A VERY FINE LINE...
I've discovered that when it comes to dieting/weight (at least for ME) there seems to be a very fine line between not beating yourself up and letting yourself get away with murder!!! I know that I need to stay upbeat, to find something positive about myself, to like myself even if it's just a little bit. I have to face the day with hope that I WON'T always be like this, look like this, feel like this. Otherwise I'm just left with the diappointment and disgust. I may not have ever been SKINNY but I didn't use to be FAT! It's crazy, and I wonder how the hell I ever let myself go like this!?!? Well, when I think I'm a fat pig, funny thing happens. I tend to get down and say to heck with it and eat more. That vicious cycle. So I've found that I have to keep TRYING and do what I can to look and feel attractive, to accept myself as I am TODAY. So that I don't throw in the towel and end up "letting myself go" even further! My biggest downfall seems to be staying COMMITED long enough to see some real progress. I hit the smallest of roadblocks and let myself off the hook instead of getting back on track! I need to change that way of thinking, or I'll never be able to make my goals a reality!