What's to blame? Does it matter?
So this week I saw a gain of .4 kilo (.88 pound) and right away I
started questioning myself. Is it those muffins I made for him earlier
in the week that I couldn't seem to leave alone myself? Is it the fact
that I exceeded my normal calorie intake probably 3 times this week? I
don't really count calories to 'restrict' them per se, I'm kind of at
the point where I just eat what I like through the day and then at the
end of the day I total it all up in FitDay and it just happens to fall
between 1600 and 1800 most days. That's a good thing! I don't want to
feel like I have to count calories. But three days this week (because
of the muffins or the trip to Sydney or whatever) it was over 2000 -
once even over 2500. Add to that that I missed a couple of days walk,
and I guess I can see why I wouldn't lose - but did that cause the gain?
I don't beat myself up about these things, I'm doing very well and
happy with my overall progress. I've gained more weight in my life
from being 'on a diet' than anything else, so I don't ever want to be
'on a diet' again. If I can eat as I like and most days find myself
within the calorie range I need to lose, that's great. I have developed
the habit of walking for about an hour most days (today I went over an
hour and a half, but that's usually only on Saturdays). I've developed
healthy eating and exercise habits that have just become who I am now,
not what I'm doing to try to lose weight. So I'll get there at my own
pace, and I'm fine with that.
Then I looked at the calendar. Ah! Three weeks since TOM last
visited. Well there ya go -- it could be that as well. In the end it
doesn't matter why I'm up this week - most weeks I'm down, and the
overall progress is steadily down, so I'll just keep doing what I'm
doing.
Now, wish me better luck finding healthy vegan options in Melbourne in
the coming week! It won't just be one meal, I'll be heading down there
Tuesday afternoon, and not coming back until Thursday evening. So I'll
have to manage for several meals - and not on my own where I can decide
where to eat, but I'll be with a group from work. The event we're
going to provides morning tea and lunch - but it's a fancy hotel, so
I'm sure if I can't find anything in their offerings, it wouldn't be
hard to rustle up something else. In the evenings, the work crew
generally goes out to eat and then out to enjoy the nightlife -- we'll
see how it goes. It's my first time going on a business trip with them,
so I want to enjoy myself, but I also don't want to break with my
healthy habits any more than I have to.