So here I sit, down 36.4 pounds from my start. Looking better, feeling better and down to a size previously seen almost 8 years ago. Yet I have lost my current motivation to keep going and push myself over that 200 lbs hurtle. My gaol was to be under 200 by Memorial Day. Well, that did not happen. Then by my son's birthday but unless I lose 3.6 lbs by next Thursday, that is not gonna happen either. This time of year is getting to me. I WANT to keep losing but I have party after party I am invited to and I don't want to abstain from all the party fun. I am being good at these parties (for the most part) and in between them, but my weight loss is now down to only a pound or less per week. I am trying to work out but with the kids out of school, they don't want to be dragged to the club and my 8yo is really too old to sit in the daycare room with the under 4 crowd. And since she has a badly sprained ankle we are not even doing all the outside stuff we usually would. I know, I hear it too, excuses, excuses, excuses. Truth is, I am SICK and tired of the food. I miss barbeque and the many tastes of summer. Most of which are healthy and low in fat. I just have to watch my portions. I love all the fresh veggies of the spring but my husband is not as supportive either (not that he ever would have won any prizes before) but he wants me to go to all these parties with him and enjoy myself and not worry about every bite I take or sip I drink. Okay, I am 13 lbs from my 1/2 way point. I vow to do all I can to lose those 13 lbs by my birthday. I want to be at 1/2 way by Aug. 5! That should not be too much to ask of myself. That should be SO do-able. I will recommit myself when we return from our 2 week vacation. That's 13 lbs in 5 weeks. I can do it! I WILL do it. JUST DO IT! (as Nike says. )
Okay, my ranting of the other day was a direct result of the prednisone the doctor put me on. It makes me depressed and hungry. NOT a good combination. I had WI today and only lost .8 of a pound. I know it is because of the damn drug. Luckily I am already being weaned off of it. I will continue to increase my water intake and go to my club. My current goal is to go there 3 times a week. I am not going to let this get me down. I am going to get up and move on. I feel good, I am looking better. And I have a date with my husband this weekend. I want to find an active date to go on, but don't have a clue what to do. Maybe bowling? Mini-golf? I'll have to think about it. We are doing dinner too. I am going to use a splurge and enjoy myself but not do any damage. I need this so much. Hope it will be fun.
Ugh, here it is, I am finally getting close to my first mini goal and I don't know if it is the meds my doc put me on or what but I am suddenly hungry all the time for stuff I shouldn't have. I am dying for a BIG cheeseburger or else a quesidilla from my favorite mexican place or something else big and fatty. Maybe it is because it is like I have gone so long being satiated but not "FULL". Every once in a while, it would be nice to feel full. Maybe I am just wanting to sabatoge my progress. I am depressed, and tired. I have been home for several days with a sick kid, my husband has not been around much and my best friend has a new baby and no time (understandably) for anything else. I am feeling alone and sorry for myself. Why this makes me want to eat I have no idea. Maybe food brings the only variety into my life? The weather has me down too, cold and rainy. I am feeling unloved and unappreciated and who cares if you are fat or thin when you are invisable. I feel like a glorified servant. Well, enough bitching for one day. I am just feeling sorry for myself. I need to get out and exercise but until my son is better I can't even go to the club. Ugh, maybe it is just PMS. LOL
Only 7 more pounds until I hit my first real goal!!
Well, here it is, finally getting nice outside. I am finally able to and have time for exercise. I am going to my club at least twice a week and still doing my PT twice a week. I am officially down 32 lbs. My clothes are still not as loose as I would like but my consultant did measurements today and I am down 17 inches. People are finally beginning to notice, and that is nice. These next 8 lbs are going to seem to take forever. I can't wait to be under 200 lbs. It has always been my mini goal. I am also only 18 lbs from my 1/2 way point. I can't wait to eat real food that I prepare. I actually miss cooking and it will be great to start again with barbequing. I want to learn to grill veggies and I am really looking forward to some home-made shish-ka-bob.
My husband has been very supportive in some ways and not so much in others. He does like the way I am looking right now and he keeps telling me that I am smaller but he also keeps going out and eating fast food and some of my favorite things right in front of me. It is hard for me to watch him stuff himself on my favorites while I get none. And he is gaining weight. I think he is actually heavier than he has ever been. He keeps saying he is going to start his diet "next week" but then doesn't. The funny thing is that when he really starts he will drop 50lbs in 3 months just by cutting out ice cream and starting to run again. I just wish he would do it. I am worried about his health. One reason I am doing this is to get healthy and he has a ton of risk factors from heredity that I don't have. He has to do something. I think I will start to work on him to join me on the weight loss train. Wish me luck.
Well, I am back from my vacation. I was not especially good but not totally bad on vacation either. I ate bigger portions than I should have but between the good choices I made and theextra exercise I actually lost .8 and did not gain! My main goal was to maintain and not gain so I look at my loss as a huge success.
Now for my really good news. I have a follow up appt. with my doctor on Friday and my physical therapist thinks she will release me to go back to my work out club. I can't wait to go back to my workout. This will help the weight come off and tone what needs to be toned. Plus I really liked my workout and need that release again. I know it will be a while before I can do everything I could do before my surgery, but this will be a huge step in the right direction.
I have to lose 7 lbs this month to stay on my 10 lb/month target, and the only way to do that is to start to work out. I feel like for the last month things have been so slow and I need to kickstart my weightloss. I am getting discouraged and need to see some more results soon to keep up my momentum.
I made it through the baby shower with flying colors. I picked a JC-friendly sandwich, had them not bread the chicken and then only ate 1/2 and brought the other 1/2 home for my husband. I also choose the fruit on the side instead of the french fries. In the old days I would have choosen the strawberry-cheesecake stuffed french toast and eaten all of it! I also had a very small piece of the cake and only took 3 small bites of it. Overall it was a success. The next day I did have a small stumble though. I was supposed to have the bean with ham and bacon soup but once I cooked it and tasted it I knew I could not eat it. I threw it down the sink. It was already 3:00 in the afternoon and I was starved. I know I should not have let it get so late before lunch, but life gets crazy sometimes. So I grabbed a yogurt and when that was not enough I finished my son's peanut butter sandwich. Other than that, I did not stray from the plan at all. Well, then I had my WI on Thursday and even with being so good, I was only down .3 lbs. But my conselor insistes it was because I was down over 5 lbs the previous week and my body was just catching up. I also know that since I am still fighting the dumb pnomonia I am not even doing as much natural exercise as normal. Well, of course, when I got on my home scale on Saturday I am now down another 1.5 lbs. So I hope I am back on the losing side and it was just one week of plateau. It does kinda blow my hope to be down 25 by the time we leave for Disney though. We leave in 12 days and I would have to lose 6 lbs in that time. I just don't think that can happen. Oh well, my goal is still to be under 200 by the first day of Summer. I still think that is VERY doable, and if the Gods are smiling on me, I'll do it by Memorial Day and be 180 by my birthday. That would be something.
Hope you are all having good weeks. Catch up with you later. If you ever stop into the JC chat room I am under the name of Kinsey. See ya there!
Ugh, I just wrote this really long involved post and somehow it got erased and not posted. So I'll post the short version...
I am one month on the diet and down almost 20lbs. I feel stronger, better, more confident. I am walking taller and my clothes feel better. I am doing this.
I just found out that I have pnomonia. I am not supposed to do any physical activity until I am feeling better. But I have not been doing much anyway but now I have an excuse. I do need to make up a plan for when I feel better and stick to it. I want to be ready for our family vacation in 20 days. I can't wait to get to FL and see my parents and then on to see the Mouse. I know I'll get lots of exercise in while walking round the "World" and swimming with the kids. We have plans to rent boats and bikes too so I will have that exercise too. I will be watching what I eat while there, but not doing the Jenny Craig food for those days. My goal is to maintain what I have lost and not gain, but not to try too hard to keep losing. I want to have fun and not have to worry about every bite I take. I need this vacation and only hope I can be down to a size 18 before we go. I have 3 weeks to lose maybe 7 lbs. I should be able to do that. If I am 215 when we go, I'll be VERY happy.
Good luck everyone and keep up the good work. Thanks for all the support. Have a good week.
This is both easy and hard at the same time. I know that makes no sense, but it is easy to follow when it is mapped out for you, hard when you have to do it for yourself and you are addicted to food. My major problem --- I just love good food. Megan and I went out to lunch yesterday and there were so many good things on the menu that it was really hard for me to get what I 'should' get. I did, so I guess that is a success, but I was surly the rest of the day because I felt I denied myself one of the few pleasures I get in life. Why do I feel that way? Why is food so central in my life? I need to find some other way to get pleasure from my life. Ugh, I'll have to think on that one awhile.
Of course it didn't help that my husband had me go to Dairy Queen and get Blizzards for everyone in the family - and I couldn't have one. Hope it is going easier for everyone else out there.
Well, here it is, my first post on my first blog. I have not done this before so I don't know what to do with it. Here is a bit about me.
I am 36 yo mom of 2 kids, one husband and one large dog. For someone who has nothing to do, I am one of the busiest people I know.
I had rotor cuff surgery Nov. 30 and it is a long slow recovery that keeps me from being as active as I would like. I go to PT 3 times a week and do home exercises, but for now, that is all I can do. I know I would lose faster if I could add a nice exercise routine but for now I have to be content with slow walks.
I am a lifetime member of Jenny Craig and just went back to it after a 10 year absence. It worked for me before, but then I had kids and complications that prevented me from maintaining my loss. I know maintenance will be a huge issue for me this time - but first I have to lose those big 100 lbs.
My husband is not exactly what you would call supportive. He wants me to be thin if that's what I want, but he likes to eat, eat big and eat fattening. (Did I mention he is 6'7" and has a high metabolism?) I need to be able to overcome his influence on my eating habits. I know I control it, now I have to maintain that control.
This is going to be a long journey. Welcome to the ride!
