enlisting.
so i joined the masses. weight watchers. online.
$65 / 3 months.
i know it has been proven as the most effective "dieting" strategy among all the popular diets. heard it on the news, even in some of my classes. and i know i know i know that true weight loss doesn't come from a diet - it comes from a "lifestyle change." yes, yes, i know. but there's no saying that this won't lead to a lifestlye change. and i'm not opposed to counting points for the rest of my life. if it will bring (and keep) a skinnier, healthier, happier me.
so today is day two. right now it's a fun game. but we'll see how long that lasts. also, i am so very very cheap! a miser, even! so sixty-five dollars is a hit! i actually don't think it'll come down to remembering the price to keep me on track - there are times when i think that no amount of money could keep me from a donut.
ALSO: I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS:
so when i signed up, they asked for my height, weight, and age. they suggested that a person shoot for 10% weight loss first. now, i assume they go off of a healthy bmi - and choose your ultimate weight goal as the middle number of a "normal" bmi. so 10% puts me at about 121 pounds. Awesome, right? Well they have my ultimate goal at ONE HUNDRED AND TWO POUNDS. is that even possible? i think if i walk into my house weighing 102 pounds my mom will have me admitted to an ED clinic before i'm three steps in!
but another part of me says, "oh, alexa. deep down you don't even believe you could ever weigh 121." i've had so so so many many many failures that any weight loss at all seems, well, unimaginable.
but i must say, i like that weight watchers is picking my goals. not me. i feel like this is a much more effective strategy. maybe along the lines of a doctor saying, "you need to lose X amount of pounds."
here goes nothing. or everything.