07/13/2009 02:16
Blew it . . .
Ok, so what about my big plan to pray about everything before I eat it? Here I sit, STUFFED . . . and now I'm feeling horrible.
Had to go to Taco Bell tonight and couldn't just get one taco . . . Noooooooo, had to have two crunchy tacos and two bean burritos. That's enough for 3 people. Of course, that was after eating caramels today . . . caramels? Why? Because they were there!
Need to post these verses everywhere:
Philippians 3:18-19 - For, as I have often told you before and now say again even with tears, many live as enemies of the cross of Christ. 19Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things.
2 Timothy 1:7 - For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
07/12/2009 01:47
Haven't lost anything but . . .
I haven't gained either.
I realized that the approach of asking God if I should eat something always works WHEN I remember to ask Him! Funny how I conveniently "forgot" about my new plan a couple of days this week!
Gonna keep trying . . . if I can think about prayer more than I think about food, I'll be in good shape!
07/09/2009 14:51
New approach
I once went to a Bible study on finances. The premise was ALL of our money is God's money and we had to do this exercise for a few weeks . . . every time we wanted to purchase something, we had to ask "God, do you want me to spend YOUR money on this?" It was amazing how many things I didn't buy as a result!
I'm going to try that approach with my body. It's not my body . . . it's God's temple. So beginning today . . . when I want to eat something I will ask God if He wants me to put that certain food into His temple. Will see what happens!
07/06/2009 15:02
Facing reality
Ok, so I need to lose 70 pounds. That's a little overwhelming and also the most I've ever needed to lose.
I could go on a low carb diet . . . that always gives me rapid results. But if that was a permanent solution, I wouldn't be in this position. I could go back to WW . . . that multi-billion dollar group that sucks the money out of people. I've met so many overweight people who claim they lost a lot of weight on WW at one time and should get back on the program. That's not permanent either . . . nothing will be permanent for me unless I make permanent changes.
This time it's different. I will not announce to the world that I'm going to get weight off . . . that sets me up for failure every time. I will not go to the grocery store and spend too much money on healthy foods . . . I will eat whatever is healthy in my kitchen. I've found that when I plan what I'm going to eat, I'm still obsessing about food only in a different way.
I've been watching my kids lately . . . they only eat when they're hungry. What a concept. They stay so busy that they don't think about food. Then when they are hungry, they eat, get satisfied, and go back to their activities. That's how I should be. . . to be able to go through the day without thinking "ok, this is what I'll have for lunch, dinner, etc." or "how many calories/fat grams/carbs are in this?" Normal people do not think about food all day long.
I read somewhere that if you think about something more often than you think about God, then that "something" has become your idol. It can be anything . . . or anyone . . . money, a boyfriend, TV, internet, alcohol, drugs . . . in my case, it has been food. I'm either thinking about what I'll have for the next meal or agonizing over eating the wrong things at the last meal. If I talked to God as much as I obsessed over food, I would be miles ahead in my spiritual walk.
This is not my body. It's God's body. He gave it to me while I'm on this earth. I've abused what He has given me and it's time to make permanent changes.
Today I'm asking God to help me turn this body into something that will glorify Him. This is not a "diet" to lose weight so I'll look better. It's for my health and to strengthen my relationship with Him . . . of course, I'll look better as a result. But I'm not doing this for the sole purpose of being able to wear certain clothes or to look good for a certain occasion. I'm doing this to honor Him . . . I am ashamed for abusing the temple He has given me. But with His help, I can do this . . . and the change will be permanent.
