No progress still, but I just keep on keeping on
Let's talk TOM again this week, because I'm so frustrated. I went in
for a pap test today. They asked when my last TOM was and seemed
surprised when I said nearly 6 weeks. I keep thinking it's going to be
here any day because my weight's been up and down for the last 2 weeks.
It's not fair -- either come and get it over with, or stop coming back
at all, would ya? I have PCOS, I'm 47, and I have no plans to ever have
kids, so I really don't need you visiting me anymore, OK TOM? In fact I
welcome menopause, if it means I don't need to deal with your crap
anymore. Bring it on. You don't even have to be here yet to mess with
my appetite. In the week or two before your visit, you make me more
hungry and more likely to veer off plan. I don't usually have a problem
staying the course, but you make it so hard. So please don't go away
mad, just GO AWAY.
OK -- got that rant over with. So I'm 113.2kg
(249.56 lb) which is a gain of .88 kg (.4 lb) from last week. Not
much, but not going down either. I'm definitely not on track for
meeting my goals and really need to turn this around in the next 2 weeks
before my next weigh & measure at the center. I may not have any
control over my hormones or mother nature, but I can take better control
of what I'm eating. In the summer I try to have meals that are easy to
throw together without so much cooking, but I could make some soup this
week. I can fill up on a large bowl of home made lentil soup, and it's
like 230 calories and so delicious! So what if it's not winter -- all
the rain we've had doesn't make it feel much like summer, either. So I
may try that this week. Whatever it takes to get this stall moving
again.