Saturday weigh-in -- a good week. :)
Today was weigh-day, and TOM is over, so I expected a drop, but hoped it
would be more. Then again remember the trainer said I should expect to
gain in the first few weeks, and last week I held steady and this week I
lost, so I really can't worry too much about that.
I weighted in at 114.2 kg (251.77 lb) which is a loss of 0.8kg (1.76 lb)
since last week Saturday. I got in 3 group training sessions this
week, and because I wanted to try something new I ended up doing two in a
row with no rest day between. Bad idea. I already reported in my last
post that Wednesday I walked for half an hour before the classes was to
start, and then it started raining so I had to do the class in the
studio, which was a half hour of solid ab work. The next day I did
Sweat Camp, and that was more ab work as well as weight lifting, drills
and relays. My abs have been rather sore since, especially on the right
side. Like it actually hurts if I use my right side even the
slightest, like to raise up out of bed. Is it possible to pull an ab
muscle? Cuz that's what it feels like. But I'm still glad I did it.
I definitely didn't want to go again on Friday and make it 3 days in a
row, and I didn't make it up early enough to go to the Saturday morning
Fit Camp, so I'll have to do a workout at home this weekend. Probably
tomorrow morning, I had too much else going on this morning to fit one
in. But I will do it. I'm actually very proud of myself for DOING
this. It's not easy. No only the work, but getting yourself to do it
-- especially when I go to class and most of the people are very thin
and fit already. There are others who are not there yet, but no one is
as out of shape as me, I'm the fattest girl in the class. But you know
what? People were very encouraging and helpful in Sweat Class
Wednesday. One gal who was very fit and sexy -- the kind I would think
wouldn't pay any notice to someone like me -- gave advise on using the
weights and encouraged me while I was there. She was really nice. It
makes it easier to do this when you're not made to feel like the fat kid
in class.
I really am proud of myself even though it's only 2 weeks in right now.
I know I'll get through the next 2 weeks, and I'm already confident
that I'll purchase an annual membership and continue this journey. I
have to. It's who I want to be.
You know, I used to dream about who I'd be and the things I would do one
day when I was lean, strong and healthy. But I had it backwards. It's
actually by doing the things a lean, strong and healthy person does
that you BECOME lean, strong and healthy -- it's not going to happen the
other way around!
If your dreams are always 'one day' I'll be healthy and I'll be active
and I'll do all the things I want to do, then you'll never achieve it.
It'll always dangle in the future somewhere, just out of reach. 'One
day' will never come. But if you decide that TODAY you'll be healthy
and active, and you decide that again tomorrow, and the next day and the
next, then you will become that person. In order to BE a person who is
lean, strong and healthy, I have to do what that person does. And I
have to do it now, not wait for 'one day.'
Does a lean, strong and healthy person live a sedentary life and eat
unhealthy foods? Or are they more likely to work out and eat healthy
most of the time? They're probably more active in general -- not just
when working out. Maybe they go for walks or bike rides or dance or
play softball. So if what I really want is to be someone who is lean,
strong and healthy, then I just need to act as if I already am. Think
of it as playing a role if that helps, and really get into character. I
was always a bit of a drama queen growing up. (Being a Leo how could I
avoid it?) I wanted to act, but never let myself try because I wasn't
thin enough. That was one of the things I was gonna do 'one day' when I
was thin. Well here's my chance -- I can act as if I already am.
We waste so much time wishing we were something other than what we are,
when all we really need to do is decide who we want to be and just BE
that person. Act as if that's how we are, and we will be. I can be the
kind of person who works out. I don't have to like it, I just have to do
it. Soon, if I make it a habit, I will become the kind of person who
is lean, strong and healthy -- naturally.
You know what to do. When life throws challenges in your way and you're
tempted, or when you're not sure if you should have something you
shouldn't eat or feel like skipping a workout -- ask yourself what would
a lean, strong and healthy person do -- and then choose that.