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My never ending journey to not look like a walrus

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  • Name: ashleyb
  • City: Memphis
  • Region: Tennessee
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 162.6cm
Start weight: 210.00lb
Current weight: 213.40lb
Goal weight: 140.00lb
Lost to date: -3.40lb
Remaining: 73.40lb

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Before After

OK--back at it

My weight has stayed steady while I've had this head cold, which is OK since I've eaten hardly any vegetables or fruit in that time PLUS I got almost zero exercise other than walking around the house. Now that it's nearly over, I'm ready to get back to cooking and eating "cleaner." I also forced myself to walk today before the temps got over 90. I still came back looking like I just had a shower. Ugh. I feel better, though.


I can't express how excited I am that the scale is still consistently moving down after 2 weeks. I've lost 5.8 lbs in 12 days, which is over my entire monthly goal! Since my daughter was born over 3 years ago, I have started a new weight loss routine at least five times, and have seen little results. Maybe this time I've found the right eating plan.

I think one of the keys for me is tracking. I'm using a program/website called Lose It. They have a phone app that syncs with their website. It's great because you can see what other people are eating as well, even read their recipes. What they don't have, however, is a blog feature, which is why I'm still here.

I've been tracking my eating religiously, even entering in the no-no's, which I think is really helpful. I've gone over my calorie budget (1650) several times, but I really believe that seeing my eating at the end of the day has prevented me from eating quite a few late night snacks.

My exercise has been minimal due to a foot injury. It finally started getting better, then I came down with a massive sinus infection. Not to mention that it's 90+ outside every freakin day. These are excuses, I know that. The fact is, I just don't like exercising when I'm this heavy. It's just so damn uncomfortable. I used to go to a local gym that I really liked. It was simple to just hop over there. Once I got there, I would get in the swing of things and do some serious work. I worked out so much more when I had that membership, but it had to go for financial reasons. When I'm at home, I just don't want to do anything. It's all psychological, I'm sure.

My DH gave me some yoga class coupons for our anniversary this weekend, so as soon as my head drains, I'll at least get back on that track.

Welcome new friends!

Thanks to the three who responded to my plea for new friends here on EP. I can't wait to get to know you.

Excited about the scale this morning. I'm down 3.8 lbs since I started 9 days ago. It kind of irks me that I can't have more than one weight loss chart here on EP because I like seeing my journey of the last five years in one graph. However, since I weigh more now than when I started five years ago, the weight loss total is not accurate for this latest effort. It still shows me with a gain of 8 lbs instead of a loss of 2.8. That's a little discouraging. I know I could just erase my chart entirely and start over, but it's kind of a point of pride to see what I lost before and a reality check to see how it can all go away.

Read My Blog!

Since I first started this journey years ago, all my blog buddies have come and gone, so I need some new ones. I poked around the support groups, but found that the ones I was interested in have died off. Therefore, I need some new friends so I can get things going on here again. If you're interested, leave me a reply!

The Veggie Life

So my week of eating vegetarian went really well. I lost about two pounds of water weight, and I've eaten some great food. I'm trying to not only cut out meat, but also to eat "clean," which means not to many processed foods. Whenever I eat clean, I am forced to cook, which always results in an initial flurry of new recipes and fun experimentation. This usually gets old after two weeks when I'm sick of constantly cleaning the kitchen. The only down side to the week was that there were several celebrations involving cupcakes, so my calories are not where I wanted them to be. I'm going to try to do better this week on avoiding obvious no-no's. I think the biggest challenge to this diet is the danger of eating too many carbs, ratio-wise. It's so easy to eat a snack that doesn't include protein or much fiber, then I find myself craving carbs, which leads to bowls of cereal that are not on-plan. On the up side, I'm feeling more positive about this weight-loss attempt. My mind is in a good place this time.

Bouncing back?

Shortly after I last posted about my latest diet, I was diagnosed with a giant hernia right above my belly button. I had to have surgery, and I was flat on my back for a month, then gimping around for another month. Now that I'm FINALLY recovered, I'm tackling the weight loss again. I have so many health problems, and very little money to pay doctors, so I'm hoping I can improve my condition with the food I put in my body.

My will to lose has been poor since my daughter was born, to say the least. I've been angry and frustrated, but that hasn't led to any sustained weight loss. I get really pissed after a few weeks and quit. I just don't know how to get the inner fortitude I used to have back. However, the hernia combined with major joint pain and GI issues have really compromised my quality of life, and I'm sick of being sick.

I've decided to try something different, maybe just for the challenge. I'm going vegetarian to see if my body likes it. I've always liked veggie proteins, like tofu, so this isn't that difficult for me, food-wise. The hardest part is remembering that vegetarians can still be fat and unhealthy if they eat a lot of junk. I'm trying to stay away from the overly-processed carbs as well.

I was going to go vegan, but decided to take it easy on myself at the start. I am still eating eggs, milk, and yogurt. I'm going to stay away from the butter and gooey cheese, though. I've been tracking my food through an iphone app called Lose It. It shows the breakdown on nutrients at the end of the day, and I have to say that I like what I see. Without even trying, my protein/carb/fat ratios are right on target. I'm hoping to see the daily calories trending lower as well. I'll have to report back on that.

Exercise is minimal at the moment. It's over 100 degrees outside, and I have no money for gym, pool, or yoga classes. I hate exercising by myself at home. I'll think about working up to it, but the ankle and knee pain I have really is a problem.  I'm hoping the diet will boost my energy levels and make me feel more like moving.

That was fast

So, four pounds of water weight lost in two days! That's the power of not eating sugar, for ya. It was really hard yesterday. I had a headache, so I caved in and drank coffee, but it was really the sugar my body was craving. I just wanted to eat a bowl of Cheerios so bad! But I didn't. The only cheat I had was eating a few bites of my child's dinner because I was starved and had to wait to eat with company later.  Not too bad. However, I don't know how long I can keep this up unless the cravings subside a little.

Detox Time

It's spring break and I've been having a hard time lately with stress and body pain and inflammation, so I'm going to spend the week doing the UltraSimple detox diet. I'm not looking forward to it because it's very restrictive, but I need to do something about all this pain and I don't want to start popping pills.

I'm going to also take a week off from watching the news and listening to the radio. I will, however, watch as many movies as possible. I thought about going to see a matinee tomorrow, but I feel the popcorn will be too great a temptation on my first day.

The diet is really easy: brown rice for lunch and dinner, veggies at lunch and dinner, add chicken or fish to dinner. Breakfast and snack is a silken tofu/fruit/nut butter smoothie. I also have to take this olive oil and lemon juice shot every morning. yuk. There's a little more to it than that, but I've done it before and it was very effective--really jolts the metabolism.

Wish me luck!

Yet another change

My prepaid weeks at WW have come to an end, and I've decided to not go back. Our group leader is terrible, and I don't see any benefit for the money I am paying. I've lost appx. 2.5 pounds over 7 weeks, and nothing the last three and a half weeks.

I had high hopes for WW. The system was so easy, almost too easy. It had me thinking that maybe weight loss didn't have to be so hard after all. I should know by now that is not the case. Now I'm stuck trying to figure out what to do next.

Probably the most successful I have been was when I was eating 1350-1500 calories a day and tracking what I ate on a computer program. I had daily goals for protein consumption and a limit on simple/white carbs. Howevever, now that I'm a mother, I don't have time for that kind of calculating and tracking any more.

However, if I don't track what I eat, I will overeat and indulge too often. I really do forget that I had pizza for dinner last night if I don't write it down.

Does anyone have any suggestions for simple food tracking?


Weigh-in today verified my observation that I haven't lost in two weeks. The WW leader asked to see my tracker and all she could do was nit-pick that I hadn't checked off the boxes for my water. I pointed out that I don't check the boxes because I drink way more than the minimum each day, so there's no need to track. She kept on about it, implying that if I don't check the boxes than I'm being dishonest or something or that I'm simply not giving this my full effort. "Aren't you worth the time?" she asked.

I tell you. It was all I could do to not shove the woman off her chair and walk out. Doesn't she understand that it's the DRINKING of the water that matters, not the CHECKING OF THE DAMN BOXES? This is just not working for me. I wish I knew what to do. I don't want to go off my diet. I'm in a good mental place for weight loss. However, I'm not losing and I don't believe what this woman says that I need to eat ALL my flex points or I'm not going to lose weight. I am eating way more calories per day than I have ever eaten on a diet before. Eating more can't possibly be the answer. Eating something DIFFERENT has to be the solution.