03/02/2010 15:15
Had a Bad Day
Well, 2 days ago, I ate 2 mini brownie, those "2 bite" brownies.. Not so bad right? Didn't gain, didn't lose.. Yesterday, had a little blow out. Ate about 6 mini brownies, drank a big glass of chocolate milk, had cranberry orange cake, and sausage, and I don't think anything else, but in my daze, I may have consumed small children or animals, lol. Just feel like a failure for doing that. I know that I am gong to be fine, and that today is another day, and I am not giving up on my lifestyle change.. It is just, as soon as you eat something that you know is bad, a switch goes off and it is like, oh well, you screwed up, quick put something else bad in your mouth!! It is amazing how self defeating I can be.. I was eating the mini brownies so fast I was almost gagging on them..
I have to quit drinking soda. I drink Diet Pepsi, but I know that it would help my well being to stop consuming artificial sweeteners. It is the only bad food/thing that I still have!! And I have post nasal drip, so it helps everything clear up in the morning.. Maybe I should just start cutting back, because I do drink quite a bit..
I have to get back on track..No more eating crap at work.. It isn't at home that I have any problems, I am totally accountable for everything at home, but I work in a kitchen of a nursing home, so I am surrounded by cooked dinners and snack foods, and this is where I falter..
Today is a new day, yesterday is just a bad memory, and tomorrow is even brighter than today!!