I am so excited! Tomorrow is my LAST day on Phase 1... Thought I wouldn't make it this far but I did. Okay so I had some cheats and screw ups along the way but I am SO NOT going to let that get me down!
When I go into town to grocery shop tomorrow I will be looking for some key items:
Something Quick to make... life's rough when you have to cook EVERYTHING Low in Carbs Low in Sugars (these will turn into carbs!)
I also found online that they have South Beach Diet products. They sell some of them at the grocery store I'm going to. I've never looked for them before, and it's probably best I didn't for the simple fact that... well they are only for Phase 2 and 3... it would have REALLY bothered me to know that when I saw them during Phase 1... just too much cooking involved in Phase 1.
So I stepped on the scale today even though I shouldn't have... I have lost only 1 pound according to that silly thing. Tomorrow is the day that I am ACTUALLY going to weigh myself and take it into account... so I'll wait to update until then... and then if I don't like it... I'll just wait bwhahaha
Tomorrow will be another long day (though I won't have to be at work... that is the worst place ever right now). I will have to go to the Car Dealership and have them make new keys for DH's new truck and then I have to go grocery shopping.
I'll have to stop in somewhere for lunch and now I just KNOW that I can find something GOOD to eat ANYWHERE! That's just glorious.
I just had to stop in and let everyone know that I didn't even fib while I was in town. I stopped at Burger King and got my Whopper BUT I told them, leave off the bun! No fries for me either... And I'll tell you what... the Whopper tastes pretty much the same without the bun and I didn't even miss it!
I was so happy with myself. All day today and no cheats! Yay!
I just want to thank you all for your kind encouragement. It really means alot. I know I will make it this time... in fact I have done REALLY well today.... The lady who said that to me brought in a cake for someone's birthday today and she asked me if I wanted some and I said "No Thanks" She was crushed because she made it herself and I wouldn't try it... I wanted to prove a point that I CAN do it!
Anyway like I said I've done REAL well today. After work I have to go run into town to pick up my DH's medications so I will have to find somewhere that has something suitable for me to eat. This should be interesting LOL because I REALLY want a BK Whopper! But I'll do it, I'll get a nice cut of meat of something and some veggies and be happy
Only 2 more days of Phase One... that means on Saturday I get to have a bowl of cereal for the first time in TWO WEEKS! I'm exstatic!
Okay, I'm sorry everyone this is going to be a quick rant before my niece comes over to use my computer and I don't get it for the rest of the night (boooo!)
So I was at work today and my friend who is my motivator wasn't there. So I was talking to my other friend who thinks dieting is stupid because she has done it all her life (she's 60). I was telling her how hard it was because of my mornings. I told her that I was having a hard time with it and I was hoping that when I start Phase 2 of South Beach that I would have an easier time because I get my fruits back and I get SOME carbs. PLUS they have a quick morning breakfast bar that I can buy. Then next words out her mouth was "It doesn't matter, you're going to quit within a month anyway."
I did everything I could keep from crying. It TRULY hurt my feelings that she was so rude and unsupportive. I am trying SO HARD to make this work and someone who always said that I was "overweight" told me that I wouldn't be able to make it.
I WANT to do this... I NEED to do this. I"m just so upset right now. I know that once I get used to this a bit more I'm going to be fine... I just need to get used to it. I don't know why she has to be like that, it really hurt me.
I'm going to go call my supportive friend now and cry
So my mother in law just called and asked me if I would like some fresh tomatoes from her garden! HECK YES! So I went to her place (which is just next door... and no, it's not a hassle, I have great inlaws) and got my garden fresh tomatoes.... heavenly.
She also gave me 2 zucchini's and more cucumbers than I can count! Insentive to eat my veggies because her garden veggies are DELICIOUS! I"m so excited.
Of course I still have 5 zucchini's from last week that I haven't shredded yet. DH and I will be doing that tomorrow after work.
I know last year her crop turned out ONE zucchini... this year I have 7 so far. I shred them and freeze them to make zucchini bread throughout the year... and zucchini cookies... and zucchini cake... okay... I'll quit drooling now... but now you can see why I'm so overweight... I can take ANYTHING healthy and make it TOTALLY unhealthy! It's a gift LOL Actually not to brag on myself but I'm an excellent baker, so that's what makes it so hard to go on South Beach. I told myself after a few months on it when my control gets better I will start making my desserts again... until then everyone at work will suffer....
Well today I'm a bit disappointed with myself. I DID have that cake (as planned) just a small half piece... another coworker gladly took the rest.
I went home from work after lunch because I felt ABSOLUTELY terrible. I had (still have) a bad headache and I'm really hot. Happened the last time I started eating right too. Guess my body just isn't used to it anymore.
Anyway I went home and took a nap and then I woke up hungry. DH asked me what I wanted him to fix for me and I said "pancakes or lasagna:" Carbs or Carbs basically. He looked at me funny and said "Are you sure?" I told him I was very sure... and I was LOL That lasagna was delicious.
I'm not going to beat myself up about it though. I will get back on track tomorrow and move on. Hopefully I"ll be feeling MUCH better tomorrow because I still feel awful. But I will be going to bed earlier (last night I couldn't fall asleep until almost 1 am) and taking some MORE tylenol (don't know why, it hasn't done anything the first 2 times I have taken it LOL but this one will be a PM to help me sleep)
Anyway I hope everyone had a better eating day than I did... and tomorrow I will be BACK ON TRACK.
Well I've done pretty good today. I had some mozzeralla cheese sticks this morning for breakfast with water... Not exactly the GREATEST but it filled me up. Then when I went to show off our new SUV to my dad in town I grabbed a salad at Wendy's with a diet coke. I didn't even eat the whole thing. I tell you what, that phetermine works wonders. I can't believe how little I eat with it. Then for dinner I had another salad, asparagus and half of my steak. I couldn't eat the whole thing and pawned the rest off on DH who didn't finish it either.
I tell you, it's real nice to have DH eating what I serve. He even eats the salad... though he didn't eat it with dressing, which I thought was kinda gross (I have a hard enough time with the lettuce as it is LOL)
Tomorrow will be a challenge. I already put in a leave slip to not go to work tomorrow a couple of weeks ago... well then everyone decided tomorrow as the day to do our "boss appreciation day" and I ended up buying EVERYTHING for it... (they gave me the money) We got him a cake (that's the hardest part, i know I won't be able to resist it so only ONE SMALL piece for me, no leftovers for me) a nice paperweight with his name, a thank you and our group name, a gift certificate to Ruby River Steakhouse, another gift card to Bed, Bath and Beyond (he loves to cook) and a card. Plus I bought sodas and chips for everyone with the remaining money.
I need to go but I don't WANT to go. I will though, DH is taking off and it will be nice of me to give him some alone time. We can all use a little of that. Plus he's off Friday so I'll have my alone time then, although I'll probably be grocery shopping in town during that *sigh*
It has been a busy busy weekend. I didn't get ANYTHING done in my house (except laundry) I still have dishes in the sink (I wish I had a dishwasher) That's alright though. It'll get done when it gets done. I'm not going to fret over that.
Still deciding if I want to work 10 or 12 hour shifts this week. Still telling myself I should leave early tomorrow! LOL We'll see.
Have a great day everyone! I hope your weekend was awesome!
I find that right now my hardest time is in the morning. South Beach Breakfasts are all eggs and I've always had toast with my eggs... and I can't. It's real weird to eat my eggs with no toast, I'm getting used to the taste but it sure is different. Oh and I"m not too wild about having to drink a V8 every morning... I'd rather get that smack in the head from the commercial. Not to mention on a work day it's hard to get that done. I had to start waking up a half an hour early just to do that... Which is hard for me. I CHERISH my sleep!
I've done good so far this morning though. I ate 2 eggs and some milk and I'm feeling pretty good, it filled me up. Now I"m off to go get dressed and DH is going to pick me up to go look at new cars!
It WILL get easier, all I have to think is ENGLAND!
Well let's see if I even know WHERE to start. I've never journaled about weight loss before... of course the first few times I've tried to lose weight I failed MISERABLY... quickly too.
I've been heavy all my life. Wasn't quite sure why because I ate the same things as other people... now I realize sure they eat that too, but I eat it A LOT more than they do.
I've also discovered in the first week I've been on South Beach that I am a SERIOUS emotional eater. I get upset, I eat. That's all there is too it. I learned this REALLY on Tuesday.
Tuesday was an AWFUL AWFUL day. Work was terrible, and then I came home to find that my 6 month old Labs had torn up the surprise gift that I had bought to surprise my husband with. I bawled like a baby. Add on top of that, my appetite supressants were NOT working and I had been starving all day (I do NOT do well hungry) and I hadn't brought anything to work that I could have on my diet and ended up breaking it (thus calling myself a failure for not even lasting a full week).... we'll just say it was BAD. I cried to my husband and as he consoled me I said "i just want a cookie"
I heard myself say that and I went "huh? Wait, I'm not hungry now" (I had just finished dinner) And I just could not figure out why on earth I wanted a cookie. I guess I feel that eating a cookie would be MUCH easier than dealing with the emotional pain I was going through. CRAZY. No WONDER I got to 262 lbs!
So I"m retraining myself. If I get upset and I'm not hungry, I won't allow myself food. I'll go find something else to do. Crochet, read, goof around on here, anything but allow myself to eat just because I'm sad.
I'm blessed though, I have a WONDERFUL husband who is so supportive of me. This has been a difficult week because for the first 2 weeks of South Beach you cut out ALL sugar and carbs... even the good ones. It's hard because I never went a day without them... I've almost gone a week through and I have only fibbed on 3 days... while that still is not as good as I would like I still found I lost six pounds so that should be alright. He's dealt with me through my emotional roller coaster and hasn't said a word about it (until we went to the dr today... he said PLEASE give her an appetite suppressant that works, she's constantly upset when she is hungry!)
Not only that but when I asked my husband if he would reward me for losing the weight he asked what i had in mind. I said a trip to Georgia and he made the deal that if I take it off and keep it off for 3 months we will go to Georgia... which sounds GREAT to me... though since them I have changed it to Disney World... He said we'll go wherever I want Then he added if I keep it off for a year and a half after that... We'll go to England together! I'm so excited!
So this weight MUST come off... it will take awhile... 112 is no easy task (though now it's 99!) I believe I can do it!
bwhahaha
Not to mention on a work day it's hard to get that done. I had to start waking up a half an hour early just to do that... Which is hard for me. I CHERISH my sleep! 
Then he added if I keep it off for a year and a half after that... We'll go to England together! I'm so excited!