06/01/2011 07:40
Life is actually kind of weird !
/t first, I though a was ready to met someone and to settle down.... But after a couple of date, it appears to me that I think... Im not ready... for now...
Of course, <<fucking J-C>> is always in my heart...I know that its harch... but... Im so tired of all this shit... Tired of trying every singles things just to see him... Tired of having butterfly in my stomach each time.... I deleted his cellphone number in mine... but I memorize his.... At least, I stop txting him a little. Im pretty sure that he didnt notice.... at all that I dont ask to see him ( ok... I know... I ask him if he wanted to come at de movie theater on sunday... and again, it was a no.... ) but still.... I try.... Its not that hard...
I tried ... with Jason... The guy was into me for 6 month... but I did told him that I( was in love with J-C. And then, I realie that sometimes, you have to force things to make something happen. So... First date ( I already met him this winter when he came at my appartment to watch UFC but it wasnt a date) So.... First date was a breakfast... It was good... We laugh a lot... I had a great time.... So... lets talk about a second date ..... Second date, he invite me to supper and to watch a movie at his place .... The supper was good... the movie too... but during the movie... A romantic comedy... I had J-C in my head all the time... It was out of control !! I almost cry while watching the moive cause I missed J-C So much!!! then I came back home and I start to cry myself out!!! I was mad and almost desperate... 2 days after.... I decide to push it a little.... And went to Jason again... Supper and movies... He know that Im shy, and that Im in love already .... so.... He respect that.... But he tried some contact.... I froze right there!! Then... I realize... Me and Jason will never be...
So.... Lets try another guy....
I met Patrick on saturday.... I think it was my shortest date ever... 46 minutes.
First of all.... I know Im over weight and I wrote it on my profile.... and I put full body picture on the date site... PAtrick was .... 40 pounds more than the pic on the net.... And Im not the only one who notice that.... Ariel, Krystels boyfriend agree with me ... (Cause they came to save me :P ) He looked like a poor guy... and was always complaining about everything....
Sunday.... I was supposed to met that guy, Sebastien ! I did !! But, we were supposed to go to see the museum... after that we decide to go to see The hangover 2... and then we decide to go to the <<picnik electronique>> instead... I was with Ariel, Krystel, my sister and her bf and Sebastien came with us... We had such a great time... My sister was happy... Everybody tought that I met the one... A J-C imporve version... more mature, and more <<positiv>> but.... tonight was my second date.... and .... 1 - no butterfly at all...
2- He asked me out tomoorrw, friday and sunday too !! PLEASE !! I m not the kind of independant but..... I need to breath a little !!! So that how my balloon explode...
DAMN LOVE !! .
I had a dream last night... about J-C.... and In my dream, I was realizing that J-C was taking me for a freaking fool all these years,,, and when I confront him, he was laughing bout me .... So... when I wake up... I was mad !! Maybe, its going to help me realize the joke is over ..... Fucking love... I worked so hard to have him.... That so sad but true,,,,
As you can see, Im bilingual now !! :P lol I know that my english is not perfect but hey, practice is going to help, no? :)
Ariel thalk in english mpst of the times... Krystel and I too so .... Thats good !!
At work, thing are more organised... I think I found the wirite one to have for assistant and Im pretty happy... Gabrielle, a sale associate is also a great choice ... The team is changing and I like that !! We had an idea and everybody found that it was a great idea... So the first of july, Kim, Fannie, Grabriel, Sabrina and me are going to Mont S-Hilaire with a big Lunch ... spend the day outside and together... and finish the day on a <<terrasse>> Pretty cool, heh ? :D
Krystel and I are talking bout ghoing back to the gym and Im pretty excited bout the idea !! Tomorrow, I dont work so, I ll take a sunbath for sure and rollerblading is going to be a big part of my day !!!
Saturday, its gonna be the 30th anniversary of my big sister, Christelle ! Plus, shes pregnant... and Im the god mother :D of Gabrielle or Gabriel .... Itsgoing to be fun to see her on satuday... I cant wait to give her, her present... I know that Ardene Clothes is not the big deal but I chose some things who is going to make her happy I think !!
On thse words... I wish you a great night and I ll start a Friend episode...and fall asleeep on it :P
Good night ! :)
( BTW... I quit smoking since 3 month now !!!! Im really proud :)