First day of the rest of your life?
SOOOO like everyone else, i have been doing the battle of the bulge for as long as i can remember. i always denied it to myself and made excuses. i dont mind being a big girl but i always wonder what it would be like on the other side....
in december 2007, my boyfriend of 3 years proposed. it was the absolute best day of my life. seriously, i'm talking in the east village in nyc followed by dinner on park ave and a carriage ride in central park! BUT this is where it all unravels because when i look the first picture of us as ENGAGED (taken by swedish tourists) i dont get welled up with emotion in the way i should. i think of how FAT i look. later in the evening i wised up and put a scarf around my neck to hide my other chins, haha (fucking love winter) and i like THOSE pics but i can see that i have a problem here. add that to the fact that i have to flounce around in a DRESS and have millions of photos taken of me. i dont want to be mortified of my wedding pictures!
so i started dieting and i'll be real with you, it was futile. i lost probably 15lbs give or take from then until now and its SEPTEMBER. somethings gotta give here people! so a friend told me about phentermine blah blah and here we are. so i'm going to attempt to blog and keep up with my progress here. i hope i can be an inspiration (dont punch me, i said HOPE) and find people who can relate. so comment if you want or just tune in but this time, i'm serious......who's with me :O)