New Clothes don't make the body smaller

So my husband felt bad for me and went to my faveorite store to buy me some new clothes. As excited as I wanted to be I could not....Each and every piece of clothes that I put on I can still see the fat rolling off the sides of the jeans. I just said thank you and cried inside. I know its not about the clothes, it is about the cookies that I ate when I was stressed out and the entire bag of chips that I stuffed down my throat when my three year old was throwing a fit. Now the only person that suffers from it is me. This will get better.

Bad Day

I hate waking up in the morning, brushing my teeth, washing my face, and going into the closet where the dreaded clothes that used to fit are. I shut the door to   my walk in closet and tears drop my eyes. I know that I have to wear either a sundress or that same pair of grey capris that I wore 3 times this week. Shirts that once fit now show my belly and at thirty years old that is just not cute anymore. I try to pick up my head and tell myself that everything will be okay. I will work out today and drink more water and eat better than yesterday. But all day I have a chip on my shoulder....I have the your too fat to wear any of your clothes blues and I try to wear it well with no one knowing. I try to smile extra hard so no one can tell. The more I hold back the more I have to have an outlet and we all know what that is.....Food..... and it is not carrot sticks. Give me the cake and a super large piece so I can hate myself even more.

Good Morning

I feel good today. I decide to take all my measurements and on most of them I have lost anywhere from 0.5 to 2 inches. YEAH!!! I can actually do this.

Things are good

I am progressively loosing this weight  just by eating the way I truely do know to eat and denying myself the midnight snackies. I walk with my boys during the day and we play pretty aggressively. Boys will be boys....basketball, t-ball, chase the dog, chase each other. I use my 35 pound boy as weight and I am still carrying my 12 week old in the carrier. My arms are pretty strong. I could lift a car if I needed too..... Maybe. One pound every couple of days is great to me!!!!!

I'm back

Okay I am back and trying this again. Everyday on my "break" I still exercised and ate as well as I can. I just did not post. Today I worked out with weights, danced for an hour and going for a bike ride tonight if it stops raining. I have lost five pounds and plan to loose more.

Change

I am uneasy about this change on here. I am sure I will get used to it. I clicked on first thing this morning after no sleep last night and I actually had to log in.....Hate that. I had to search how to leave a post.....Hate that!!!!. Lets see what else I can get lost in. I like consistensy. I like to point and click in the same spot and not have to worry. Worry stresses me. Stress brings fat. Extra pounds.com do you see what happens here.

On the brighter side of things..Yesterday was my workout partner and I's day off. Today we are back to schedule. We are really good for each other. Both of us are really active people that have just fallin off the beaten path for some reason or another. If you ask her to Roller Blade she is there with her skates. Okay.... we have not gone skating yet, but we both have roller blades in our garages. I think on the activity log thoughts should count. Yesterday I thought of doing situps. Should I log that?

My best friend for like 80 years is now on here. I think the more support we give each other, the better. Yeah for her. Yeah for all of us.

New Day

As you can see my food yesterday was horrible but I have a bad habit of telling myself "Yes, you worked out hard, you can have ice cream, cookies, cake and chips." I know logically that it is bad but somehow I I justify it always. I am going to work out today and try to eat heathy. I can do this!!!!! Fat will not defeat me. 

I get it

Okat so I wasn't really understanding why we needed to post all of our activity and all of our food until a long look at it last night. You want to make sure that your Kcal on the activity is more than food. Isn't that the way we will loose the weight? Everyday I will be logging everything. I will do my best to fit into more than three outfits in my closet. Today is a good day so far.

iI don't care

168  pounds and I don"t f---king care.

Feeling Great

Alright world are you ready for me? Yesterday was obviosly water weight..Yeah!!!! Everyone is allowed a down day after no sleep and too much salt to stay awake with a new baby. Today I am back to size and I had a great night sleep. I am ready to rule to world. Who is coming with me? Today is a work out tape and a one mile walk. Easy right? I am excited. Get excited Gang... We are looseing weight!!!!!!