I do this every time I get close to a goal... sabotage. I am back on track this week, but a week and a half ago I was at 200.8. Now I am back up to 203.4 according to the scale this morning. Yesterday 202.3. That's why I hate the scale... it drives me crazy, but I can't stay off it.
Minor problems on the home front are not helping. DH is so jealous of anyone and anything that takes my time. On top of that, I think he's a sex fiend and I just have no desire. Probably something wrong with me, but it's definitely putting a strain on our marriage. I just can't be what he wants me to be. It's not fair to him, but I just can't help it. I gave so much in my first failed marriage and I just don't think I have anything left to give. We're going to try counseling. Hopefully that will help. I refuse to live my life miserably. So something is going to have to change.
Anyway, back on track so far with food this week. I have been exercising like crazy too, so maybe that will be the catapult I need to get me under the 200 hump!!!
Posted By: bigmamma35
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My therapist says men really do have to give more on this point. Women are just like that! We are not receptacles, if you know what I mean...
Take good loving care of yourself. I am sorry DH is jealous. But, take good care of yourself anyway!
I am sorry to read you are having marriage woes. FWIW my husband and I went to counseling almost 2 years ago, and it really helped. Another thing you might consider, if you are so inclined is "A Weekend to Remember" conference. http://www.familylife.com/conferences/marriage.asp My husband wasn't into "that kind of stuff" but at the strong urging of the counselor, and the promise of a weekend in a hotel, alone, he happily went.
Good for you for doing something FOR YOU! I hope your husband learns that the more you get Me time the more you have to give him.
I'm still learning to take care of Me also. Of course it's easier without a man around because like most women I put my wants and needs on hold to take care of his.
I wish you luck and don't worry about the minor set backs, they are just that minor. Keep your eyes on the big goal, it's not a race and it's not important to be perfect on the eating plan. It is important to make major eating changes and you've already done that.
I was doing pretty well weighing only once a week for the last several weeks ... then I hit a week when I didn't lose much, so I kind of got obsessed again for this past week, weighing every day when I know I shouldn't. It's so hard not to. Sorry to hear about the marriage woes, but I hope it won't interfere with your goal for a healthier you. Best of luck to you.
