I don't know what is wrong with me today. The day started out fine. I had my NS muffins made into bread pudding. Had 2 bottles of water by noon. Usually we go to my mom's for lunch after church, but today we all decided to go to eat Mexican food. I was like a fiend. I probably ate 2 baskets of chips by myself. I ordered taco salad with the queso on the side so I wouldn't eat it all, but then sat there and ate all the queso with the extra chips. To top that off I went to Walmart to pick up a few things and just had the most complete urge to binge. I bought a box of Krispy Kreme's and ate 3 and 1/2 of them and then pulled into a convenience store to throw the rest away so I wouldn't eat the whole box. Now, I am home and tearing in to the reduced fat vanilla wafers. I haven't binged like this since I started NS 5 months ago. What is wrong with me??? Ugghh... I had already gaiend the 1.8 pounds that I had lost last week. I was SO close to 40 pounds gone. Dammit. Here I am sabotaging myself. It just pisses me off that I can't seem to control what I want to put in my mouth. Grrrrrrrrrrr.
Posted By: bigmamma35
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03/20/2006 09:19
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Hey girl, eat more food! Eat more veggies, and make sure you are getting in your fats! I get like that sometimes too.
I can get totally sucked in by it too, I feel your pain on that one, I can't even eat one chip or the whole basket will be gone gone gone!
Can you try eating some protein with your breakfast in the morning? I try to get a grain/starchy carb, fruit or veggie, and protein in at every meal, and I think it really keeps the binging feeling away.
Don't forget why you are doing this, and that you CAN succeed! Hopefully today is a much better day for you!
I can no doubt eat my own weight in chips if given the opportunity. It's always so interesting that when you write it down later it seems so obvious ... just stop eating :>) But when you're in it .. OMG it's impossible to stop. I had a similar binge weekend so I feel your pain!
I keep trying to figure out why I am eating ... obviously not hunger. So all we can do is try and think before we act. I am a total unconscious eater. Sometimes I don't even realize I'm grazing. Trying to keep water in my hand and take a break before I eat has helped some. But nobody is perfect.
You will hit that 40 before you know it! You have done so well. Just remember, one binge day does not a failure make!
Get back on program and remember ... you have the power within you!
