Goals and Apprehension

so i set some goals.  as i have done many many many times before.  and i have never reached them.  ever.  but (maybe) this time i will.  i can at least say that i'll be putting forth more effort than previous attempts. 

i'm just so tired.  i haven't cried this much before.  too many tears falling.  it's not normal and it's not necessary.  and i realized today that the freedom in Christ is not just freedom from this earth.  the death on the cross bought me freedom for every single day.  and this:

i can wake up every single day and decide to not binge.  i can wake up every single day and not be a compulsive eater.  there is some serious freedom - i'm just choosing to turn away. 

here are those goals:

(current weight: 133.0)

1. 8/31/07 - 128.0 - Reward: new makeup!
   
2. 9/28/07 - 125.0
3. 10/26/07 - 122.0
4. 11/16/07 - 120.0

There it is.  And it's doable.  About 3 pounds/month.  And i'm doing weight watchers online.  i have the tools!  i chose the 16th of november as my final day because it's the last friday before thanksgiving.  i'm excited to be healthier, skinnier, and happier.  i'm even thinking i'll buy a nice outfit to wear to my grandmother's house.  i just love winter holidays with the family.  i really really really want this.