stress

its been a long hiatus. im really sorry that i wasnt able to post. :( the semester has just ended so i have to start again. March 2008 is coming near, only 5 months till my supposed deadline.

i cant believe how stressful the senior year in college is. argh.

sorry :(

i say hello to my extrapounds family.... im really sorry that i havent been able to update my blog here. its just that its this time of the semester when projects, tests, and school stuff pile up fast. I havent really been doing good. i know school's no excuse. :( sad.

i lost some weight! :)

i weighed myself a while ago (like 7 PM) and guess what, i weighed 66.something kilograms (i overstated it by calculating 66.5kgs and when converted its 146.3 pounds)! i mean, i lost weight! even though that's not too much weight loss, but its still a great feeling for me. i will still have to continue losing. but, yeah, yey me!

so today,
1. i ate breakfast at like 10 am: one big piece of bread with butter plus hot choco
2. i did bad with lunch because my mom and i went out to eat: lunch is fried chicken plus rice (i didnt finish the rice) and some prawn crackers plus diet coke
3. snack- small piece of brownie
4. dinner- one barbecue, one hotdog, one piece of bread with butter (sorry, i wasnt able to substitute oatmeal because i was hungry haha)

so, my food choices today were bad. :(

but then again, i will start over.

goals check

here are the goals i set for today.

1. eat a heavy breakfast at 8am (i cant eat during 8:30 to 12:30 because i have classes) YES I DID THIS! I DIDNT STUFF MYSELF YEY!
   
2. walk from the station to school. probably a 10 minute walk - UNFORTUNATELY, I WASN'T ABLE TO DO THIS. I WILL BE A LITTLE LATE IF I DID. I WILL TRY AGAIN SOON.
   
3. eat lunch at 1pm (rice viand water) - YES! AND I DIDNT STUFF MYSELF TOO. THE GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT THAT I DID WAS EVEN THOUGH I WAS TEMPTED TO EAT THE BREAD WITH CHEESE THAT WAS THERE, I STILL DIDNT EAT IT BECAUSE I TOLD MYSELF, "FUNDAMENTAL OPTION. YOU'RE ALREADY FULL." HAHA AT LEAST I AM MANAGING MY TEMPTATIONS. :) YEY ME!
   
4. eat a healthy snack at 4pm (bread/oatmeal/fruits- whichever are available water) -I WASNT ABLE TO EAT SNACK BECAUSE I SLEPT INSTEAD. A WORTHWHILE SLEEP I MAY SAY. :)
   
5. exercise from 5:30 to 6:30 pm- I EXERCISED FROM 6 PM TO 6:30 ONLY BUT I STILL FELT EXHAUSTED. I DID TURBO JAM AND A LITTLE JOGGING IN BETWEEN PLUS SOME PUSH UPS. MY FUTURE MINIGOAL IS TO GRADUALLY INCREASE MY EXERCISE TIME.
   
6. eat dinner at 7 pm (oatmeal water)- I DID EAT DINNER. BUT I ATE VIAND PLUS BREAD AND A BANANA. NOT TOO BAD, CONSIDERING I DIDNT EAT SNACKS.
   
7. snack- drink rich0 (81 calories)

it was a good day today. i was able to get most of my daily goals. i hope the weather will cooperate so i can start jogging in the sports complex! :) haha

i wanna lose weight!!!!!

i said that im gonna substitute oatmeal to my usual snack  and dinner. i think eating oatmeal will help me lose weight because i usually eat more when i am stressed which is more likely in the afternoon and evening. somehow, when i exercise, i feel a lot more energized and happier. haha i dont know.. but its good though.

haha im really happy with the EP members because they are really a supportive bunch. :) yey! EP members!

good luck on our weight loss!

inspiration, reflection, cheers to all.

we had a fruitful discussion in both my philosophy and theology classes today. For one, both my professors mentioned something about weight and the readings they gave us are really interesting.

Philo class talked about St. Thomas' article on Essentia ng Diyos and Quince Viae (Latin with hints of Filipino language: God's Essence and 5 ways). St. Thomas' article (the one that my professor translated and inserted his interpretations onto) is a long read but is very understandable. Must be because my teacher is really good at explaining things, especially when time is in his hands. Anyway, he digressed and the topic went to people's weight. He claimed that he weighs 90 pounds only. That is actually believable because he is just as tall as i am and he is very skinny.

My Theology141 professor mentioned the Fundamental option which is supposedly taught in our previous theology subject (th131) (but wasn't taught by our professor because he was absent during the time that he was supposed to teach it that is why we are the only class that does not know what fundamental option really is!). anyway, our theo 141 professor used weight loss as an example regarding the fundamental option. he said that, if a person wants to lose weight, he or she will put up a path to this goal that will lead him or her to lose weight. this path that is laden by him or her is the fundamental option. this really got to me, i have been wanting to lose weight ever since i can remember. yes, even if my friend see that i am comfortable in myself, i still do want to lose weight so i can feel more beautiful and i can be healthier.

This really got me to thinking. The things i have been doing are not in line with the goal that i am striving for. I mean, i say that i wanna lose weight but here i am eating so much, here i am not giving time for exercise, here i am giving lame excuses, here i am stuffing myself. I am in control of m self and my life, hence, i am also in control of what and how much i eat and my time for rest and exercise.

Yes, this is a very hard transition but this is the change that needs to be done. Because if i always rest in this comfort zone (that is making me more and more unhappy not just with the way i look and feel, but with the way i AM), i will never change. how can i expect something different if what i always offer is the same? commitment. motivation. success.

in this light, i want to congratulate all the people who are losing and who are reaching their goals. it takes time to get used to this change, it is so easy to falter and go back to the old ways. but, you guys still persisted. and you reaped the results. That is a very brave thing to do indeed.

I want to lose. the weight i mean. it is like losing a part of me that has hindered me to be truly happy. i am in charge of my own life. it is only I who can actually push myself to get slimmer. i have suffered long enough. i want this to end. i know this is a very emotional post. but this is really what i feel. i feel that my weight hinders me to be a happier person that i know i can be. i can't appreciate the ocean because i am ashamed of how i will look in a swimsuit. i can't go on bars because i don't have dresses that fit well. its not that other people that i care about love me less because of my weight, it is just that i myself seem to feel that i can be more if i lose weight. i can be more blissful, more beautiful,. more. just more according to my own standards. i am indeed comfortable with myself but i would not want to settle with this weight. that's just the way it is.

anyway, here are my goals for tomorrow:

1. eat a heavy breakfast at 8am (i cant eat during 8:30 to 12:30 because i have classes)
2. walk from the station to school. probably a 10 minute walk
3. eat lunch at 1pm (rice viand water)
4. eat a healthy snack at 4pm (bread/oatmeal/fruits- whichever are available water)
   
5. exercise from 5:30 to 6:30 pm
6. eat dinner at 7 pm (oatmeal water)
7. snack- drink rich0 (81 calories)

I am actually thinking of substituting oatmeal to my usual snack and dinner because i tend to eat less because oatmeal makes me feel full easier. however, oatmeal is not so much appealing to me, i am more inclined to breakfast cereals. i'll discern first what tactic i will do.

i can do this! 110 pounds here i come! but for this week, my goal is 146.5 pounds. fundamental option... i can do this. i will lay down the path to reach this minigoal. if i reach this minigoal, that is the time when i will think of what to reward myself with.

**my motivation: whenever i feel lazy to exercise, i just feel my arms. this is because my arms feel a bit toned (for me) than they used to. must be because of the push ups i do that really push my arms to the extreme. i mean, i find doing push ups extremely hard because my lower body is my heavier portion. but when i feel my arms, i suddenly feel excited.. like all that i have been doing are worth the effort. and all have results. :) haha

**here are what i ate today:

breakfast: 10 am:
    oatmeal     
    water

lunch: 11 am: (huwah! justan hour later after breakfast!)
    rice
    fish
    water

snack: 2:30 pm (snack??! rice??!! whaaat!?!)
    rice
    estofado
    c2

snack: 5 pm
   small cinnamon bread

dinner: 7:30 pm
    rice
    noodles
    fish
    water
    3 spoons of spaghetti
    half spring roll

i know. i ate too much today. bad day. but i can do well tomorrow. fundamental option,.                        

video motivations!

here's the weight loss video of faintstarlite and one from aggy83

if they can do it, i can :) yey me!

these videos just show how commitment, patience, and discipline can do wonders. no matter if what we need to lose is 100 pounds or 10 pounds, we need commitment, patience, and discipline.

its 8/27 here

its actually aug 27 here already (while im writing this, its 10:50 am). we didnt have classes today but i am still sick. its also raining a bit. i hate it when it rains. i like the cold breeze it brings but its hard to go out cuz the roads are all wet.

my goals for today are:

1. exercise. turbo jaM! at like 5pm.
   
2. eat in moderation. do not eat too much just because it is time to do so and just because the food tastes good.just like what my good friend says,  "one moment in your lips, forever in your hips!" well in my case, forever in my thighs. huwah!
3. keep motivated.
   

i wanna lose weight!!!!  i havent seen myself skinny, ever.

bad day but there's hope

his is my second post for the day. hmm. i know i eat too much too frequently. although i am not hungry, i still eat because it is time to do so. does that even make sense? like, its 12 noon, i have to eat lunch, its 3 pm, i have to eat my snacks, etc. and i eat rice too much. coming from a filipino family, our staple food is rice, not bread. and my mom is a great cook! we even have a grill house because she cooks too freaking well. yeah everyone in my family is fat, sadly. my parents, my eldest sister (about 80 kilograms i suppose), my second sister (about 70 kgs i think), and me (im 68 kgs). and we are all less than 5ft2in (except my dad who is 5ft6in). my second sister has lost weight before, her waist became 26-27 inches because she exercised a lot and ate less. however, she lost track and gained more than here starting weight. i however, have not actually lost a tremendous amount of weight. my lowest weight ever was 63 kgs when i was in 3rd year high school. my highest weight was 73 kgs when i was in 2nd year high school. i am now, more than ever, determined to lose the excess weight i have been carrying all my life. i do not want to be fat anymore. i wanna look and feel good because i love myself and i would like to see myself grow til im old. i dont wanna have diabetes and high blood pressure because i see how my mom suffers from these diseases. i wanna see my grandchildren (although i am, til now, single. i wanna have a boyfriend after i graduate college which is after march of 2008). i wanna see myself confident wearing a swimsuit. i mean, i despise the beach not because i hate the scenery, but because i hate how i cant wear a pretty swimwear. this time, its for real. 38 pounds is not so much to lose. if other people can lose 100 pounds, i can do so too. motivation. motivation.

i know i eat too much. today,
9 30 am: for breakfast, i ate 5 small pcs of bread (pan de sal) with butter with a cup of coffee,

12 nn: for lunch, i ate rice plus sinigang (its a kind of soup mixed with veggies and meat)

4pm: for snack, i ate rice plus sinigang (its a kind of soup mixed with veggies and meat), a piece of chocolate

7:30pm: for dinner, i ate rice plus sinigang (its a kind of soup mixed with veggies and meat), a bite of a fruit.

i know, i eat too much. i'l do better. the hard thing about filipino foods is that there are no calories set for them. oh well. if i eat moderately, i would have no problem.

bad day but there's hope.

First Post

well, i am actually sick today, i have a slight fever because it rained yesterday and i was out. but, i still created this weight loss blog so i can start being responsible for my actions regarding my goal to lose weight..

i am gonna be 20 years old in october and im gonna graduate from college on march of 2008. i wanna have a bandeau-worthy body by then.

my goals for the next week are:

1. exercise for at least an hour a day
2. eat moderately and only when hungry
3. keep track of exercise and food
4. stay motivated
5. my goal weight by sept 3 is 146.5 pounds

my reasons for losing weight are:

1. of course, i wanna look and feel hot!
2. i dont wanna have high blood pressure or diabetes
3. i wanna buy more fashionable clothes and wear swim suits with confidence!
4. i wanna feel good because i love myself

i want to have a lot of friends here in EP, i hope we'll support each other!