Yup, that's what tuesdays are! The day before dreaded WI so I have to be sure to be good! lol.
Thank you all for your wonderful kind comments. I'm sure I will be down at least a 1/2 lb at WI tomorrow. I've shown the same on my home scale the past two days which is .8lbs less than last week's official WI. If that's the case I will buy myself that pedometer! lol. Here's the bad news--- this week I went over my points by 17pts!!!!! OUCH. However I got some kind of activity in EVERYDAY this week. I'm amazed. I'm not at the intensity level like I am when I run but I have managed to get something in everyday. I NEVER do that. I always have a couple days off. hmmmmm.......I hope the scale is nice to me tomorrow. I've been good the last couple days! lol.
My dad is recieving his first chemo treatment as I'm writing to you now. I wish I could be with him but I can't because of my bloody car! (Now Jules & Stef, is that how you would say it??? )
Thank you all for your prayers! I love you! I'll try and catch up on blogs tonight after work.
So I've told myself that I can pull off any kind of loss this week (INSTEAD OF A MAINTAIN OR GAIN) then I will purchase the WW pedometer for myself at this week's WI on Wednesday.
I haven't been the best this week but I've had SOME control. lol. I will get through this. I snuck on the scale and I'm roughly down one lb from last week's WI. That was a little bit of a suprise. Now that that will just hang around to Wednesday or better yet--- maybe I could pull a better number than just a lb. That would lift the spirits!
My Dad starts his first chemo treatment tomorrow. I'm nervous for him.
My car is partially fixed. We got a new belt but my husband seems to think that I've lost a pulley that the belt goes on. It starts, I can turn the steering wheel now, and I don't lose battery power but it gets really hot really fast. hhhmmm...... So I'm still walking but today is absolutely beautiful and I don't mind at all.
I've managed to get so me activity in everyday. I'm not ready to get back to running but just any activity at all is what I'm going for.
Thank you all for the well wishes and blessing for my dad. It means so much. I have all of you to catch up on . I don't think I checked my google reader all weekend. I try and catch up tonight after work. I might go spend some time with my dad since this is his last night of being "normal". Whatever that is. Love you guys!
I'm freezing right now. This is the coldest spring I can ever remember since I've lived in Eastern Oregon. It's practically May and I want to wear my Winter boots! Stockshow will be here very soon and it's usually very hot and I'm afraid we will all freeze!
My dad's appt. went pretty well. He starts chemo on tuesday. It will be a 4hr process that day. They want to administer anti nausea medicine first. They will attach a pump and receive the chemo that way for 2 days straight. then it will be disconnected for two weeks. Then the process will be repeated. I don't know how for how long this will go on.
On the way home from taking him to his appt. I lost the serpentine (sp?) belt on my car. So it is undrivealbe at the moment. Which means I have to walk everywhere. This would be fabulous if it wasn't FREEZING and I have the baby! Yesterday I had to walk home in the rain with her. That really sucks. Poor thing.
My eating has been okay. I'm about out of food in the cupboards. I drank a little too much last night. I used more flex points than I originally planned and have a headache today.
Back to walking--- I think that is all I'm going to be capable of for awhile. I would love to run but it's just not going to happen right now. I think I'd like to get the new WW pedometer. It's pretty spiffy. It even has an activity mode button so that if you purposely are going on a walk for exercise it counts your activity points separately for that as oppose to all the steps you take in your regular day. I don't think on an average day I'm getting enough steps. I think it's about $23.95. If I have enough money next wednesday I think I will get it.
I will try to catch up with you all today. Thank you for all your support through this. I love you guys!
I'm up 1.4lbs. My leader is being really understanding and she doesn't even know about my marriage. She just knows about my dad. The funny thing about tonight was I walked away thinking that I was only up .4lbs. I was pretty happy about that--- she must have thought I was nuts. lol. When I got in the car andl looked at my book it said 1.4LBS! ACK! Funny huh?
I'm off to Walla Walla tomorrow for my dad's appt. I'll try and catch up on blogs tonight. I love you all and think you for your sweet comments!
I will have to WI today since I'm taking my father to his appt. with the Oncologist tomorrow in Walla Walla, WA. I'm expecting a gain. I'm just not in the right state of mind. I have a lot going on. Not an excuse but this is LIFE. So tonight I'll record my for sure gain. So far through this whole mess I've put on a pound and that's it. If I get through this and come out on the other side with just a 1 or 2lb gain it will be a miracle--- but doable.
I have some major catching up to do on blogs. So I will try and do some catching up tonight after I log my weight. Love ya guys!
I'm hanging in there guys.....thank you. My stress and hell are not nearly over but I'm hanging in there.
I made the BEST tacos tonight. I made homade salsa with fresh tomato and onion (0pts). the taco meat was ground turkey and you couldn't even tell. The tortillas were fat free and so were the refried beans. It was SO good.
I managed to get in 3 short walks today with the baby. Thank goodness. At this point any activity is good activity.
Thank you all for your support. I love you guys tremendously!
See the straight line in my graph? I maintained the EXACT same weight. I don't know if I'm happy about this or not.
Here were the postive things this week:
I did get out and get some exercise finally
I'm in a LITTLE better spirits
Here are the so,so/negative things:
I ate hte same most likely as I didn't quite track well and I know I went over my points
I didn't get as muh activity as I had hoped
Things in life are still shitty
I hope to have a better week. I really just need to get a hold of myself despite having a really shitty time in my life. It's not that i'm trying to feel sorry for myself--- it's just that I have a lot going on the preoccupies my time and mind.
Need I say more! I'm so happy for Ali! AND Kelly and all the others but she looked amazing. When she came out in that little black dress she was TINY! Her hips were gone and everything. Did anyone notice when she raised her arms she had stretch mark scars? I'm not criitcizing but just wondering if anyone else saw. This makes her more human to me and makes me feel like it's attainable. I mean I have horrible scars but if I can be that fit--- or close--- I would be happy. The scars would be war wounds!
What in the world am I going to do on Tuesday nights after the TBL Finale? lol. I'm pretty excited to watch it.
I forgot to mention with everything going on that the Bob Harper book I preordered arrived just before my birthday. I haven't even started it yet.....but I will.
Tomorrow is WI. I don't know what to expect. I'm trying not to worry too much.
Well, I regretfully weighed in at WW's. It could have been worse. I gained .6
I'm having a hard time dealing with things and although I have the knoledge and tools to not eat because of my emotions, sometimes I am NOT strong enough. I spoke a little with my leader about this tonight and she was very understanding. It made me feel a little better.
I'm also going through something else difficult besides my dad's health. I always said that I couldn't talk about it on here but now, it doesn't seem to matter. I may possibly be going through a separation. I'm not sure. All I know is that I'm in a toxic situation that after 8 years--- is not going to get better. I recieved some news yesterday that is so humilating and devastating that I'm to embarrassed to bring it up to any friends. He doesn't know that I know but in due time he will. I have to make healthy choices and this has to be one of them. I'm must so scared and so nervous.
ANYWAY, thank you all for your kind well wishes for my dad. He has his post op appt. tomorrow. I'll keep you updated. I love you guys. I'll try and catch up soon.
Thank you all for your supportive comments and birthday wishes.
My dad is now home. He is well but sore and cranky. He's still on a liquid diet. His post op appt. will be on thursday and we'll probably get an idea of when exactly he'll start chemo.
My eating has been okay. Pretty much like last week. I'm not eating badly persay but probably overeating as I've been slack on measuring. I'm doing my best right now and that's all I can do. It would be so nice to go out for a run to get some of this stress out but our weather has been very cold again. Where is Spring?
I will try very hard to catch up with you all. I love you!
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