I MISS YOU ALL TERRIBLY. I can't even remember what I wrote in my last update but last month I filed for divorce. Things have got real nasty and this is going to be a very rough journey. I havne't asked for anything other than I have full custody of our baby and he gets plenty of visitation.
I had to stop WW's because I have no money at all. I did find a job that I can walk to in our little town. It's going to be a humbling experience as I have always been able to use my brain and now it's going to be using my brawn. (sp?). I'm just thankful I found something.
I'm sure that I've put on about 4lbs. I thought I would lose but I completely gave up alcohol altogether until this whole mess is over. I think I'm replacing the alcohol with food. It used to make me feel full and I wouldn't eat as much. I think I'm eating more now. How is that? lol.
I will post a newer pic of myself. I do look happy in it. Some sense of freedom is finally creeping into my life and my heart. Love you all!
Posted By: Brandi Vaage
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07/25/2008 17:25
Hey there
I was so happy to see your post and your new pic. You look FABULOUS. While I am always sad to hear about a divorce, having gone through one myself makes me aware that what you need right now is unconditional understanding and support. So I am here if you ever need to talk, vent, or whatever.
Don't worry about the weight gain, if any. You have more than enough on your plate right now girl! And walking to your new job will help with that ok? Just take care of yourself and that little girl of yours. THAT is what is important right now....ok?
So great to hear how you are doing! Sorry its been so hard. Be tough. You're going to be fine. Don't worry about the gain because you need to just worry about your health and happiness, as well as Ciaras!! I saw your pics (thanks!) and you really do look beautiful and happy!!
I'm here for you, Brandi! I miss you and I'm sending my very best your way!
Love,
Shelley
xoxox
PS Brawn, huh? What, are you a lumberjack now? LOL
the new picture. So glad you wrote. Divorce is def. ugly especially with children involved. Stay strong and know that it will all work itself out. I'm still sorry you have all that pressure on you. Wish I could do something to help. Just know I'm here and will help anyways possible. But other than that stay safe and take care.
You really do look happy in your picture. I think it's all working out for the best. I'm sorry things are so hard right now. I really believe things are going to get better for you. Hugely better!
Im sorry to hear of this heartache you are facing right now. Know that you are not alone. And if you ever wanna chat about this stuff you can message me... Its something I went through 8 years ago.... You will make it through it, you are strong, and that sense of freedom can become a real joy with time.
I've been MIA for a year now, but back on the horse... glad your still around so we can ride this out together!
I am soooo sorry to hear about the tough times you are going through. :( Big hugs and you will get through it. You are doing everything that you can do and you look beautiful! You really do. Replacing alcohol with food at least is a better option. Even if you gain weight, it's probably a lot safer than drinking too much. Just keep thinking positively.
