40 Pounds Gone Forever

Woo hoo!!! I am so exited.  Even after a week of not 100%, I was at 209.6 this morning (checked it twice)!!! That's exactly 40 pounds from when I started on October 21st.  I am really happy today!!!

I am leaving for Dallas this afternoon for a conference so I know I am going to have a hard time sticking to plan for the next few days.  I just hope I can make good choices so I don't ruin my newly reached goal!!!! 

Dusting myself off

I did much better yesterday and so far so good today.  I started taking the Ztabs, but am reserving judgement.  I don't want to NOT eat and throw my metabolism off.  They do make me feel "fuller", but not stuffed, but man the digestive problems when they start to go through my system.  It feels like my stomach is full of bees all buzzing around and trying to get out.  I'll keep trying for awhile and see what happens.  I'd really like to do a colon cleansing, but don't think it's wise while I am also taking the Ztabs.  I read that you can have anywhere from 5 - 40 pounds of junk just laying around in your colon.  Nasty.  I could really stand to lose those.  I'd be happy with the 5, not to mention the 40!

Today is my 5 month anniversary on NS.  39 pounds gone.  Not too bad.  It would be great if I lost at the same rate I did in the beginning, but as long as I am losing, I am happy.  I'll just block last week out of my mind.  Chalk it up to TOM and water retention.  I was already down 1 pound of that this morning.  Hopefully the rest will be gone by tomorrow and Saturday's weight in will get me over the 40 pound hump.  I am still going to miss my goal of Onederland by April 1st.  Oh well...  I'll get there eventually!

Binge City

I don't know what is wrong with me today.  The day started out fine.  I had my NS muffins made into bread pudding.  Had 2 bottles of water by noon.  Usually we go to my mom's for lunch after church, but today we all decided to go to eat Mexican food.  I was like a fiend.  I probably ate 2 baskets of chips by myself.  I ordered taco salad with the queso on the side so I wouldn't eat it all, but then sat there and ate all the queso with the extra chips.  To top that off I went to Walmart to pick up a few things and just had the most complete urge to binge.  I bought a box of Krispy Kreme's and ate 3 and 1/2 of them and then pulled into a convenience store to throw the rest away so I wouldn't eat the whole box.  Now, I am home and tearing in to the reduced fat vanilla wafers.  I haven't binged like this since I started NS 5 months ago.  What is wrong with me??? Ugghh...  I had already gaiend the 1.8 pounds that I had lost last week.  I was SO close to 40 pounds gone.  Dammit.  Here I am sabotaging myself.  It just pisses me off that I can't seem to control what I want to put in my mouth.  Grrrrrrrrrrr.

Spring Break is Killing me

I did so great early this week. Managed 2 days of 80 minutes of exercise, stuck to plan on food and all my water.  Then... took 2 days off for Spring Break with my daughter, sister and neice.  Managed to gain back what I had lost last week. UGGGH.  Not enough water even though we walked MILES between Sea World and the zoo.  Ate off plan for 3 days.  Not HORRIBLY overboard, but all that combined with TOM and I am up from last week.  I was really hoping to hit 40 pounds this week.  Oh well.  Back on track now.  I also received my Z-tabs, but haven't started them yet.  I'll try them tomorrow maybe and see how that goes.  I know I'll get there, I just hate having setbacks.  Setbacks that are my own fault.  Oh well.  I have stil lost over 37 pounds.  I'll lose the rest.  Eventually!

Size 14's!!!!

I went shopping this weekend.  I bought a size 14 skirt (not a stretchy one) and a pair of size 14 jeans!!! Woohoo!!! I don't think I have ever been in size 14.  I went from a size 12 to a size 18, in just a manner of a few months.  I didn't gradually get fat, I did it in one big bang!!!  This is a huge moment for me.  I know that by summer I'll be in size 12's.  I haven't worn a size 12 in at least 12 years.  My daughter has never seen me skinny.  She's only known her mom to be heavy.  I am happy!

I am going to see my sister this week for the first time since November.  I can't wait to see her reaction to my now almost 40 pound loss!!!  She lost a lot of weight on Atkins so she understands my struggle.  She's a tiny little thing now.  Even though she's 13 years older than me and took after her mother as far as bone structure, she's struggled with the same issues.  We both got our father's extremely round full face so even skinny we still have fat cheeks!! 

My husband told me last night that I was really looking good.  I can see it, but it was nice that he acknowledged it.  He has insecurity issues with my weight loss, but he sounds like he's more focused on losing weight too.  Hopefully by this time next year we will both be at goal and looking hot!!

Another Great Day!

Today was another great one (a 3 pointer as we say in the NS world - 1 water 1 exercise 1 food).  I even out at for lunch, but just had a giant salad with my own low fat dressing (I carry it in my purse) and a small piece of bread.  Oh, I did have one of those cinnamon things from the pizza place, like 2 bites.  NO pizza.  I have had 84.5 ounces of water so far today and I worked out twice.  Did 30 minutes Hips Thighs and Buttocks at work and then met with my trainer and did 20 minutes of eliptical and my circuit training.  Whew!  It feels good though! 

Amazingly, I only weighed 4 pounds more at the gym than I do at home and that was at the end of the day, after a workout with all my clothes and shoes on.  Normally I weigh in butt naked in the morning before I have anything to eat!  I was afraid it would be a lot worse!  I am psyched.  Now, I just hope I can keep it up.  I want Onederland by April 1st!!!

STOKED!!!!

I am SO pumped.  I brought in all my spring clothes since it's been in the 70's and 80's here for the past week.  I have an entire closet in my back room that I keep my off season stuff in.  Some of those clothes I have been wearing for like 8 years or longer.  Some were brand new that I bought at the end of the season last year. NOTHING FIT!!! They were all too big.  I kept literally 3 items of clothing from that closet.  Everything else is going to friends, the resale shop or goodwill.  That is seriously what I need to get my self back on track.  Because of that I have had 2 near perfect days of staying on plan and am even more determined to get back on track.  I have missed 2 goals of being in Onederland, first by Valentines, 2nd by my birthday (Tuesday).  I still have a little over 12 pounds to go.  So, I am refocusing, setting a new goal of April 1st.  I really think I can do it before then, but I want to be realistic.  I know I am not losing as fast as I did in the beginning, but by sticking to plan 100% and kicking up my workouts, I know I can do it.  I rejoined the gym and have an appoitment with my trainer tomorrow.  I am bound and determined to do this!!!  YIPEE!!!!!  I am so EXCITED!!!

Slacking

I have been slacking.. Haven't been posting, but I have been doing OK with food.  Not 100% every day, but managing.  Still losing slowly, but still losing.  Exercising more.  Getting in at least 4 workouts a week.  Rejoined the gym and start there next week too.  Hopefully I can get in some more workouts during the week by going there 2-3 times per week.  Just adding more and more to get healthier and healthier.  I am tired of eating NS foods all the time so I have started to use a lot of my own foods.  If I can just get the portion control thing down, I'll be OK.  I'll get there.  Slow and steady wins the race! 

Naughty

I have to admit, after all my talk about getting back on track, I haven't done that well this week.  Monday was OK, but Tuesday they had the huge Italian buffet just outside my office.  I could not help myself.  I did OK with the antipasta and a small serving of pasta, but then.... the cannolis.... O my goodness.  I had 2 and 1/3... they were so good.  filled with chocolate chip fillings.  OMG... I could have rolled in them! 

I was better yesterday since I was home all day working on taxes (I am ready to strangle DH).  I did buy some soy chips last night and snacked on them while I was waiting for DD to get out of her Awanas group.  No exercise either since I had my butt glued to the office chair all day.  Not fun!  Today, I am hoping to get some exercise in, but time is fading.  I have a 4 pm meeting and if it runs past 4:30, I'll be out of time.  Maybe DD and DH will leave me alone long enough to go for a walk right when I get home.  Let's hope!

I really need to focus if I am going to lose the rest of this weight.  I wish I could be on the Biggest Loser.   I need someone to teach me how to workout properly and someone to give me all the home gym equipment!! :)

Completely off Topic - The Bachelor

I love to watch the Bachelor.  It drives my husband crazy.  He thinks it is the dumbest show on the planet.  I won't get into to the dumb shows he watches.  I don't care.  I like it and I never miss it.  We have DVR on our satellite and I record it in case I am not home. 

Last night's episode had me really perturbed.  The first home visit that Travis went on was to California to meet Mulana's parents.  He met her father, stepmother and mother.  Throughout the entire episode you never heard one sound uttered by the mother.  You heard the father, the step mother, but never the mother.  What really got my goat was the step-mother gets on her soapbox about family and values and then the father starts in on him about being a Christian.  So... if they are so into family values and such good Christians, then why is the father not still married to the mother?  How is he remarried to the obviously much younger stepmother and has a whole other family??? 

I am a Christian.  I admit it freely and happily.  I know I am saved because I have admitted I am a sinner and I have asked Jesus to live in my heart.  Part of being a Christian is not judging people.  I don't mean to judge those people, but they were so hard on the poor guy.  I just wanted to remind them "let those who are without sin cast the first stone".  We are all sinners, none of us are perfect, but HELLO, it's a TV show.  Do you really think your daughter is going to fall in love with someone in 4 weeks or however long it is.  It's all TV.  If they find that they have some kind of connection, then great, if not, it was a fun experience. 

OK.  Enough of my ranting for one day.  I know this has absolutely nothing to do with my weight loss journey, but just had to vent about it!  Nuf said!