Marriage and life
Sorry I have been MIA lately. Lots of things going on on the homefront, culminating in my husband and I separating. I am OK with it, he's not so much. We have a lot of issues, but finally everything just came to a head. We got in a huge fight and I just let it all out . Everything that I had been feeling and thinking. Bottom line is that I am not what he needs and wants in a wife and he is not what I need and want in a husband. Some of these things may have come out if we had dated longer, I don't know. Some I think are just the result of 2 very different people living together.
He's been gone since Sunday and honestly, it's been wonderful. I have been sleeping better, I am not stressed out all the time, I am not depressed or in that funk that I had been in for so long AND to top that off, I am back on track with my eating. I haven't had one craving for a donut or anything else bad since he left. That has to tell me something.
I don't know what my ultimate decision will be. He wants to try counseling, which we have been doing, but now he wants to go to a "christian" counselor. I am a Christian and I don't know that the counselor we have been going to is not a Christian. But, I do know that if he just wants someone to guilt me into staying married to him because it's the "christian" thing to do, that it's not going to work. We'll see what happens.
Anyway, just wanted everyone to know what was going on with me. I haven't abandoned my weight loss goals, I just got temporarily sidetracked!! 