02/07/2010 16:51
LAP BAND REMOVAL
I haven't been on here in a very long time, but to make a long story short I had Lap-Band in May 2009, then in Dec. at one of my follow-up/FILL appointments the surgeon found out that some my stomach had herniated up through the band which prevented the pouch from draining properly and meant I could not have any saline in the band.. So, I needed to have a revision, and in late Dec. 2009 I had a 2nd surgery to bring stomach stomach back down and adjust band. Then a couple of weeks ago I went for my one month post-op/FILL appt. only to discover it had happened AGAIN! I was devestated! This time the surgeon said he would not do another revision, but recommened removing band and converting to the Gastric Sleeve. Well after lots of consideration and tons of reading I have opted to just have band removed and NOT to do the sleeve. My goal was to lose 100# by one year post-op from Lap Band, and so far I have lost 75# of that. The risks, chance of side-effects or problems post-op are just too great for me to have another WLsurgery to lose another 25#!!! I've had so-o-o-o many probs with the band over last 10 months, vomiting, reflux, all kinds of trouble. I am glad I lost the weight but it was a long road and probably not the healthiest way to have lost it! So next week I will have band removed and do my best to keep losing without help from the band or any other WLS. I'm hoping to keep up on EP and can use all the advice and support I can get to stay on track to meet my goal.
I mean really, you know when you make bad food choices or eat too much...you're going to suffer the consequences.... the scale goes UP instead of down, as do the clothing sizes...YUCK! Sure worrying about food and having to steer clear of the junk it totally bites some days, but when you stop TRYING that's when things go straight down the crapper!!! Years ago I used to think my BFF was crazy the way she'd obsess over 5 or 10 lbs. Her famous "CODE RED" and the latest & greatest diets. Now all these years later here I am 100 lbs overweight and she's doing just fine, and still not letting herself off the hook when she puts on those 5 or 10 lbs. (Oh to have been obsessed when I had only 5 or 10 lbs to worry about)!!!!
I will never understand why it's so hard to change something you hate so much. Geez if you thought a PERSON you met was a total jerk, you wouldn't keep hangin' with them. If a FOOD you ate tasted like crap, you wouldn't go back for seconds. GET MY DRIFT!? So why in the heck is it so hard to move your body and eat healthy when you already know how crappy being fat makes you LOOK and FEEL!?!?!? Been there done that...so why KEEP doing it? What's that quote about doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results? Man that is SO-O-O-O ME!!!! 
TOM now, and that sure doesn't help matters. Really terrible this time! BUT...that can't be an excuse for the other 3 weeks of the month. I just need to keep trying to make better choices, replacing BAD habits with GOOD ones. I keep reminding myself how many times I tried to quit smoking before I finally had success...countless times...but finally I did it, and that was 8 yrs ago. Thank goodness. For my health AND can't believe the price theses days...yikes! So I know that when it comes to losing pounds and getting healthy, I WILL be sucessfull, I just have to KEEP TRYING!