I Can't Look!

Ever since Sunday when I overdid it with my legs and back, my muscles have been so sore that I can't do much of anything. As a result, my muscles have been swollen and plumped full of water, causing the scale to soar to heights it hasn't visited in months. Combine that with TOM and I'm at 157 today, which I haven't seen since Idon'tknowwhen.

The only solace I have is that Ironman says clearly that the gain is all muscle and water, which is some relief. In fact, it gave me such a positive rating yesterday based on my "new" muscle mass that my "age" dropped ten years! LOL

Still, it's scary seeing a number that high on the scale. I'm having flashbacks to Thanksgiving, for Pete's sake! I'm ready for my muscles to get back to normal and the scale to get back to my regular 154. I'll be perfectly happy to be back in my plateau!

On to other news: DH and I have been planning our summer vacation. We've been bouncing around a lot of ideas and have finally settled on something. We were originally going to Montana, but my aunt and uncle's cabin was burglarized and all the furniture stolen! Then it was California--L.A. and San Francisco--to visit friends and family. However, the costs proved unweildy. (Sorry, Blondeez ) Next, we were headed to Corpus Christi and San Antonio by car to visit friends, but I decided that was just not relaxing enough as driving is very stressful for me and that is quite a haul from Memphis.

SO, I just kept saying that I wanted to go to camp like I did when I was a kid. I want to RELAX, damnit! So, we're going to North Carolina to spend a week at the Snowbird Lodge, where we will hike and bike and paddle around on the lake. We may even do some whitewater rafting if we feel like it. The best part is that we don't HAVE to do anthing or BE anywhere on any particular day. I really need that. I tend to get so keyed up on vacation if it's the kind where there's an itinerary. I need to not have an itinerary, you know?

I'm feeling a little more optimistic at work. My students really surprised me today. After bitching and moaning for the last two weeks about having to study poetry technique, they came up with the most impressive set of first drafts of free verse poems I've ever seen. Honestly, I expected half of them to not even have anything written at all. After I critiqued the last paper of the day, I thought, "Holy Crap! I'm actually still teaching these kids something this late in the school year. Go, Me!"

Here's a sample:

I dream of hot sand

The sand that soaks up hope the same as spilled blood

The sand that swallows life and brings grief to unknown families

I dream of the sound of gunfire, tat tat tat and another is

lost to the hot sand

My friend falls before me, ever falling, ever sinking to the ground

The World sighs, Her hot breath brushing my cheek at the loss

of another child

The hot sun glares, glittering in my eyes

My weapon rests in my hands, the heavy reminder of death that I carry

 for my country

I trip over rock and rubble and holes and bodies

My eyes are fixed on my enemy,

the sting of victory in my wounds gives me strength

I hear a scream, Yaaah!, the cry of battle, the cry of desperation,

the cry of future victory

The surge pushes me forward, fight! fight! fight!

The taste of battle fills my mouth, a hot exciting feeling

I fight for those lost, I fight for my family, I fight for my country

I dream of hot sand

of victory, of hope

The hot sand swirls above me, dipping, twisting, returning

to earth

I dream of hot sand that soaks up hope the same as spilled blood

WOW!

You are an awesome teacher!  I just know it! 

I hope that gain goes away soon.  I'm sure that it will. 

Hey, did you ever get the email that I sent you when you asked about me?  I gave you my life story in a nutshell, so I really hope you got it.  LOL!

Your vacation sounds wonderful!  My step brother has a cabin type thing in Boone, NC.  He rents it out and such.  It's nice from what I hear.  Of course, it's booked the month of July.  My step-mom is going for the ENTIRE month.  I will miss her!  I sure hope I can go visit while she's there.  It would be a fun getaway for us.  But, about you.... you will have fun.  I hope it de-stresses you.  I think you deserve it! 

Scales and poems

Well I'm about ready to throw that scale out my window.  I still don't know how it's telling me I'm 37 years old... Seriously how does it do that?  I know it's all mathematical but still I feel like theres a little person in there sometimes! Don't read to much into your weight right now, your still sore, you can't get a proper reading.

I have to say that you sound like a fabulous teacher. 

Oh, and your vacation sounds fantastic!  I love camping and going to cabins so enjoy nature.

hey

I'm glad to read that you're getting back into the swing of things with exercise/yoga. ;)  I bet you're happier, aside from the sore muscles.  Being able to release some tension and endorphins does wonderful things doesn't it?  I hope that your back/nerves cooperate and you're back to your old self soon.

Camping sounds like fun.  I'm taking the kids this summer alone probably because my dh is whiner and his "vacation" ideal is going to Disney.  While, I love Disney, it's not exactly relaxing and a "vacation"...it's actually quite stressful and tiresome.  He's really type A so he has us scheduled from the time we wake up till we go to bed, until about 3 days in I can't take it anymore and flip out. LOL!     :)  Who me?  never..

Oh the word...was faggot.   He didn't know what it meant, but he knew his friends calls people that when he gets mad at them...  frustrating.    I try and keep my distance from that family in general and my son's not allowed over there anymore since when he came home and told me that there was a Taser on the kitchen table...(the dad's a prison guard).   

oh

sorry to clog up your blog with me stuff.  My friend's the one who thinks because I'm a sahm, that I can watch her kids all day long and bring them too and from practices.  Last time I was supposed to drive her dd to a game, but it was really watching her all day because she went to work and didn't bother to tell me.

Anyway...enough of that.

What depth!!!

in those poems!!! Well done for you as a teacher - not all work goes down the drain, see?

I hope you start feeling better soon although reading your previous blog it seems you are already in the mend of things.  Do not overdo exercise and the scales will be friendly again once you get rid of all the water retention. Have a nice weekend

Wow!

Snowbird Mountain Lodge looks FAB! I want to go there!

Relaxing!

That looks so nice and relaxing, makes me want to go with ya! If that is okay! haha! I have been wanting to take a vacation as well and I was looking at Cali and eek is all I can say, im going to have to choose another place! Anyways you deserve a vacation, this is just what you need.

I wouldn't worry about the gain, i have see that gain after a hard workout and its really not a nice one but it will come off. Don't worry. You are doing everything right and that is what matters.

Hope you have a wonderful Friday!

wow!

Hey the lodge look fantastic!  I am sure your batteries will be recharged there!  I am so glad you will have a summer vacation!

Vacation

Ok, that lodge place looks FANTASTIC! I just sent my hubby my link and told him that we need to go for a getaway. It looks so peaceful and relaxing!! I think I would spend all day sitting outside, reading a book and taking in the scenery.

Glad to hear you are getting back into the exercise swing! I know you have missed it. And don't worry about those peskly 3 pounds of water. They will be gone soon, I know it.

And what a wonderful teacher you must be. That poem is so poignant and powerful. Just beautiful. You should be very proud of yourself!!