Today is day 3 of weight watchers and I'm feelin' pretty good. Im still a little unsure on how to count points and if I'm counting them correctly. If I am not sure of the exact point value but can find something around that number I always go up in a point. I dunno if that is right or not. I've been staying on track. The nights get pretty rough though but I am hanging in there. I take my point counter, weight watchers food guide, and food journal to every meal. I'm really proud of myself. But I need to do it for at lease 14 or 15 days to make it a successful habbit. But I know I will.
I've stepped on the scale today and it's down. I don't trust it though. I told Mozart (my fiance') that I was down and he was really happy for me but I wasn't. I just don't think it's real until I weigh in on Thursday. I don't want to get overly excited then step on the scale and it show that I'm up or haven't moved. Ya know? So I'm going to continue to weigh myself on my room scale and the weight watchers scale.
I've made a little chart for my weight loss. By September 30th I hope to loose 10lbs. It's a lofty goal but damn it, I'm going to try my hardest. The way it works is, by September 30th I color in how many pounds I've lost on my chart. Weight is so funny that you constantly go up and down and so I will be locking in my weight every month, I feel like it's more consistent.
I watched Coco Chanel on Lifetime last night. Needless to say, I want a Chanel bag. I am striving to loose 20lbs by November 30th and if I do, guess who is buying me a Chanel bag for Christmas or my birthday? I don't know, but someone better. I'm really striving to loose this weight so that I can be happy with myself when I go wedding dress shopping in November. I'm so excited.
I just joined weight watchers on thursday with a friend of mine.
I'm really excited. Due to the fact that we live in a small town, our weekly dues are only 11.00!!! How awesome is that? Very awesome.
I read through all the materials and I get 35 points a day. I did fine with them today but I find myself hungry at night. I really want to get in the habbit of not eating after 8:30 or so. I remember when I was a camp counselor we didn't eat after 6. It took me about two or three weeks to get use to it but after that, I didn't find myself hungry anymore. I am get back into that, it's just so hard in college but I am not going to use that as an excuse anymore.
I find myself giving excuses for the way I eat and blaming it on college. However, the truth is that no matter where I am, I eat shitty. So it's me, not the place.
I am going to continue to track my points and keep at it. I am also going to the gym tomorrow before my day gets too crazy.
Anyways, it's kind of late now so I'm heading to bed.
I'm so tired though that I Don't feel like really giving a long post, however I Will say that I tried a new work out for my legs that is obviously working because they feel like jello
So. My life has been a little crazy. I haven't had time to even breathe. But here I am, committed again.
I went to go to the gym today and because of the special hours it was closed. I was so pissed but hey what can you do?
I ate some dip today that did not sit well with my stomach. It had me not really wanting to work out but I was going to walk anyway. I've been doing yoga every morning and so that has been making a difference, especially since I walk everywhere on campus and my campus is on the side of a mountain. It sucks but, oh well.
I looked in the mirror today and I am totally disgusted.
Hope everyone had a wonderful Wednesday. I know I have.
My Wednesday has been spent helping run a week long summer camp that my office does here in Rochester and going shopping for back to school things (Im a senior in college!!!!)
I bought my fiance and I new sheets, two for my room and two for his. And then I went to the mall and snagged a new pair of shoes. I wear an 11 and so it is so hard to find anything that comes in a two digit number. Usually I see 10s but never 11s and today at DSW I scored a super cute pair.
We went to the mall from there and that's when I bought some intimates from Layne Bryant. I had been looking at this:
and the matching panties:
For weeeks now. I haven't seen my fiance all summer because I live here and he lives in Philly and we are trying to save our money for future plans and our wedding (!!!!). So he had been asking me to buy a couple new sets (I usually always have one or two that he loves) and so I broke down and bout this one today! Layne Bryant is sooo expensive and so I struggled for a while to figure out if 40 bucks was worth it. Then I figured that out of the 93(ish) day summer we've had where I had only seen him for 10 days of it, 40 bucks was well worth it!
I'll see him on Saturday and though I wont go into a lot of detail, I will let you all know how it went! Hehe
Anyways, so that was my day today. But I have a question:
Has anyone ever heard of or tried crunchless abs?( www.crunchlessabs.com/) I've seen it on TV a lot and it looks like it works. I even coppied a couple moves that they showed within that 30 second clip and I could feel it with only a move or two. I'm just thinking about buying the set. It's not too expenssive but I don't want to buy a TV gimic..Ya know?
So if you know anything about it or just your opinion about it by looking at the webside, that would be great.
So I said I wouldn't be back until later this month. I lied.
I just couldn't stay away from you guys! Partly my new found attitude is because I've been reading a lot of blogs on here lately and they have just got me so motivated. I'm excited!
So what have I been doing? Nothing really. I'm just trying/pretending to get stuff together for school. I'm leaving this Friday to go down for the weekend so that I can put my room together. I have to go really early because RA training starts on the 13th and I will have no time to breath, let alone fix my room up. I'm also going early because my fiance Mozart will be there as well, getting his room together for the new year. We've only seen each other two full weeks out this entire summer. Can you tell I'm going crazy?
I can't believe I will be a senior in college already. It's kind of scray. However, I have plans laid out and so I am sure everything will be alright.
I've been thinking. Thinking a lot about my weight loss short term and long term goals.
The following goals are meant to take me up to March 21st:
Weekly: Go to the gym 6 times a week (50 min minimum)
Monthly: I will loose 5 lbs a month
Semi Longterm: March 21st I have lost a total of 40lbs
My Month of August Goals:
Phase out sugary drinks completely
Phase out red meat completely
I think these goals are reasonable. I'm a little scared though. I'm getting married May 24, 2009 and I'm buying my dress in November. So I will have lost 20lbs by then so hopefully I can buy a smaller dress and then when I loose my other 20 I can get it alterd. I just dont want them to be like.."You lost too much weight, we can't alter anymore"...ACTUALLY..I DO want them to say that..LOL
Work still has me really tired but I've been doing my best to cut down on my food since my exercise is basically none. I know it isn't doing too much but that's all I really can do because I have to get up so early and I get home so late. Oh well, I can only do what's in my realm.
I''m feelin' pretty good about myself. I went up a little but that could be because of the Chinese food I had today. I'm not too worried.
Im ready for school to start. I'm so ready to just jump back into my rutine that I can barely contain myself. I'm ready for the gym and to jump back into my running routine.
I only have three more weeks until I'm back at school. Yay!
I haven't felt much like getting up and being festive for this 4th of July. Usually I am all about going out and seeing the fire works, putting some hot dogs on the grill, and listening to Jazz in my backyard.
Actually, I haven't felt much like doing anything lately. I just feel out of myself. Weird, sad, and sluggish.
Don't worry. I am not depressed or anything like that. I have figured out what it is. It is my eating habbits and exercise (lack there of). It is completely amazing how food has such an effect on your emotional state. I have gone from drinking nothing but water to soda, eating fried crap, going out to fast food places for lunch, and eating more than one sugary snack a day. Horrible.
Absolutely horrible.
However, no more. I want to loose 50 pounds by my wedding. Well, actually by early April so that I can get my dress altered. I don't want to look like a tub of lard walking down in a white sheet. That is my ultimate fear.
My ass is in gear now. I'm dusting off my old food journal and logging everything.
I'm back now. I know not many people read my blog and so I'm not really apologizing to them when I say "Im Sorry." I'm mostly apologizing to myself for letting me slip so badly. I thought I would come home for the summer and loose tons of weight and all this other stuff, but the truth is that now it's July and I haven't lost one pound.
I'm trying hard not to beat myself up because I know that won't do any good. I know what I have to do and so I have to do it. I have to be strong willed enough to do what I know I can do.
Here are a couple problems I am facing:
I have no gym to work out at and no money to really join the gym.
I work crazy hours so whenever I get home all I want to do is relax and sometimes I work really late so all I want to do for the morning time is sleep.
I really have to tackle those problems if I'm going to meet my 5lb a month weight goal. I need to be positive. I will be positive.
