This weekend was just what I needed. Very relaxing and enjoyable.DD was at my mom's which meant some much needed for myself and DH. Friday night we went to dinner and then came home and watched Resident Evil 3. Ehh..(shrugs shoulders). DH picked it but it was nice to spend time together. Then Saturday he had an emergency call so I went to the YMCA but ended up not working out there all weekend because all the machines were already taken. Lesson learned. But I did get a lot of walking in when I went shopping right afterwards. I forgot how much I hated shopping. ALWAYS, hate shopping. But as the pounds packed on I've found its even worse. So I've bought a couple of goal shirts and didnt even bother looking at pants. Then today we picked up Anna Beth and my parents took us out to eat. So this Easter weekend is coming up and I'd like to set a mini-goal of 12 lbs. If it doesnt happen I wont beat myself up but if it does go me right? So I'm excited about tommorow. Baby is feeling better which means back on track with YMCA. Well I am off for now, the younging woke up. Hope everyone is feeling good and stays safe.
Ok, so I got busted today. I went grocery shopping and DH was at home when I got home so he helped with the groceries. Haha.. he finally stumbled across the Jenni-O ground turkey. He was like whats this, then he paused, and asked how long I had been buying it. Lol.. so it was kind of funny. Right now on what I like to call a carb detox. I'll be on it until next Wensday. I do it because I eat a lot of carbs on my diet because I love carbs. Who needs choclate? Just fill me up some nachos or spaghetti and I'm good to go. Or my all time fav. mexican. Ok, that's making me hungry. So anyways for a week I do something close to atkins but in reality its just getting rid of the carbs in my system. Just lots of protein and good fat. And then I'll go back to points. I'm going to try to do it once a month. I've never done it like this so it's more like an experiment. If it doesnt work as well the second time I do it next month then I will just scratch it and just stick to points. Still didnt get in four hours today but I have been running around today and I DID GET TO GO TO THE YMCA. I was super excited. I wanted to stay there for two hours but had to end up going home because I didnt have any water and started feeling light headed because of it. I ended up doing a total of 6 miles at the gym. So I definatley got some exercise in today. I actually really like the elliptical. I'm still suprised about that. DD is going to Meme's(my mom) house tommorow so I am SUPER excited about that. Relaxation and make up time at the gym. I havent gone yet on the weekends I hope they arent to busy. I've also found the perfect time to go so that makes things a little easier. Anyways, I'm going to probably take an early night to sleep that way I can catch up with all of you tommorow. Take care everyone.
Sorry I just had to come back on here and share my excitement. Well today I in no means got the four hours of exercise or activity in but I did get an hour. I did my DVD collection Slim in 6 which I love! Well, there is three phases and I've never been able to do the third one until now. I final was able to get through it. I am so excited. It seems so silly but the workouts are no joke. Even if I went back to phase one it would still burn. It burns every time. Grant it, I had to march in place a few times and pause during the push ups from time to time. But I've never been able to get even 20 minutes into it and I did 60. I feel so confident. That's about it though. Take care. Oh btw, this is the link youtube.com/watch to show you some of the workouts I did. It's a qvc comercial. Sorry, it's the only thing I could find on youtube. But it shows you clips from the workout. Kind got erked when i found it because its like half the price of what I paid but oh well
I had a 2lb loss that puts me at 201. Which I guess is good. I guess I was just expecting it to fall off since I had already lost it. Wishful thinking on my part. I promise I'll start catching up on everyone. My DD and DH just dont seem to give me a break. Hope everyone has a good day and I'll be on later.
I always look forward to Tuesdays. TBL is just always inspiring and never has re-runs. Well, maybe on other tv stations. I also love the new quick tips from the trainers that they started last season I think.Anyways, just wanted to share my excitement. I'm looking for a good ab workout dvd that I can do at home. Or just anything that will tone my stomach. Any suggestions would be much appreciated. I do sit ups now but I am looking for something on dvd also. Today was good. Stayed in my pt range. Everything is looking up on every aspect now if I can just start the major weight loss trend that would be great. Now I've been thinking about this a lot. A lot of ep people have been saying they dont have four hours to work out like BL contestants do. Well, umm, I do. I have all the time in the day fortunatley. So I really have no excuse not to be attempting that goal of four hours. Now I know that's not always going to happen but it is something that I should aim for. I'm pretty sure it wont be as hard core as Jillian and Bob's sessions but theres no excuse why I cant walk an hour longer with Anna Beth. And do an extra video for the day. Or stay a wee bit longer at the gym. So I have set this as my goal for March. To try to accomplish this as often as possible. I dont know if BL takes the day of but I really believe in taking at least a day off a week so dont worry I wont become a freak of nature with exercising. This is just my way of stopping the excuses and getting out of the house as often as possible. Just because I'm a stay at home mommy doesnt mean I need to sit down all day after the chores and usual work outs done. So I'll let you know how that goes. Hope everyone is well. I will check up on all of you in a little bit. I need to pick up around the house before TBL comes on and I start my workouts. That way I dont have to worry about it at 1 am in the morning.
Hey all, sorry I've been missing for a few days. I've been super sick so I havent felt much like blogging. I have been eating great and try to get up walk around and be out and about as much as possible. DD is still sick too. But as of now we are just both dealing with a bad cough. Yep, that means I still cant go to the YMCA. If I go there the first time she coughs they will page me and tell me to take her home. Sooo... since we are both feeling a lot better today I think I'm going to attempt to do more activity and get back into my routine. And I think we should both get out of the house so I'll probably take her for a nice long walk. For the yikes part; well, silly me, thought Easter was in April. But my mom informed me today that it's actually this month. So that 20lb mini goal I was hoping for before I go down and see the inlaws probably wont happen. But I'll still try just as hard. I just wanted to go down there with a bang you know? But I guess there's always next time.I'll write more later. Take care everyone.
one whiny miserable lady. One whiny miserable lady DD sick too DD teething too= one whiny miserable lady about to go insane. So with that and the last blog its needless to say I've had a full plate. And to top it all of I soo just wrote this blog but it didnt go through. Oh well. Let's try this again. So WI was on Wensday. I WI at 203 which is not bad considering TOM still wasnt here and I had made progress since the bad WI about a week ago. And then TOM came about three hours after WI. So we will see what next week has in store. I miss the Y. It's now been two days and tommorow will make three. So hopefully Monday DD and I will be back on track and ready to go back.
MY DH has had it very ruff time growing up. His parents got divorce and his dad had custody but one Christmas when they came down to visit their mom. Their mom never took them back to their airport. Then his mom jumped from boyfriend to boyfriend and one of them was very abusive. Then at about 12 him and his twin sister went to live with his granparents. Which is why I have been talking about them. And his parents were in and out for long periods of time until about 20. And I dont remember which one of you said your MIL has ocd but thats his grandmother. Her house is spotless and she irons EVERYTHING. Bras, undies, towels, you name it she does it. She is incharge of all her childrens lives and doesn't let anyone do their own laundry. She's just that type of person. She LOVES being in control. And a;; the family was so worried about his sister I guess they forgot about him. Now this never came out of his mouth but it's so obvious because they still do it today. She's so much smarter and she's going to be so successful. And this did come out of about five of the family members mouths. So needless to say DH had to do everything and earn everything on his own. Which worked out for him because he's not under grandmothers control of everyone. But he firmly believes that theres not point of crying and if you want something you cant ask help from anyone just do it. But growing up with his grandparents he does have an OCD about neat houses too. He doesnt understand why I cant be organized. Well.. umm.. because I never had to do it. I was spoiled. I'll clean but then I'll stop. It's not routine for me. It's something I have to tell myself to do. So I'll do it for a month and then I'll start to slack off. I mean not like you see on tv with 2 weeks worth of dishes in the sink or anything gross like that. But I'll like put stuff in places just for "the moment" and forget about them and then before you know it the whole house is messy. So there will be a random shoe of Anna Beth's in our closet or papers stacked up in multiple drawers. Stuff like that. So I'm not unsanitary I just dont know how to organize. We'll when I dont clean DH takes it as I dont care enough to do my part. And he works like over 60 hours a week just so I can stay home with DD so he takes it as a back handed insult. So Tuesday night when I watched TBL I realized my whole life is like Britney's journey to weighloss. Jillian was explaining that Britney gets so close to accomplishing something but right before she accomplishes it she stops. That explain my weight, my cleaning, and just a lot of other hardships of mine. So Wednesday when DH and I finally sat down and talked he asked why I cant just clean the house and not slack of and I'm sitting here thinking its because of how bad he's treating me and how I'm kind of rebelling but I remember TBL and it hit me. My first marriage was so horrible. I didnt love him which was my fault but I tried to make it work anyways. I cooked, I was a spotless cleaner, and A college student and just all around a cute great wife that he would be proud to show around. Well when I left and realized it didnt matter how great I was it would never work I guess it hurt my ego more than I realized. So when I met DH and really fell in love and we moved in I figured well, if I'm just average at least I will deserve to get yelled out, or if he leaves at least he'll have a reason why. I dont know why it hit me then. We've had constant arguments like this and all I could come up with is I dont know. So here he was asking again why and I looked up at him and said, "Because if I'm perfect and you still dont treat me right, I'll have to leave you and it wont be easy like before. It would devestate me." And it's like he both found the answer we've been looking for so long. He finally understood why, and I finally undertsood what I was doing. And I realized that he was really sweet when I did do right and he though like he was being respected. So I guess I have TBL to thank and you guys. So thanks. I know we are going to have many more arguments and our journey has just begun. But maybe now that I understand what I've been doing with my life I can change my life and maybe there will be a little less of arguments. It's going to be hard though because I've been living to be "just average" for so long.
I did want to mention one more thing before I got off of here. A lot of you and other blogs, friends, and my experiences show how it seems like military men have a lot more anger than most men. I wonder if it's because most of them have had a ruff childhood or just because of what they've experienced. I couldnt tell you one of the other about DH. He's had a ruff childhood but he's also experienced some really bad stuff overseas that he still has nightmares about from time to time and never talks about. I guess it's just another reason to think about why maybe what our troops really are doing over there. I use to be a big BUSH supporter but now, not even close to as much as I use to. It just seems like everyone is hurting from this and its not getting better for anyone. Most of my friends husband and friends in the military have been over there at least two times for more than a year each time. I dunno.. just got my mind going on the subject. I just hope all the troops come home safe.
That's it for now. Take care all. Thanks again. And I'm going to try to start catching up on all of you.
Or at least we are under a watch tonight. I have a lot of things on my mind latley. And I am in desperate need of help.First off, the good news. Everything went perfect today as far as weight today. Took in ALL of my water intake, went to the Y, got an hour in and 30 minutes of that was on the dreaded elliptical. It wasnt as bad as I though. Food was good too. I had an egg omlet in the morning, turkey and cheese sandwich on wheat bread with orange juice, and tonight I had a serving of spaghetti that I made for dinner. So I'm pretty proud. TOM still isnt here yet but I know he's coming. Plus I think I finally got what DD had so that made me feel really icky today.
Anyways on to what has been troubling me. I hope someone has some type of advice. First off, is my in-laws. VERY controlling. Let's just put it this way. When Michael and I first moved in together she wanted to manage our bank account and our bills, and she wanted to pick out our insurance. And I've been on her bad list ever since I told her thanks, but no thanks. So anyways, they have advice about everything and everyone and they are RIGHT. Or at least they think they are. Anyways, a little history on grandma. She at one time was more than 100lbs over her ideal weight. She had gastric bypass surgery. So now she is like 150-160ish. BUT NOW... she is the queen of weight loss and knows exactly how it works. Anyways, my hubby stops talking to his family every now and then because they do say so much hurtful stuff about other family members and I'm sure me. I'm sure A LOT of me. He never tells me though, which is probably a good thing. Well, anyways, once he called to finally talk to his grandmother she asked how thing were going and he said ok. He told her DD was sick, and I'm trying to lose weight, and he's been busy with work. WELL.. then it all made since why he hadnt called. I was probably so stressed out about my weight that I was stressing him out and thats why he didnt call. She went on to say that I wouldnt lose weight because she just knows I never will. So I now have an offical motivation. To prove their butts wrong. Sorry if it sounds like I'm mean to them. I'm always polite and never disrepect them but when you know someone doesnt like you it's kinda hard not to be compettive and prove them wrong. I dont know it's like if your not blood, your never really IN the family which really hurts. So that's that. Actually, I guess I dont need advice on that. Just an update. But now on to where I need help, MY HUBBY.
DH and I have been together for two almost three years. Our DD was a huge surprise seeing we were only together for umm.. three months. We've had a hard time with our relationship seeing as that we are still learning each other. He has an anger problem. I mean on a bad day he can go off on something so stupid about four or five times a day. No hitting or anything like that but when he gets mad he does go straight for my feelings. He knows how to hurt them. I've tried a few times to tell him that it's going to be the death of us but he doesnt believe me. Well tonight he walked in on me telling my mom about the in-laws and was distraught and that started off the day. First off, my mom is my best friend I've told her practically everything that has ever happened and call her everyday. DH thinks its gossiping. Me, not so much because it's about ME! So he got over that and then the next thing was towels, I have a bad habbit about remembering to put clean towels in the bathroom so when he goes to take a shower he's left stranded. Second thing to send him over the edge. So then he was talking to me and asking me what was wrong... and for some reason I blunt out told him that I know he doesnt like me. Well that was it.. he hasnt talked to me since. I didnt mean to say it like that but for the longest time that is truley how I've been feeling. And I know he's the way he is because of his ruff past and moments in the military and I KNOW he loves me. But he's just not affectionate and he's not there for me to talk to like most husbands. I have to go to my mom to talk about things on my mind or that are bothering me because he thinks it's just gossip. I've tried letters, I've tried talking nothing seems to get through to him. And when I bluttered out that I felt like he didnt like me it was like stress lifted off of my shoulders but at the same time it left me wide open for anything. And even though I am hurting because we arent on speaking terms I dont feel as vulnerable anymore like in prior arguments. I feel as if I could be silent forever now to prove that his tempers have gotten out of control. When he leaves his dishes everywhere because he thinks it bothers me, or leaves something on the floor to try to brake me I've just been smiling and being nice like usual. Me being nasty to him isnt going to solve anything and eventually he's going to feel like a jerk. I know he will. I just usually give in before he realizes that. But I guess my question is does this happen in every marriage at first and is there hope that he will come more understanding to my feelings and to who I am. And is there anything I can do to bring it to his attention where he might actually get it instead of just blow it off as me being emotional. I'm starting to get really nervous for our marriage. I can stick through a lot but 70 years of his tempers doesnt sound like its going to work. I need so much help understanding guys and him.
This weekend went ok. I'm sleep deprived and moody so you can imagine how my husband feels. I think that had to do with my frustration blog too. I've lost some of the lbs. So hopefully when TOM arrives and leaves I'll see a better result. But TOM should be here anyday so I guess its good that I'm still seeing my weight gain drop down still. I want to go to the Y sooo bad. I did this weekend to and i told myself that I'd take the weekends off. But since DD is sick the Y wont let her stay in the childcare. Which honestly makes me happy because at least I know that they'd do the same for her if another child was sick so prevent her and other children from getting sick. I have yet to go on an elliptical. HA.. those things scare me. But I've been doing treadmill, weights, and the bike. Hopefully I can step it up this week a little more though. Conqure my fears even if its only five minutes. But for today, just work out dvds and walking outside while its still sunny. I wish it was colder. We havent dropped below 72 during the days but I guess it's still better than the gruesome summers. As far as why I gained weight and why I've had a bigger problem with it before I started this diet. Well, it's because I eat extra point and tell myself I'll work them off later. Well I get busy and later never comes. So I guess I need to do before eat.haha. I'm feeling better though and I might still have a weight gain on wensday but I'm ok with it and know what I need to fix. Thank you again to all ya'lls great encouragement. Take care.
Ok. So I got on the internet to come here but I always check the news first. I ran across an article saying that the Bible says Obama is the going to be the next president? Now I know that this is a weight loss blog but I am very curious about this. I tried doing research on my own but all I found was some crazy websites about Obama being the president but if Hillary wins she would be the antichrist. Which I must say I do not believe. Not sure why I care so much. I'm a Republican at heart but the guy I wanted withdrew so now I'm just waiting to see who the candidates are going to be and do research that way. I'm not one of those Republicans who choose only republicans. I choose whoever I believe will be the best. Grant it Florida wont let you vote outside your party so I wont be much help to a Dem. And I can say that if Hillary or Obama wins for president that is a huge accomplishment to show how far we've come in equal rights. But ANYWAYS, so far off track. But if anyone has knowledge of Barack being in the Bible as told to be the next president can you please fill me in thanks. Oh yeah, here's the link that I found. news.aol.com/political-machine/2008/02/25/bible-predicts-barack-obama-victory/
