05/30/2009 07:45
feeling toxic
I have been feeling toxic lately. Not exactly sick, just cruddy and needing some sort of clean up, spruce up kind of thing to happen. I have been retaining a bunch of water too. So I did something I have not done in a long time. I have been detoxing my system with apple cider vinegar. It has been helping. I don't do it all the time because the acidity can sometimes reak havoc on my arthritis. But every once in a while is ok. I have been able to get rid of some of the excess water in my system which has really eased up the bloated feeling. Also feel like I have a little more oomphf in me. Not sure how many days I will keep this up for. A couple more days to see if I can rev up a little bit more. Not trying to get a hyper feeling, just sick of feeling sluggish. Only time will tell.
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05/25/2009 12:29
I am back (I think)
I am back. I haven't blogged in almost two months. I get distracted trying to figure out Spark and then get mad and get off the net and don't make it to EP. So here I am. I need to figure a better way to track my weight. SO far I can only track it once a month when I go to the doctor. I may have to break down and actually buy a scale. YIPES! I can;t believe I am thinking about that. I would never have considered even thinking about maybe looking into it before. Now I have actually been checking prices. Wally world has some at reasonable prices. Or rather they are cheap enough to be in my price range. So I might be doing that in June. Not much else to blog for now so I am bloging off I guess that is what it is called.
Bye
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04/03/2009 06:18
I am ok
I am doing ok nutrition wise. It is getting easier to not go after way too many sweets. I am eating more veggie type food stuffs and the exercising is getting better. I still have problems with my depression and self-loathing. I still feel like a fat ugly blimp and sometimes I wonder if it will ever get any better. Then I have a not-so-bad day and think it is getting better. Which is better a food rollercoaster where I binge eat or an emotional rollercoaster that bounces from almost happy to depressed? Oh well, one of these days I can figure this out.
In the meantime I am going to go get some salad.
Just writing,
AuntieBear
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03/30/2009 09:46
I should have known better
I should have known better than to eat it, but I did it anyway and now I am paying for it big time.
What did I eat? A frozen banana covered in chocloate and almonds. How am I paying for it? HEARTBURN!!!
Why? Because I am allergic to bananas. I hate being allergic to bananas. I love
bananas. They are truly yummy goodness. Good for you too. Unless like me you are allergic to them. So I now have to go and eat some tums to calm down the fire in my belly. But I wanted to blog a little first.
It could be worse. If I eat strawberies or pineapple I get fever blisters in my mouth. If I eat watermelon, I go into anafalactic(sp?) shock. That is the stuff where your throat closes up and you can't breathe and your lips turn blue. So NOT my idea of fun.
I did ok on the eating thing today. I had a fudge sicle, but it was fat free. Still raised my sugar about 10 points more than normal, so even though it was fat free, I will avoid them from now on. I do not like when I get a higher than normal sugar. Blue Bunny makes some ice cream that is no sugar added so I am going to see what the nutrition counts are and maybe that can be my cold treat. If not, I will crush some ice and pretend it is something really good instead of boring ice.
I have to be careful about what "diet" products I use. I am allergic to apertame (nutrasweet), sucralose and saccharin. They trigger really super bad migraines. So far I do not seem tohave a problem with the sugar alchols or splenda. I am going to try truvia and see what that is like. I am going to make a glass of tea and put in the free sample of truvia and see what happens. I got the free sample by writing in to the website and asking for a sample. They sent me a coupon too.
Anyway I have to go get some tums now so bye.
Just writing,
Karie
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03/29/2009 10:31
tuna helper news
I had tuna helper yesterday. I was bored and it was easy. I am not a big fan of the Helper line of food, but creamy broccoli tuna helper was not that bad. My only complaint, the broccoli is dehydrated and even after the stuff is cooked, you can barely find the bits of broccoli. Solution: dump a bag of frozen veggies California Blend (brocoli, cauliflower and carrot slices) into the tuna helper just before you put it to simmer. Really makes the tuna helper taste way better AND you can see the veggies.
I am still craving lemons with salt and do not know why. I was told if you crave certain types of food, you ar emissing a nutrient tht is found in that food. Well, if I was craving the lemons for the Vitamin C, wouldn't I just be craving citrus? And why lemons with salt? It makes me wonder if it is a craving to remind me of when I was in my pre-teens and the neighbour taught me to stuff a saladito into a lemon half and eat it that way. It was nice to have that attention froma grown up who did not treat me like some pain in the butt who was a waste of time. Of course it could be because lemons with salt just taaste really really good. Why does something so good have to be so bad for the teeth? I am limiting my lemons to one per week so I do not completely strip off the tooth enamel.
I have also been drinking more water. It is a good habit to get into. I am doing about 10 glasses a day minimum. I am hoping that getting into the habit of more water now will keep me from dehydrating during the summer like I did last year.
I am also reading alot of books lately. It is one of the few things that keeps my mind off of munchies. I mostly read mysteries, but am going to start reading Red Pony by John Steinbeck. I bought it for a quarter at a library fundraiser. It should be interesting. The only Steinbeck I ever read was Of Mice And Men. That was way back in high school (about 22 yrs ago). I do NOT remember if I liked the book, so Red Pony will be interesting even if it is just to see if I like Steinbeck.
Anyways, this is just me writing what I am thinking about.
Karie
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03/21/2009 11:52
Bored, frustrated but better than last blog
I am bored and frustrated tonight.
Or rather early this morning. It is 3:37 am in Arizona. I have been trying since about 9 pm to upload the printer driver so I can use my printer (lost the disc) and so far I have not been able to get the download complete. It is stalled out at 74% again, where it always stalls out. (This is try number 4) So I dug around on the Lexmark site and have found a 1-800 number that I can call. I am going to explain my download problem and see if they can send me a new disc or something.
On the bright side, I did not give in to my need to binge that I was having last night. I do NOT feel the urge to binge tonight so I am feeling better. I also have done pretty good on the eating thing. I kept portion size down, and drank more water. One thing is boggling the brain. Why am I craving lemons and salt? I do not want lemon candy, suckers, cakes, pies, drinks or anything like that, JUST lemons. I want to cut them in half and grab the salt shaker and go to town. Bad for my teeth and bad for my heartburn, but oh so yummy
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Out of stuff to blog and the download has been stalled out for over an hour so I am going to give up and go snuggle up with Theo (my teddy bear) and see if I can get some sleep and maybe have a good dream or two.
Good Night or good morning whichever it is right now
Karie
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03/20/2009 05:51
I am angry
This evening was a crappy evening. I went to dinner at my paents home and found conflict. Last night my sister went on another rampage. It was so bad my Mom had to kick her out. The neighbour called the cops. Apparently my sister is back on drugs. I am not convinced she evere stopped.
This really makes me angry. She does not care how much damage she does to her kids. She does not care how much damage she does to herself.
I am angry and I want to bury my problems under a pile of Ding Dongs and cookies and various other junk food This is not a good sloution to my problem. Unfortunatley this is how I used to solve all my problems and I want to go back todoing it. I havent binged in over a year. I thought I was over wanting to do it, but I am back to wanting to binge. I hate everything about me when I get this way. The hate only gets worse during the binge because it is proof that I am weak. Then after the binge I hate myself even more because I was not strong enough to resist caving in. As the hate starts to subside I realize that I have forced a ton of extra calories into my body which means more weight which means more fat which means more ugly. So I am trying really hard to not binge tonight.
So instead of leaving my parents home and going to the store for a bunch of junk food, I skipped the store and came straight home. I want to binge, but I am typing on this stupid blog. I have no ready made junk food in the apartment. I am too angry to bake anything so I am safe for now, but I am still really angry.
Anyway, that is what is going on right now.
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03/14/2009 10:31
I just lost my blog
I had just finished blogging and was going to try to jazz it up with an image and change in font colour and then I hit the wrong button and lost the entire blog. GRRRRR!
Well, I guess it wasn't too important. I was only blogging about how there is a light ring around the moon tonight. It's kinda cool to look at. Some people call it a Hazy Halo. Some people call it Blood On The Moon. Others call it "Fallen Angel's Shame."
It's a Hazy Halo to some people because it has a blurred appearance and the light of the moon reflects into the light ring creating an almost rainbow affect against the night sky.
It's sometimes called "Blood On The Moon" because it is supposed to be an omen of trouble to come. I first heard this term in the movie Practical Magic, and have heard alot of older people use the phrase as well.
Nobody has ever explained to me why it is sometimes called "Fallen Angel's Shame."
But I do wonder: Can everyone see this light ring around the moon? Or is it just limited to the geographic area that is feeling a certain type of weather when the ring appears?
Just wondering.
So this is what my vanished blog was supposed to say before I accidentally lost it. I dont want to have to retypr this a third time so I will post without any frillies to jazz up the appearance.
Toodles,
Karie
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(teehee).
