My friend who I was supposed to meet this morning to go for a long, hilly walk has bailed on me. I have to understand because she probably got a late-night assignment or something, but I'm still annoyed in my sleepy state. I can't decide whether to go to the trail alone or go to the elliptical here. I must not just sit at my desk and bemoan this. Okay. elliptical it is.
couch potato blues
On Saturday I literally did not get off the couch except for a short trip to purchase curtains. On the one hand, I don't get that many days off (I often work on the weekends) and we all need down time in our lives. On the other hand, at 11 pm I was berating myself for not enjoying the sunny day and doing something physical, for not doing any chores, for not baking bread like I told my MIL I would. I need a more healthy way to have down time. Next weekend I am invited to a "let's get crafty" day, a more inclusive version of the celebrated "stitch & bitch" concept. I think I will find a crafty project to do and go for a few hours. I find that if I have something to look forward to I will get off the couch for more of the day.
Sunday was lovely--a drive to Santa Cruz, brunch at a crepe restaurant, walking around downtown, and dinner with DH's family. The beef stew was delicious and the apple crisp was even better.
Today I've done well with food except that this afternoon I ate two large cookies that DH and I bought yesterday. There is a cookie outlet there, where the cookies were 10 for $1. So of course we bought 10 each. Not exactly a good idea, I know. I am aiming to give many of them away and eat only one a day from now until they are gone.
There is yoga in an hour, which I'm not sure I'm going to. I think yes, but I'm afraid someone will call. I hate that I could be in hot water for being unavailable from 5:30 to 7 pm. I should just go to yoga, because I love it and it's not like they'll fire me.
I didn't blog on Friday, but I did update my weight to the weight at WW: back down to my lowest for WW this time around. I will exercise every day this workweek so that I can have a good WI again. And because it felt really good to do that last week!
blogging instead of eating
Beacuse I'm bored. A little hungry, but mostly bored.
I went for an hour's walk with a friend this morning, about 3.5 miles. I didn't get out of the office for lunch like I meant to but I didn't eat a ton either. I peeked at the scale this morning and have lost a little over a pound since Tuesday morning.
WW tomorrow morning . . . haven't been in a while and am determined to get there!
edging back into things
I went to yoga this morning, which was nice if a tough workout. I did discover that I can't put my mat facing the mirror anymore, though. Halfway through class I was concentrating on a standing pose and out of the corner of my eye saw a figure and thought "wow, that chubby girl is really aligned well." And then I realized that the chubby yogini was my own reflection. Which shouldn't have been so bad since I was admiring "her" form, except I spent the rest of the class staring in the mirror and alternately criticizing and trying to push the negative thoughts back out instead of doing the yoga.
That's three days of exercise in a row, and I'm not too sore since I took it reasonably slow on my walk yesterday morning. I'm actually contemplating running on the treadmill tonight, but I'm afraid of overdoing it.
Food has been okay not great. I have been writing my food odwn in a journal along with where I ate, how I was feeling when I ate, and how hungry I was. Only halfway through the third day it couldn't be more clear that I eat when I am bored or upset. So I'll have to work on that. It's also clear that I am either bored or nervous/stressed most of the time I'm at work. Hmmm.
Last night I splurged (already!) and had two cocktails at a firm event. Then DH and I had fried chicken for dinner. I only really had a few bites though, and it was really good. I was proud of myself for not insisting on cleaning the plate after I was satisfied.
feeling good today
It's been a while since I was here, but I'm back for today anyway.
I went to yoga last night for the first time in a while, and this morning my WW buddy and I took a 3 mile hilly walk. I'll be sore tomorrow, but I would really like to get under 160 again soon. Maybe under 150 by Christmas? I just want to feel comfortable again--in my clothes, in my skin, with my health. I get out of breath too easily right now.
A short post to remind myself that I have a weight loss blog, and a WW membership, and I should use them.
I missed WW two weeks in a row because of work, and ate badly, and now i'm afraid to go in because I know I've gained. How do I keep doing the same stupid things over again? I know if I stick to WW and exercise I will be healthy. I still don't do it.
I do have to forgive the lack of workouts because I have been working insane hours and somehow injured my knee by sitting at my desk too long. But the food is entirely a matter of self-comfor that needs to stop. I need to find some other way to comfort myself when I am working long hours.
My knee seems better today, after giving two gut-wrenchingly scary pops this morning on my way down the stairs. So hopefully workouts can resume tomorrow.
But since I've been feeling icky and stressed all week, I'll take a .2 loss over a gain!
I'm going to a wedding in Vancouver this weekend, so I'm running around crazy trying to get things done before I go. Sadly, I think I'll be spending a lot of my time at an internet cafe working. GRR! I refuse to count a vacation day for today or Monday because I'll certainly end up putting in the hours even if I'm not in the office.
I can't tell if I'm hungry because I'm bored, because ToM is on its way, or because I'm actually hungry. At any rate I'm making okey choices but I'm starving still and out of points! I know it can't be real hunger because I've eaten ~1800 calories of real, good food. Fruits and veggies and lean meat and high fiber breads. But I have taht bottomless pit feeling in my stomach, and water just ain't filling the void. I wish I could go to bed but I have a lot of work to do tonight.
This weekend the wine tasting was a lot of fun. My mom sent me a crepe maker (it's a griddle you dip in a pan of batter so the crepes turn out ultra-thin) and I ate too many of them on Sunday, but if I'm on track the rest of the week I should at least maintain (what with ToM I am not hopeful for a loss anyway).
What do you all do when you feel like a bottomless pit?
I made this tonight, and it was uber yum! I put it over one sauteed chicken breast and a half cup quinoa. Eight points of YUM!
POINTS: 3 per serving
28 oz canned tomatoes
3 cloves garlic, diced
2 Tbsp olive oil
6 items kalamata olives
6 items green olives
1 Tbsp capers
1/8 cup grated parmesan cheese
1 tbsp. fresh basil
Crush tomatoes with your hands. In a large nonstick pot, sauté garlic in oil until golden brown, taking care not to burn. Add tomatoes and simmer 10 minutes on a low flame. Add olives and capers to tomatoes and cook 10 minutes more. Put over pasta or grain; sprinkle with fresh basil and Parmesan to taste.
(Scale) Victory is Mine!
Despite my birthday splurge I lost 2.6 this week! I've lost track of counting the previous weeks, partly because I didn't have a meeting day set and partly because I was being lazy. And while I lost it was less dramatic. But look, I count and even though I had negative points at the end of the week it worked out beautifully. This is where I swear to track faithfully forevermore. I don't know if that's realistic, but this is certainly motivation to stick with it. I know that once I'm under 155 the pounds will come off .5 at a time even if I track perfectly, but the occasional large loss helps keep my heart in it.
Hope everyone is having a lovely day--I already did yoga so it's nose to the grindstone and hopefully some time with the hubby tonight!