Church's Chicken 2 piece meal with 4 jalapeno bombers maybe a handful of fries, some fried okra and an apple pie
Way too many fat-free crackers with peanut butter and honey
possibly too many sunflower seeds
that stupid "alternative" shredded cheese dh puts on just about everything
some homemade tamales my friend/the babysitter made
= 1.2 pd gain (see graph at left) blah
Now that wasn't all in one day ofcourse. It was strategically spread out over 7. But not strategically enough obviously.
In my mind I have devised a plan to beat this friggin' mindless munching. But the problem is it's not really mindless. I do great for the 12 hrs that I am away from the house 4-5 days a week. BUT once I hit the door, see my dh, hug my dd, kiss them both. I'm looking for something to chew on.
Maybe I should leave them. well, except my dd. My situation, I'm sure a reason for my anxiety. So. These are some ideas I have for doing something else, when I get home instead. I'm going to post them here because chances are they won't get written in some journal or on a post-it and stuck to my refrigerator door.
1) As soon as I can buy some gloves, get out in my frozen garden and pull up all the weeds.
2) Seperate my now humongoid mother-in-laws tongue (a plant for you non-green thumbers) into 3. It's that huge.
3)the previous mentioned at-home pedicure
4) Dust
5) Brush my cats. (I'm sure I can make a new cat)
6) comb dd's hair
7) oil my scalp
8) steam clean the carpet. I hate carpet and I will never have it again if I can help it.
9) Have sex (this can be done alone or with a partner)
10) Take Lupe for a walk (I had stopped this when we moved out of our apartment because we have a yard, plus I had horrible sciatia in my 8th mth so, I've been sorta traumatized from the pain and my hips don't co-operate while walking on most days) Since my dh isn't working right now , him and dd can walk with. then I won't have to deal with the chaos of a small dog and a slow child.
So, that's all I can think of for now. 10s a good start eh? My JC counselor (who by the way is still as cute as a button coughing up a lung and with no makeup) said to make this to-do list and I have followed her instructions. She also told me to take a closer look at everything that I eat. Ofcourse we all know the drill. I think I just need to pull back the reigns of this snacking and I will be back on track.
Thanks for all the supportive comments and e-mails while I was offline. Your support and words made me want to tear up. I'm feeling kinda down. Today is a stressful day yet again until about 10:00. Just pray with me that I receive good news. TMI to share, but know I do need prayers for my sanity at least.
You know how you'll be gathered around the water cooler at work and that (1) co-worker is always making jokes and always has a story to tell. And y'all ask each other from time to time "does she ever turn that shit off?" lol
I promise I am not always on. In person, I am quiet. I stay to myself, because most of the time my co-workers are either complaining or up to no good. This whole place is a joke to be quite honest. You guys have no idea what your local 911 operators are capable of and not capable of. Or better yet, how they treat us. Slaves I tell you! Anyway as Iconoclast says....I digress.
In between 911 calls and talking to the coppers on the radio, I am here with you all. I read, I type comments. Right now, as I type I have Yahoo Music playing Christmas songs in the background. So, I'm pretty grounded I think. They give us this internet to keep us up and alert, otherwise we would probably get into alot more trouble.
My body functions were working properly this morning, so, I came to work feeling refreshed and ready to start another day without the bloat of yesterday. I think it's the bananas that I am not a fan of. I left them alone today and had Quakers Weight Control Oatmeal. Tasty, filling.
My point in this post today-----I have none. I've been on-plan today. Something still happens when I get to the house and I absolutely feel obligated to snack. There must be some serious anxiety there. (you think) with an un-employed husband.
Anyway, today is WI. I feel ok until I'm driving into the parking lot. No JFC food this week or until I don't know when. I'm left to my own devices until I don't know when. Just trying not to let that unfortunate circumstance lead me to a free pass month or more, still trying to become more committed to the workouts. Spending time with dd always is more appealing. She's such a joy.
Anyway, just wanted to type a bit. I saw on someones blog today about things we can do instead of munching. I think I might try giving myself a pedicure sometime this week, (since I can't go in to get it done---until I don't know when) (you ever feel the little asian people glance up at you while they're giving you that calf massage?) Nothing against them. promise, but it's true. I don't have the luxury of paying $50.00 for this service elsewhere. But they do a fine job (just gotta look for that health department score)
I mulled over this since my last post. I've been here, just didn't want to come back and whine and complain. So, if some of the later slips into this post, I apologize ahead of time. But hell I'm sure by my title that y'all can tell that it is inevitable.
1. My 21 yo managed to get a $409.00 charge for a T-Mobile sidekick that was lost "in the mail". It was one hell of a weekend. And dare I say I told him so.
2. I think I have $5.00 to my name.
3. I scared the shit out of DD this morning (0345 hrs) banging on the 21 yo's door so he could turn off the broken toilet in his bathroom that keeps running like a whirlpool everytime he flushes, (he had locked both doors---so I couldn't do it myself) disclaimer---he is deaf so, he doesn't hear it, but we have told him to wait and check if it's going to stop running before he retreats back into his cave.
----and yes I need to bring this to the landlords attention.
4. The Christmas lights are up. Next the tree.
5. Lupe is over due for the groomer----yes I could bathe her myself, but let's face it. They do a better job, and she smells so pretty when she comes home. Awwwww.....Lupe.
6. Oh, and DS runs the air-conditioner in his room while I am running the heat in the house. Open a window for Christ Sake!
They preach and preach to us about eating healthy, being overweight is bad for your health, and so on and so forth. But they fail to mention how much all of this food cost. And what kind of money one should be making to take care of their household and be able to buy food this way. Chicken is not a stereotype for black people folks, it is a means of survival.
It's just like living in the projects. Every corner there is a liquor store or a drug-dealer, there is also a Church's chicken. God bless America! It's a set-up! They're trying to kill us off slowly. Now I am not adament about this theory. I am not a zealot or anti-government. But it seems ironic doesn't it?
Someone needs to write a book titled "Healthy on a Budget" or "Healthy on a Fixed-Income" with tips on how to acheive a healthy body weight, heart, lungs and overall well-being for us financially challenged people. I would do it if I had the knowledge and had the patience to do the leg-work/research and patience to actually write a book. But until them, once again I am left to my own devices for the next two weeks. Prayers are welcome.
Here are two things I am not for sure.
1) a gamer---I avoid Spades,Monopoly,Dominos,Bowling,Chess etc. My DH is the opposite and sometimes it is annoying especially when they try to convince me to play.
2) a reader or a writer---it is a miracle I actually come and read and write here on this blog. I mostly like looking at pictures. (okay that's 3 things but you get my jist.
and one thing I am sure of.
1) I do love and appreciate you guys. Have a blessed day!
I've been in/out this morning checking to see how everyone is doing and noticing that alot of my "sistas" look at her body type highly.
So, I contemplete. ~hmmmmmm....doing the finger under the chin thingie~
I just so happen to be proud of Miss B. Although I think she uses too much fur in her clothing line as well as J-Lo. I also think her clothes are sized to small and too expensive for the bulk of her fans, but that might be more her mother than her.
But she hails from ol' H-Town. My old stomping grounds. Where all my weight matters began. OOOOOH, the memories. Most bad.
~clears throat~ back to Miss B. She's pretty no doubt. Wonderful hips. Big Eyes and the caramel skin. Just lovely. I guess we have to look at something for reference. I wonder if she knows how many women covet her attributes. Does she truly appreciate her blessed self?
I honestly think her and "Jigga" make a smart couple. I see big things in their future. He's good for her, he's smart for her. I appreciate their creativity. Good Music. Good workout stuff.
So, ladies, continue your quest to be finer than Beyonce. But look at the whole picture not just the body. I'm more a Laila Ali type of fan myself, but that's just the "square-shaped me". My butt will most certainly dissappear after all this. Although this morning it looked quite nice.
She's definitely more of a realistic approach to that slamin' body.
Go Girls!
, B
ps tonight is weigh-in send positive osmosis for at least 1 pd.
just hold it.....lol. I'm reading through all my comments and just shaking my head. But man, I sure do love you guys and appreciate all your support. I'm feeling blessed this morning. BUT here is an update. I cracked. I did fine for breakfast and for my morning snack. Then they put ALL the leftovers out on the center console. I had turkey, one roll, an olive, 4-5 pieces of pineapple, 4-5, slivers of orange, but no broccolli,rice casserole and no desert except for 1 rice crispie treat later on, oh and I did have 6 triscuits. It was alot but it was minimal calories, but I was feeling guilty. One of my guy co-workers said, Shawne. stop, after all your hard work.
Jack. Thankyou papa for looking out for my future fabulous figure. You know the funny thing is there are about 5 of us on different phases of our "get healthy journey" and I waited til the one that was left had gone for the day and then I got the rice crispy treat. Sneaky I know.
So. That being said then came Aunt Bertha's party. OMG the sweet potatoes. (I'm rolling my eyes just thinking about them.) 1 serving. Gumbo (god bless america), pea salad and anti-pasta. and I nibbled at some peach cobbler. Now, today. Sunday Morning, I can officially say it is over. Jesus. I have to have a better strategy next year. I don't know if I gained anything but I still have until Wednesday 1930 hrs to get off 2 pds. ~deep sigh~
Rose, I don't think I commented on the VM you created for me. I so like the 175 better. And ofcourse I woulda picked the younger face and I hate the way the computer makes my face so fat in the 232 but whatever. I appreciated it. Luv you girl.
And to everybody else. Again. thankyou for stopping in. I'm still at my moms today, so I won't spend too much time commenting on everybody's blogs but I'll be praying for you.
Well, it's officially over. Thanksgiving that is. And in my particular experience, I think it was over-rated this year. I think it had something to do with the fact that 1) my sinuses were full all day. 2) I spent the better half breathing thru my mouth and talking on the radio sounding like a pig! GRRRRRR. and 3) I had to work.
But is it really over? My counselor was worried about the left-overs. I told her there weren't gonna be any at my house. But ofcoarse DH brings home 2 plates. Then I get back to work today for the longest shift ever in life. (today I work 14 hrs) and there are leftovers just sitting there whispering to me as I type. There are cookies, rice crispy treats, tostitos, triscuits, wheat thins,pecan pie and coffee cake......did I forget anything? ~peaking over there once again~ Well, this just sucks huevos. BUT if I am to reach my 2 pd goal for next week I can't ........... I just can't.
Pray for me.
Thanks everyone for stopping in to encourage me. It was well worth it. I read that they were changing the servers at EP today and tomorrow so I said to myself before I left the house. I won't even try to get on today or tomorrow to save my self a headache, but here I am. I can't stay away. Problems or no problems. I've been brainstorming trying to figure out my workout plan for this week. We're going out of town tomorrow. I'll figure it out. Hopefully GOD-Willing DH will be employed again come Monday, and we can get back on track.
So, that's all I have for today. I'll be here throughout the day checking on everyone.
Happy post-Thanksgiving!
B
***edit***
Another reason it was over-rated. The food just wasn't all that good. I wasted my money on making a mango salsa and people didn't want to expand their palates enough to eat it all, I shouldn't have doubled up on the recipe for sure. There was only one side dish that I tasted that was absolutely 'da bomb and that was the Broccolli/Cheese casserole, it made me make that noise like when something is just delish. So blah.....I'm glad it's over.
So......WI is tonight. I'm not looking forward to it. It wasn't a horrible week but I didn't get to the gym at all. TOM is gone, so maybe it won't be all that bad. I've decided to take on a positive approach to the holidays. At the most it's only 1-2 days for us the week of both. If I "kick it up a notch" everyday surrounding those days I should be able to relax and enjoy without feeling like shit and still lose. I only get into trouble when I'm lingering around and start getting bored then I start to graze.
I have to work on both Thanksgiving and Christmas. We never ever close. This year is my turn. They are eating here at work and they will be waiting for me at home. I plan on being careful but vow not to feel guilty for anything I put in my mouth. This weekend is my Great Great Aunt's 103rd b-day partaaay. Goooo Bertha! Ofcourse more food and my family is from the country so guess what that means? Those are the only real "worry days" but again I have vowed not to. I'm going to enjoy my family and their cooking.
Then Sunday, back on the grind and in a serious way. Goal is to get off 10 by 010106. Then the "stop smoking project" with Ella begins. Scary Stuff, pray for me.
I've been seeing alot of progress pictures being posted. It is so motivating to see you guys doing good and that hard work really does pay off. I AM going to be one of those people. I wish more people would post pictures. But I understand the discomfort. Talk to you guys tomorrow after WI.
I supposedly bought a very large family size bag of cheese puffs for dd. She has held approximately 4 of them in her little precious soft hands and has lovingly given them to Lupe (the dog).
So, needless to say my nimble fingers have found their way into that bag approximately 3 times so far this week. Two handfuls on Thurs and the equivalent of 1 handful yesterday. I don't know why I did it, other than in my mind I knew they were there. And as soon as I did it my stomach said, "what did you dooooooo?! I was fiiiiiine!" "and here stubborn you go messing up my delicate balance with this trash!" Yes me and my stomach and head have conversations daily. LOL! I did not put my hand back into the bag, but I think I have a problem. So, I didn't want to put my hand back in the bag so I went ahead and fixed a salad thinking this will hold me off til dinner in about 2-3 hours. WTF ever! I said WTH, let me go ahead and fix my JFC Fish and Chips and immediatley afterwards ate my skinny cow, in a matter of 20 mins. No self control I tell you. I didn't go back to the kitchen for the rest of the night. I still fell within my calories, but this binge mentality is worrisome. Something about the house sets me off.
I've been here almost everyday, but did not really have anything to say. But I've been checking in on you guys. It seems we all have ups and downs frustrations etc. That's why we are here. It's so much better together than alone though eh?
Over the last couple of days I have been reminiscing on my weight over the last 21 years or so. I went back 21 years because it really started to bother me after I had my oldest son. I was 14 (oooooooh shocker!----are you over it yet?) Ok so anyway, I believe that while I was getting my prenatal care at that time I was weighing in at 189 or something like that. My mother had always had difficulty finding me clothes, back in the late 70's and early 80s this plus size phenomenon was not so popular and to top it off I've been 5.11 since the 7th grade. But anyway I had been a size 14 right before he was born and a short time afterwards.
I don't remember when it (my weight) started moving up but I didn't stay in 14s long. Is it realistic to try and get back to a weight that you were at 14? My metabolism has almost certainly changed. So if 189 puts me in a 14 then 175 puts me in a 12 maybe. My supervisor here at work asks me "what are you gonna do when you get to a 12?" (She asked me this because I told her I really don't mind shopping at Lane Bryant because they carry talls up to 341/2 inseam, but we all know that the Lane Bryant cut is roomier for the curvy woman, and again my true goal is everything Eddie Bauer which is sized for a leaner shape.) I make a sarcastic snarl, "girl, that'll never happen." I don't even remember ever wearing a 12. I couldn't even tell you what it felt like. But news flash----a 12 is considered plus as well, and I have accepted this and personally don't have a problem with it.
I know I know I am getting Waaaaaaay far ahead of myself, but I have been trying to visualize my body at 175. Right now I think I look like a Fuji Apple with toothpicks sticking out the bottom or better yet a pop tart with toothpicks LOL!
Whatever! One pound at a time. Today I feel good because a shirt that I bought over a year ago fits without "my girls" trying to get out and not clinging to my tummy. Today is a good day.
I don't want to go back. Unless ....ofcourse..an unexpected ...little blessing.
This is "budget week" and that means eating what is in my pantry and my fridge or the "ice box" as my husband calls it. Not alot of healthy choices. When I say I have no money I mean NONE. So, we won't starve, but on my part it will be interesting.
BTW the Horns lost last night, I'm sure you college football fans know this by now, but their chances of winning another championship just floated out the window.
So, yesterday, I'm here at work as I am again today and I spent the better part of the day at EP when I wasn't busy on the radio. I felt as though I might burn-out. I had to shut it down but I couldn't get myself away from what you guys are doing. I kept checking in. Kept doing research on what at-home exercise equipment I need to invest in. I felt a little...welll....obsessed. Does that mean I have an addictive personality? I need to fix that personality trait. I don't like it. But this is a serious goal that I have every intention of obtaining.
I haven't done too bad eating wise I think. I got to workout last night, but my cardio was a little lax, I was tired, I hate working out at night after work. I don't think however that I'm getting enough calories because of my dilemma, but hey. You gotta work with what you got eh? I don't just want to eat up just anything and add a bunch of empty calories. We'll see how this turns out.
Other than that nothing real interesting other than one of our Highway Units was out on a traffic stop last night and a drunk driver side swiped her cruiser and hit the man she had stopped killing him. God rest his soul. Our Deputy is okay. I know some of y'all watch Wildest Police chases right? This would probably not make the cut because someone died. But the drunk driver was apprehended and in jail as we speak.
Don't drink and drive and most of all don't let the "pretty lights" divert your attention away from the rd.
Since my dh isn't working right now , him and dd can walk with. then I won't have to deal with the chaos of a small dog and a slow child. 
---poor pathetic me.
, b