This can't be happening

Well it's been over 2 weeks since my last post and still no change. I haven't weighed myself because I don't like going by numbers. I go by how my clothes fit.

I've been sticking to my diet like glue and have even began eating breakfast (a first for me) and there STILL hasn't been any change. My doctor has ruled out hypothyroidism so I have no clue why I'm not losing weight. I've made another appointment with my doctor to see what's going on and discuss it, so I will find out next week if the scale shows any weight loss.

I just don't understand how I can eat a BigMac and large fries or a salad and water and end up weighing the same???!!

If I haven't lost any weight by the time I go see the doc...I give up.

What...the...hell?

Ok, for the past 3 weeks, I have given up all fried foods. I have replaced all regular sodas for 1 diet soda (can) a day and the rest of the day water. I haven't increased portions, nor do I eat constantly (like I used to) .....  So why am I not losing weight????   This is so frustrating. I have seen my doctor about why I can't lose weight and he's ruled out hypothyroidism...  So WTF??

I'm about to give up...

The world keeps a spinnin

Well, my fiance' went for his first appointment with his bariatric surgeon yesterday. Turns out he has to lose 35 pounds before they will operate on him. The doc has put him on a 1200 calorie a day diet, which means I am on a 1200 calorie a day diet. That is fine by me since I'm trying to lose weight too.

The problem I'm having is I keep asking myself all these questions like:

"When he loses all his weight will he leave me?"

"Will I find him attractive when he loses his weight?" (I only go for "big" guys)

Then I start thinking, "what if he is asking himself those same questions"......

I think I'm paranoid.... What do you think?

Slow and steady wins the race......right???

Well, I have put my plan into motion. I've decided that if I'm going to get anywhere with a diet, I have to cut things out gradually instead of going cold turkey. This past week I did it!!!   I haven't had a "regular" soda in 7 days. I have been drinking one can of diet dr. pepper in the mornings (cause I'm also a caffeine-aholic) and then I drink water the rest of the day.

I can't say that my clothes are falling off me, but I can tell you that I can put jeans on, hot-outta-the-dryer, and they fit without any tightness!! (Unlike before when I would take out my fresh jeans and have to lie on the bed to zip them up)

My next step is to start cutting back on the sugar...not giving up entirely because I'm a woman and I love chocolate ( I NEED it during "Aunt Flo's visits"...if you know what I mean)

I also went out and treated myself to a used, but new to me book instead of a "food treat"....

For me, taking the turtle way is going to work....although I would love to have the rabbit's figure.....

First blog...first step

Hello fellow fat fighters! Since this is my first blog, I'm going to get all the "keywords" out there.

I am 26. I'm a mother to a wonderful 19 month old boy, Bryce. As any mother would say, "he is my life".  Over these past 19 months, I have taken many pictures and have been in many pictures. I knew I was fat, but seeing it in a photo is a wakeup call.

Just recently I purchased a video camera to capture all those sweet and not-so-sweet moments with Bryce and after reviewing the tapes, I saw what I have become; A lazy mom who needs to lose a few (ok, a lot of) pounds before she can't keep up with her son.

I was "obese" when I became pregnant and I vowed that I would lose weight after his birth. Then, I began telling myself that one year would be ample time to lose this weight.....  Obviously, I didn't lose any weight in the year after his birth, or I wouldn't be here blogging...

Anyway, I am not going to sit here and lie to perfect strangers. I'm going to take this slow. My plan is to gradually rid myself of the bad while slowly taking in the good. For example, I drink WAAAY too many regular sodas. I plan on cutting down (and then eventually getting rid of) soda.%