I suck!

Why is it that I've been right around 200 lbs now for what? 1 1/2 years? 2? And I keep going on WW and not really sticking to it. I just don't get it. I need to start logging what I eat or something. 

I'd imagine that there are some kind of emotional eating reasons that I'm holding on to it. I think everyone has them. And I think that saying I need to figure them out is backwards .

I'm tired of being embarrassed!!!!!

www.oprah.com/xm/bgreene/200611/bgreene_20061113.jhtml

Ask yourself why you are overweight. That's my next goal. Right now I'm going to jump on the treadmill. No excuses!!!!

Weight goals

I went to the doctor and she said that my goal weight of 128 was asking for disappointment. She suggested 150. Saying it's above the desired weight for my height but realistic for me.
I don't know that I liked that AT ALL!!!! Truly, I don't think I'll be happy at 150. Then I thought I could shoot for 150 and then readjust from there...
Anyway, it messed me up a bit because it's been years I've been thinking my goal should be 128. Yes, 128. not 129 or 130 or 125. Weird, huh? But it is what it is.
I haven't changed my ticker or my goal yet. I don't know that I can.

Feeling capable

It's not so bad seeing pictures of myself. Not that I like how I look-- I hate it! But I feel like I'm done with it. That I've accepted that it's not going to be easy or particularly fun to lose all of this weight. But it really sucks being this weight! If I "suffer" through a weightloss plan it'll be better than just beating myself up every single day, like a thousand times. So... I'll work on not having even a bite of non-Core foods without counting them. For now, I can reason most of the nibbles away. I'm so determined. And I know I can do this!