Haven't posted for a bit, just doing other things. Had a bad couple of days a few weeks back, but worked it out and got myself back under control. I borrowed my sister in laws Wii balance board, and have been doing EA Active, Wii Fit Plus and Gold's Gym Boxing every morning, EA Active twice sometimes. Got really great Reebok Runners running shoes, really light and airy. Got a pedometer too, and yesterday I clocked in 13,000 steps, with nothing extra in my day but going to work. Been getting tons of compliments and comments on my weight loss, including from my female residents (I work in a nursing home), and they are all really supportive!
I am 5 1/2 lbs from my half way mark. The lowest I have ever been in my adult life is 194 lbs, and I am so excited to go past that, giving it a kick in the ass as I go. I am now feeling myself get smaller, very slowly, and I find that the exercise is helping give me more energy and pumping me up mentally I think.
I have stopped doing my food journal.. I eat the same things every day, almost without fail.
Breakfast: Egg Beaters omelette with mushrooms and a tablespoon of cheese
Lunch: Oven baked chicken breast with salad and low fat dressing mixed with salsa
Dinner: Same as lunch
Snacks: Apple or kiwi or air popped popcorn or pear, or a seasonal fruit (raspberries, blackberries, strawberries, watermelon)
Drinks: Breakfast-milk, lunch and dinner-water or diet Pepsi, depends on how I feel, at work-water..
If we are going away I cook my chicken in advance and pack all of my food. We went away to sister in laws last weekend (3 hours one way), and I packed everything that I would need in a big cooler, and brought another cooler for healthy drinks and snacks for the kids. I am trying really hard to get them eating and drinking healthier, There is no longer regular pop brought into our house, Hubby has lost 15 lbs since Christmas, and I would like to think that I had something to do with that. We have take out once a month. Hubby loves Chinese, toddler loves McDonalds, Tween changes her mind constantly, so we hit the Food Court at the local mall, and I get Subway, everybody else gets what they want and we all eat together, happy with our choices.. You can't beat that!!
Well, 2 days ago, I ate 2 mini brownie, those "2 bite" brownies.. Not so bad right? Didn't gain, didn't lose.. Yesterday, had a little blow out. Ate about 6 mini brownies, drank a big glass of chocolate milk, had cranberry orange cake, and sausage, and I don't think anything else, but in my daze, I may have consumed small children or animals, lol. Just feel like a failure for doing that. I know that I am gong to be fine, and that today is another day, and I am not giving up on my lifestyle change.. It is just, as soon as you eat something that you know is bad, a switch goes off and it is like, oh well, you screwed up, quick put something else bad in your mouth!! It is amazing how self defeating I can be.. I was eating the mini brownies so fast I was almost gagging on them..
I have to quit drinking soda. I drink Diet Pepsi, but I know that it would help my well being to stop consuming artificial sweeteners. It is the only bad food/thing that I still have!! And I have post nasal drip, so it helps everything clear up in the morning.. Maybe I should just start cutting back, because I do drink quite a bit..
I have to get back on track..No more eating crap at work.. It isn't at home that I have any problems, I am totally accountable for everything at home, but I work in a kitchen of a nursing home, so I am surrounded by cooked dinners and snack foods, and this is where I falter..
Today is a new day, yesterday is just a bad memory, and tomorrow is even brighter than today!!
I just did my first 30 Day Shred. I was sweating pretty good, and my arms are all giggly, but over all not too bad.. I hate push ups though.. I have patella femoral syndrome, where my kneecap likes to move out of the proper position, so when I get down to do push ups, even "girly" ones, my knee just screams and begs me to stop.. I power through it, but I am not supposed to because it can aggravate it and lead to swelling.. and I don't know what size weights they were using, but I was using my 5 lbs ones because Toddler took the 3 lbs ones and was exercising with me, and she wouldn't give them back. My arms were so wiggly and jiggly I could barely finish the strength portion, but I did it.
I want to do it everyday, I mean it is only 25 minutes of hell a day, I have 2 kids, I go through more Hell in a day than that just from them..lol And add hubby to the mix and I am always in Hell, lmao..
When it warms up I am going to add bicycling and walking to that. I am not sure that I want to be at the gym working out just yet.. we will see how things go with Jillian first..
Not really, just thought it would make a good post title..
Worked tonight with the girl that I secret call "My Goal Weight". She weighs 160 lbs, She is 5'11" tall , 1 inch taller than me, and she is so pretty.. and nice..if I was a guy, I would crush on her, but I am a girl, so I am envious.. She is 10 weeks pregnant, and complaining about her bump, LOL WHAT BUMP?!?
Her "bump" is smaller than me on a good day.. and she keeps telling me how skinny I am, and it makes me giggle, because I still have such a long way to go.
"Half Ton Teen" is on TV right now..It is amazing how much his mother is pushing food at him, but she tells the doctor that she doesn't. I couldn't imagine ever being that big.. I guess once you start to spiral, some people just can't get out of it.. I know what is like to have my thighs rub together, so I can't imagine having the rolls of fat hanging and rubbing like that. It must be so painful..
We are going to Toronto and Alliston tomorrow.. For those of you not familiar with Ontario, It is about 3 hours one way to go everywhere we need to go..Correction, we don't need to go, Hubby is dragging us to see his family..
His mother is a pot head, she doesn't live in one place in particular, she roams from sister to sister (he has 3). She is on disability and works part time at the army base cleaning barracks. His oldest sister is the one we won't be seeing tomorrow, but she is the one I like.. She has a good job, owns her own house and is a nice person who will help us out anytime if we need it.. His next sister is manipulative and will say whatever she can to get whatever she can from you. She goes from job to job, getting fired because she is horribly brash and outspoken. The next sister used to be a model for a couple of years, appeared in a couple music videos, and is now addicted to cocaine and pain killers.. she is a lesbian (nothing wrong with that by the way, just stating a fact), she is on government assistance and works, but does not claim the money that she makes, and is manipulative like the other sister..
It is very stressful going up there, because I know Hubby loves his sisters and mother very much, but they always take advantage of him, getting him to do things for them or buy things for them. We fight about it whenever he suggests going to see them.. 12 year old hates going up there, and so do I. And it is a long drive for Toddler..
Oh well, the only reason I go is to make Hubby happy.. Probably won't be back on til tomorrow night.
Nothing new or exciting.. Well, my great Aunt died, but we weren't close or anything.
We (My family and I) went to the Y last night to go swimming..we all got ready, and on the way to the pool through the change rooms, there are giant mirrors..and that's when I saw it.....My DOUBLE ASS!!!!! I fit in my bathing suit just fine, not too tight, not to loose, but underneath the bum of my bathing suit, I have some sort of weird fat bubble, looks like a double chin of butt fat.. I just stood there, staring at it, and then I grabbed it and shook it. I glared at my hubby, and demanded,"Did YOU know this was here?!?"
He acted like it wan't a big deal, but I almost went back into the change room to cry! I have never seen it before, and trust me, being a big girl, I have spent alot of time looking in the mirror at my different rolls and stretch marks..
The only thing I can think of is that I lost some fat out of my hiney, and it was flappy skin.. IDK, but it drove me nuts.. I almost couldn't walk out to the pool, I was so afraid that someone would see my double ass..
Came downstairs after everyone was asleep to do the Jillian DVD, but soon realized that I have no idea how to switch our Flat screen that we got for Christmas over to watch it!! Hubby does but he was already fast asleep, so I will have to get him to show me tonight.. I also don't know how to hook the Wii up by myself, I need to learn how to do that too!!
Yes, I am evil.. I pureed cauliflower and put it in the turkey meatloaf I made for the family tonight.. They loved the meatloaf, and raved about it, and then I told them about the cauliflower...tehehe. 12 year old glared at me,"OMG Mommy, you didn't! I HATE cauliflower!", lmao, sure you do!! Hubby just shrugged..toddler doesn't know what cauliflower is anyways, so she just smiled.. but they liked it and that is what matters..
My dad came over today..It is funny some Dads.. My Dad walked in and turned to me, "Holy Christ Bob, you are melting away!! How much weight have you lost? 50 pounds?" I just hugged him, silly old fart. And me in sweat pants and shirt at the time too, I know he was just trying to boost my ego, but I love him for it..
Got Jillians 30 Day Shred in the mail, along with the calorie counting book. I already love that one.. Think I am going to try the DVD tonight after everyone goes to bed. I am very self conscious about working out in front of anyone just yet.
Oh! Almost forgot.. My Mom and Dad went on a health kick a couple of years ago and bought a big home gym thing and a treadmill. My Dad uses the treadmill, but not the home gym, so I asked him if I could borrow it, and he said yes!! So if I start walking, eventually running hopefully, then I can do some weight training too! They say that you burn more calories if you put on more muscle, so the more muscle the better for me!! WOOHOO!! lol.
Waiting for my paycheck to get new shoes and a pedometer this week..
Well, I have discovered that I absolutely HATE Spaghetti Squash, roflmao..
I took as many bites as I could without gagging, threw it in the garbage, and then got a bowl of spaghetti with turkey meatballs that I made the hubby and kids..
Oh well, if I didn't try it, I would have always wondered what it tasted like..on the other hand, the turkey meatballs and Italian stewed tomatoes in the sauce were really good. I guess I should have known better, I don't even really like regular squash.. lol..
I have decided that I need to buy a pedometer. And new running shoes too..My poor Adidas' have seen better days, and I have worn right through the insole to the foam before the plastic.. I am such a cheap skate too, that I hate the idea of buying expensive running shoes, but I do realize the benefit of buying better quality shoes..
Also need to get a new bike.. Sold my old one to hubby's mom, who bent the frame anyways, so she bought it from us..it wasn't that great of one anyways, but now I need to get another one. I only live 10 minutes away from work, so I want to bike to work in the spring summer and fall.
Going to make Spaghetti Squash "Spaghetti" tomorrow night.. Kind of excited. I love Italian food, so hopefully this will taste enough like regular spaghetti that it will satiate my appetite! I am making it and instead of spaghetti sauce like the recipe recommends, I am going to use Italian stewed tomatoes and some hot salsa and put the in the Magic Bullet, to make a sauce out of them.. Sound O.k.?
I am really on a salsa kick, and the 2 ingredients together doesn't even come close to the calories or sugar in spaghetti sauce..
Got ground turkey to make regular spaghetti sauce for the family, and going to use it to make some meatloaf for them too.. Hubby doesn't really care what I use, as long as I am cooking and he doesn't have too, lol. My next move is to switch them to wheat wheat pasta.. I think I will put them into it gradually. They really love their pasta, and I don't want to turn them off whole wheat right away..
Well, I switched some shifts at work and have 5 days off in a row!! Woo Hoo!!
I think I am going to take the girls out and take a bunch of pics on my Nikon.. I have a great camera and usually take a ton of pics in the summer, but not so many in the winter because I HATE the cold!!
Making a ham for the family tonight for dinner. With rice and corn. I will be having chicken breast and salad..I mix salsa and ranch dressing together for my salad, it is soo yummy! IDK why but I am really into spicy salsa right now..I love the chipotle dressing they have at wendy's but it is sooo full of fat! But the stuff I make tastes like it, so it will have to do!
I wish I could think of something poignant to say, something that would cause some sort of miraculous breakthrough for me.. But I swear I get on here and every thought I had for the day disappears out an ear..
Went to the mall for lunch with my hubby and toddler. Toddler had McDonalds, Hubby had Chinese food and I had Subway. Thank God for Food Courts!! I had a 6" Turkey breast on whole wheat, lots of veggies, no dressing, white american cheese. I had already went to there website and figured everything out. I don't like any of there "no/low fat" sauce options, so I brought low fat ranch dressing with me in my purse!! I felt like a tool pulling it out and using it, but that is what needed to be done! And it was good!!
I am down to 220 lbs today, finally inching my way over that hump in the road I was having..Tried on my "skinny" jeans, the ones that fit me at 196, my lowest before getting pregnant with my toddler.. I got them on and done up!! I had muffin top, but I got them buttoned up! So I should be able to wear them hopefully by next month! I would love to be at my goal weight by my birthday (end of June) but 60 lbs in 4 months is a little unrealistic..lol Maybe under 200 by my birthday would be a better goal..
Guess I better get ready for work..I have to look beautiful for all the seniors, LMAO!!
Got home from work..Had broccoli, squash and some turkey. had popcorn for a snack.. Hopefully I will be down tomorrow too..
Gawd, I just want to be hot and thinner..I wouldn't mind being voluptuous, but I would love to be thin...even just for a few days, so I could experience what it was like..
