Very First blog
Well, I must admit that when I joined here a few days ago - I was all gongho to write here everyday and to do a food journal, etc; I lost my motivation.
I am not too sure what is holding me back with losing the weight. I'm done with being overwait. I'm done with the guilt that I get when I eat a whole chocolate bar to myself and secretly wishing that I had another one thinking it'd make the guilt go away. Im not an overly guilty person, so where this guilt coming from? The fact that I know that I can have an apple, but instead I am wanting this chocolate bar. Chocolate is my BIG "thing". Other than chocolate, I do not eat chips, drink pop or juice, I'll have the occassional drink over 3 months (haha), I do not smoke or do drugs..... Chocolate is my vice - and I only have chocolate... once a day.
I just recently moved to a town that I know no one. I just had a baby June 2007. 1 week after I had my baby I weighed 199lbs. Not bad! Considering my first doctor appt when I was pg I was 206. Now that I am trying to get serious, I have known, my weight has krept up to a horrible 228 (maybe 230 now). I was doing SO well 2 weeks ago... then TOM came and Valentines in the same week. EEKK!!
Oh, I should also mention... I'm 24!! I'll be 25 in July... and people are ALWAYS mistaking me for sister (who is 9 yrs old than I) or they think that we are "Twins". I'm done with that!!
With that said. My plan of action is to go to Curves for 3 days a week (M,W,F) and do pilates in between with Saturday off. Groceries need to be done in a few days - and I am going to buy veggies and fruit to last the week. I am so damn picky with what I eat - I do blame that on my overweightness.