the same as before. So all the rest of the ingredients are the same except for what I just wrote above. YUMMY! Gwynn, I hope you got my message before you made the "old" recipe!
I PROMISE to check in on you guys when I get home from work. I didn't get around to blogs yesterday but you all understand why. Love ya!
So Shauna had given me great advice about calling the specialist and pleading with them....... WELL before even reading her message I did that! I was in so much pain I could not forsee waiting another entire week from today.
I called, they said they were completely full but they didn't realize the severity of my situation and I needed to come in. They told me to come in and they would squeeze me between people and it might be a few hours. I had to go there with a 17 month old people! We were there 3 1/2 hours! OMG, it was horrible but it's a good thing I went.
Looked in my ear--- went "yuck!" and said lets go in this other room and you lay on this exam table. He then brough this big lens thing down and looked into my ear further. then he askef for a "tab KNIFE"! I was freaking. He then starting pulling on something in my ear and it hurt so freaking bad. I didn't cry but almost. He finally got it out and I had a blood CLOT bigger than the size of a DIME. It hurt so bad. He said "take a look at this!!!!" to all his nurses and myself---- like he was really proud. Quite entertaining.
They then gave me a hearing test to make sure I didn't loose any hearing and I aced it. That was good. He then took some of my sinus fluid which was not pleasant at all! It kind of hurt!!!
He gave me some nasal spray, told me to finish my antibiotics, and wants to see me in two weeks. He said tubes are still possible but he's hoping not. We shall see!
Yes, I'm going through some major stress and changes in my life right now and thank you all for being here. You guys are THE BEST!!!!! I'm staying on track--- although exercise is limited because of my ears. They are more important I suppose.
Well.....I didn't deserve it all. But I lost 1lb. This was enough to put me at my 10% again. I thought with what happened on saturday I'd be screwed. I'm positive I went at least 25pts over my entire weekly allowance and flex points.
DD I think is cutting some molars and cried the whole meeting so I wondered the halls with her--- missing almost everything.
It's been an awful week and I can't say why but it's going to get worse this weekend. I just want it to go as fast as possible. I want it to be over!
My ear is still bleeding a little and I have major ear and sinus pain today. I wish my appt. wasn't so far out.
Despite this rough time in my life and I'm grateful for my loss this week and I'm grateful for all of you!!!
He was so groggy he didn't even remember that it was my birthday. He and my mother never forget it so it was a little strange. 
