getting back on track

 This morning is the first time since the whole house (husbend, and two toddlers, and I)  has been sick that I have gotten up and not had to FORCE myself to get out on the circuit. I tried to push through being sick, but most of the time it was a struggle just to get out of bed. So it was nice to wake up feeling well enough to function on some what of a normal level. I only walked anbout 3/4 the distance I have been walking. I did walk the full legnth monday and I think I pushed a little to hard. So now I guess I get to play catch up with the laundry situation.

finally a minute to breathe

so, my in-laws are in town for a week. love them but thank got it;s almost over. i can't wait to get back to my routine. pray for me.

chocolate junky

So this morning was just another indicaer of how much food may change my plans on a moment to moment basis. Like someone with A.D.D. trying to read a novel. This morning  I was going thrught the motions of getting everyone togeather. Lunches packed and planned for all, clothes, breakfast, you know the deal. I stumbled on a bag of chocolate on top pf the fridge. Before my mind registered what was happening, I was thinking,"Just one wont hurt, you've just started your new eating habits... this one will just take a little longer to break." Oh my god, I could have injected the stuff I wanted it so bad. But no. No. No. I can't do this to myself again. So the bag was trown into the trash. I think I almost cried watching my old friend go. But my new life has way more worth than a piece of half-melted milkyway that was probably left over from holloween last year.

Yeah me. Long story short... I'm going walking.

lovin my sis

Joining this site was one of the best things I could have done for myself!  I have found that now I know I have to be accountable for my actions... or lack there of .  Yall know what I'm sayin'.  So my big sister is the one who got me on here.  Every day since, she has called me and said, "I'm waitning to see your new blog."  So I gotta have something to blogg about right... so I go do what my butt wont let me. My coutch is having withdrawls, my legs are killing me, and my TV hasn't been off this much since our power was out from the recent Mother's day storms.  105 temps aren't stoppin me this time.  Oh and sis I know your reading this thanks, you are my rock steady constant in me life, and this is just another way you have come through for me. luv ya girl.

Hi I'm hear and yes I'm fat

I have decided to finally bite the bullet and lose the weight I have selfishly blamed on my childeren. This decision came after I attended my husbands family reunion, and a family member of his was commenting to another that I resembled his mother.  Who by the way is someone I have always considered largely over wieght. Though I was shocked by the comparison I was even more shocked be the others response, which was," I think it's just that she is the same size as she was last time we saw her."  I know that this sounds stupid to some, but  for me time seemed to stop.  In that moment I knew I had become what I feared I might through my pre-baby days.  I needed to change my life now. I some how slipped into a visious cycle of justification I think I have always thought I would be immune to. I know belive that God intended foe me to hear my inner voice through the words of another.