04/01/2011 04:35
I met a fitness goal!!!!
I confess that I am a 30-something that never learned how to swim...so I hired a private swimming instructor and in 3 short lessons, I actually swam today!!!!!! Whoo-hoo! Of course, I still need to get stronger and build endurance, but I overcame my fear of having my head under water (I had a near-drowning experience as a teenager), made up my mind that today would be the day I swam without holding on to a flotation device, and I did it! YAY!!!!! I'm excited because now I have an exercise option for the days when my knees, back and ankle are bothering me, plus, I overcame a lifelong fear! 
I had a body wrap today, too, which is always nice and relaxing. I almost petered out and decided to be lazy and skip krav, but I didn't and I'm glad I dragged my butt into the gym for class because I feel so much better for having gone. My trainer is on vacay, so I need to force myself to workout without him yelling at me. Krav does that. LOL
On scale news, I still seem to be wavering between 228 and 231. I know why. My diet is all over the place. Damn evil girl scout cookies combined with the fact that I haven't hit the gym the way I wanted to this week because I've been busy working on my parent's house, which has lead to more stress eating. It's been a year since I lost them now and going through their things has been painful for me. I miss them something awful. I almost started to pick up the phone to call mom to tell her I was able to swim on my own today then caught myself. I wonder if I'll ever stop having those slip-ups where I forget that calling my mom and dad to tell them good news isn't an option anymore. 
I just need to get myself over this hump and get back to being more organized with my diet and step up the exercise routine. The more fit I get, the harder it is for me to get the same burn from my workouts and therefore, the results are not as impressive as they were. I've had moments where I've thought about doing Jenny Craig again, but it's expensive, for one thing and I would much rather spend that money elsewhere, plus, living with 2 men makes it difficult to eat separately and it's much easier to cook healthy and eat less than to cook good food for them and have a frozen dinner for me. I just need to put down the cookies and stop diving for food when I feel blue.
Anyway, the biggest news was the fact that I overcame a big fear and I'm totally pumped by that!
I'm off to bed, since I have to work the weekend.
Have a happy and healthy weekend!
-Bethany