Day 13

Alright so apart from the piece of apple pie that I just HAD to have I stuck to plan completely today. I didn't eat my dessert though because of the apple pie so although I probably went over my calorie intake for the day I don't think I did too bad.

Bought myself a WW approved scale. Has weight and body fat % in it. I had to program it to me...very cool and I'm excited.

Also just invested some money to buy Turbo Jam so I'm looking very forward to getting myself going on that. Cathryn was the BOMB and helped me out to get it. Should be here in a few weeks...when that gets here it's GO TIME!

Day 12

Let's just say tomorrow is the start for me...just a big fat mistake that I wish I could undo...so here's to tomorrow and NO MORE CHEATING

Days 7, 8, 9, 10 and 11

Well I went away this weekend. I did my weigh in on Friday and lost 2.8lbs but then went away I'm thinking I probably have a gain coming this week...

Tried to get back on the wagon this morning but it didn't work out so well so we'll see what tonight brings. I'm not going to bother with lunch since I sorta had 2 breakfasts, but dinner I'll be having some soup I made.

Tomorrow it's back to square 1 and absolutely NO cheating at all until Robyn comes ;)

I don't think I did too bad with breakfast however. I had JC cereal but then like an hour ago I ate 2 eggs and a handful of cut up pieces of portuguese sausage that was fried...didn't eat all the sausage but the eggs and 2 pieces of toast I did...BAH...tomorrow is a new day. End of story.

Day 5 and 6

Well despite falling off plan a bit I think I did alright. I followed the 'meal on my own' for a few meals as first I didn't like one of the dishes so I didn't eat it and next was just still trying to learn to deal with my stress in a way OTHER than eating, thus just ate whatever when I got hungry. The good thing was I didn't eat pretty much anything that was 'bad'. I ate a sub, 6" not 12", and checked the website to see about calorie/fat content and all that and I fell well within what I was supposed to.

Also did some calorie crunching on some Michelinas and Lean Cuisine dishes and it turns out cost wise it's MUCH cheaper to go that route instead of buying JC's food. I will of course STILL buy JC food but I'm going to slowly transition over to the others as it seems pretty pointless to spend a ton of cash to get the same kind of dishes I can get at a grocery store for half the price. And example is the Lean Cuisine Skillets. A bag is around $6.99 here but it's 3.5 servings. If you do the math that's only $2.00 per meal, whereas for the same 'dish' as Jenny I'd pay almost $4 sometimes more.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not knocking the JC program at all. I think it's THEE best one out there, but I'm not going to go broke trying to do it.

Also it's officially that time of the month which I hope doesn't blow my weigh in tonight totally out of the water, cause that would SO suck.

So until weigh in and my take on Day 7 (today) I'll post back later :)

Also check out http://www.chub-club.com It's not up and functioning just yet apart from a message forum, but it will be soon and it's going to ROCK!

Day 4

Ok so I'm posting it the day after but so what...

So I was a really bad girl...I fell off the 'wagon' as everyone says yesterday. I did everything right, the way it's supposed to be done, up until 9pm when I then proceeded to eat half a sub and a gulp of chocolate milk.

Now two things on that point...

1. I only ate HALF a sub. My normal regime would be to devour a whole sub, regardless of whether or not I ate all day, so I'm giving myself points for that

2. I did it because I got that stressed out with my 2 month old daughter last night. I was ready to just go into a tantrum rage I was so stressed out. I hate when you can't tell what's wrong with the babes. I didn't freak out. I didn't yell. I just became so irritated and was such a bitch to Roger and I feel bad for that too. I have a million and one things to do with my house, like the damn dishes that don't get any smaller, and I just had meltdown yesterday so I'm glad that all I did was have the sub and not a whole sub and then some chips and then some and then some and then some

I'm disappointed in myself for it naturally. I know I'm human and I'm bound to muck up sometimes, but I just really didn't want to in the first week. The only other 'cheating' I did was put a little bit of caesar dressing on my salad on Day 1 which isn't bad for Day 1 as it's usually the worst for me.

I was going to skip breakfast and bar this morning to make up for last night but the answer to a cheat isn't to take away the next day. I NEED to have the full 1200 calorie intake PER DAY so I'm just picking up and moving on.

Day 3

Well today was actually pretty good. I did get a craving to eat what everyone else was but I found a solution. Eat MY meal and then prepare theirs!

I chopped up a huge bowl of salad so I can pick through it over the next couple days when I'm hungry.

Today I skipped the bar, only cause I just did not want it. And I'm still not adding the stuff I'm allowed like the 1 vegetable with lunch or whatever. I just literally eat whatever the Jenny meal is and that's it. Then I have my fruit serving either between breakfast and lunch or lunch and dinner and that's it. And I'm not hungry really at all so to ME that's fine. I'm eating more on this plan than I do normally. I guess my problem was 'bad' foods at 'bad' times.

So yay for me AND the bottle of water I managed to drink today. I absolutely loathe water for those that know me, and even drinking a bottle it a move in the right direction for me so YAY...

Be back tomorrow with Day 4! LOL Gee, didn't see that coming did you...

Day 2

Alright so Day 2 went by without me even having an extra salad or anything. I totally stuck exactly to what the menu said...although, whenever it says things like '1 vegetable' I never bother with it.

I got kind of irritated today. I was seeing all this AWESOME food that we've bought in the last couple week for groceries and now I can't eat any of it and it bothers me all to crap. I then made my little guy grilled cheese sandwich and my man wanted some too and I was chompin on the salisbury steak while making them and all I wanted was the grilled cheese.

BAH...it's get's easier though, I already know this. It's rough the first couple of days and then it's just a habit...

As far as exercise? -- what's that again?

Day 1

Ok so I made it through today without cheating...yay for Day 1. I made it through taking my sister and nephew to WalMart and them eating McDonalds while I nonchalantly chewed on my nail! :)

I'm waiting for Roger to get back with a salad for me. It's almost 9pm but I'm starving and need to snack and have absolutely NO "free unlimiteds" in my house...was never big on fresh veggies etc. I'm only going to eat half of what he brings me either way and save the rest for tomorrow...

I'm also going to avoid the scale until next Friday...it's going to kill me but I can do it. I need to just rid my house of the scale but we keep it to weigh Jordan and Roger likes to jump on there once in awhile.

Oh and on a side note, I read that someone wanted to lose weight in order to get laid...I don't know about anyone else's feelings on this but what a STUPID motivation. What happened to 'I want to feel good about myself' or 'I want to live a longer life' or 'I want to build my self confidence' not 'gee, i'm sick of not getting any cause i'm fat...'

LOSER

The beginning of the end...

Soooooo I made that call again today. I'm going in at 6pm tonight for my re-start. This time it's coming off and staying off.

My girlfriend has put in a sweet deal of sending Roger and I away for a weekend in Niagara Falls if I reach goal. Not bad although I gotta make sure I stay on track and do what I need to do.

I want to be in my kids lives for as long as I can and the only way I can do that is by taking care of myself. I don't want them growing up and ending up with the same habits are me.

So here's so the re-start!