Thursdays are the perfect night for me to catch up with everyone because there is usually nothing on. I use to watch Greys Anatomy and Ugly Betty but ever since the writer's strike thats been non-existent. I'm glad they worked something out. And I dont know how much the writers were getting underpaid but you can see their importance clearly considering there is barely anything on tv anymore. I'm so glad TBL isnt scripted or else I'd be miserable. I wish they would have it on all year. Today was the first offical TOM day. And I am in so much pain. Freaking out a little too because my pants are supper tight. I hope its just bloating. I fell in love with DH today because he got DD up this morning and let me sleep in. Not only that but he changed her diaper! I know that probably sounds weird that I'm shocked by that but he's just really weird about changing her diaper since she's a girl. He tells me he just feel uncomfortable. Maybe its an excuse.. I dunno. But the point is that he did it for me. He's never done anything like that. Today I took off of exercise because of all the deadly cramps but tommorow its back to the YMCA. Thats pretty much it for me. Now I will check up on all of you.
Ok, so I'm having some problems creating a new album. I finally took a progress picture. Of where I'm starting from. I do have a bathing suit picture that I took when I was 212. But I'm not posting that until I'm at least 30lbs lighter. These are bad enough. So I will put those up as soon as it starts working again.So I set a new goal and started my no excuse ww on monday. I'm tired of making excuses but I have been doing really good. My new goal of loseing 67lbs has been moved to August 18, my birthday. What a great way to start my 23rd birthday. So to lose the remaining weight I will have to lose about 2.6lbs a week. Sounds do able. But there will always be a plateu week which I cant worry about right now. Morning breakfast I will have either grits or an egg. Snack is 100 calorie bag of something. Lunch, a smartones frozen meal. 2nd snack a fruit or veggie. And then dinner I have a whole bunch of ww recipes to cook. Tonight I cooked a really good spaghetti sauce for a serving with noodles was 6 points. Tommorow is WI day but I'm not going to because TOM is suppose to start like today or tommorow. And since its not here yet I just dont want to take the chance to see a gain.l did weigh monday though and I was still maintaing my weight so we will see what monday looks like.Anyways those are my updates.Oh and I'm only going to weigh in twice a week. I'm going to stick to this to. Monday to see how I maintained over the weekend and Wensday because that is my offical WI. I know thats kinda close together but I think knowing I have a WI on monday with keep me OP during the weekends.Thats it though. Take care.
Easter with the in-laws. I found out that the aunt hasnt really lost 20lbs only about 15. Which is still great for her but made me feel a little better. Plus, I think DH said something because they didnt say anything about my weight or weight loss. So I was really happy about that. And I'm really happy that DH said something. DD got really spoiled so now she's having withdrawls for getting whatever she wants. FUN! She had a lot of fun, though, and I dont mind that our family spoils her. It's what they are allowed to do. And Easter was a breeze. Candy was never a problem seeing as I am very picky with sweets and I'm not to fond of choclate. And DIL didnt really cook anything for Easter that I really enjoyed so I was able to watch my portions.Lol if you cant tell by now I'm a really picky eat. I'm still trying to figure out why I'm fat. Lol. But anyways, just getting settled in and everything unpacked. Grocery shopping today. I'm might come on and post later but just wanted to update for now. Take care everyone!
Down at the in-laws and there computer is really slow so I wont be able to reply to anyone. But I did want to blog and send everyone my best wishes and hope every has a wonderful and safe Easter.
I've been missing for a few days. And I know its by not the best to go missing after a bad post like I had also. We've been getting the house ready to leave for Ft. Lauderdale for Easter weekend. I know I've told you before that I'm not a great cleaner. But for some reason I am super anal about my house being clean before we leave. I guess because I just want to relax when I get home from a trip. Especially a four hour drive with the baby. Thank you so much to all of you that supported me. It meant so much. I ended up talking to DH soon after I posted it. Or actually he came up to me when he saw I was crying. He apologized and did say he didnt mean it like that. But I did do bad that day. I ate more than I should have. BUT I didnt do nearly as bad as those many times before. But I think that I would have seen a bigger lose on the scale this morning. But one lb is one lb. I did want to comment on that show " I CAN MAKE YOU THIN". Really hard to believe but I have been trying one thing. He says that you should concentrate on what you eat and really chew the food. And each bite you should set you silverware down. I feel like a real idiot doing but if you do it like he tells you to.... I have been getting full... A LOT quicker. So he has something to his method. I'm really excited about the next show. Emotional eating. My biggest downfall to weightloss. That or boredom eating. For two days straight though I've been absolutley wonderful on eating. And I finally went to a water aerobics.OMG.. I never knew it could be intense. I'm actually pretty sore. I did the gym for an hour also and walked DD and the puppy for an hour too but thats normal for me. I'm really sore and I'm wondering how I will feel tommorow. But it is a great class. I am super excited. Especially water weights.. who knew! Take care everyone.
So next weekend we got to see my in-laws. I just found out today that my DH aunt has lost 20lbs in 9 weeks. Which I'm happy for her but I'm kicking myself in the butt because if I wasnt so worried about them I would be there by now. I feel so horrible right now. And then my DH comes up to me and tells me what to buy at the store because he wants to lose some weight too. Then he adds, " I'll show you how easy it is to lose weight." I dont think he meant to hurt my feeling but that was the final kick when I was down about the aunt loseing weight. I just feel so defeated. I feel like there is no point. Because no matter what I'm the failure. Who cares that I have lost weight, or the fact that I've stayed commited for so long. To them I've just kept straying off path which means I failed. I'm going to keep doing this for me but I truley do feel horrible today.
so good. Points are going really well. Today is my high day. I'm allowed 39 points. So I took advantage of that with chinese. Yum. I've been craving it for a few weeks now. DD did have a 24 hour bug. And then the next day I ended up getting it too. So I'm still lacking a lot of sleep and my stomach is still upset but at least the rest is gone. YMCA is great but it's like I go there for two or three days straight and I miss a week because DD gets sick. It's very irritating. I love the gym it just seems like I can never go. So here's hoping that my luck with change. I havent been working out at all the past few days either. I would make an excuse but that's all it would basically be. Now if I could just join the exercise and the food together mabye I could move it along faster. The scale did show a two pound lose this morning. But I'll check again in two days. I say two days because there is no way I'm checking tommorow after my high day. Especially, since chinese contains a lot of salt. So that's it for now I guess. Now I am going to check up on all of you.
very very sick. Again, I know. So needless to say I cant check up on all of you today but just wanted everyone to know I was still going strong. DD woke up at 1am and I was still awake. I think it was God's way of telling me not to go to sleep because I would have never heard her gaging. So se threw up all night. Finally at 6 am it calmed down and we were able to get two hours of sleep. So then i knew I needed to get her out of the house while the laundry was running and to give DH a break because he stayed up too. So we made it to the grocery store only to turn right back around because she got sick again. She had two more episodes after that but just been whiny because she doesnt feel good. So I feel really bad because I cant explain to her what is happening. But she's been good for about 6hours now. So here's hopeing it was at 24 hour bug. I hope everyone is doing ok. I send my well wishes your way.
So last night I had to come clean with myself. And now I must come clean to ya'll my supporters. I was scared to let all of you down but in order to move on I must. So the scale says I have a 2lb gain. But in reality it has been more than latley so thats actually good from where I was at. Which was 207. I was doing really good before I found out that Easter was closer than I though and that I would have to go see my in-laws a lot sooner than I thought. Then I was looking for the quickest way to lose weight so that I could hit that 20lb mark. before I went down there. But in reality I was starving myself all day. And then as soon as DH would leave I would stuff my face. Not to mention my body was in starvation mode anyways because I was getting that four hours of work out in on most days too. I dont know what I was thinking... I really do know better. I just really wanted to shut their mouths where they didnt have anything to talk about. Grant it there will always be something wrong with me but when they have that against me to explain why I am not good enough for DH it's like a second kick in the stomach because I already do enough of that myself. I finally broke down last night and talked to DH about it. He reassured me and told me that if anyone doesnt deserve somebody its him not deserving me. Just when I think he doesnt have a sweet spot in his body he just throws something out like that. So I've come to terms with myself and my body and realize that it has to come off slow and I might not be 20lb down on Easter but I will be skinnier and only get skinnier. So here's to continuing my weight loss the slow right way. I hope everyone is having a good day.
Ok, so DH is messing around and I cant go to bed so I'm going to be up for a little while longer. Tommorow I have a doctors appt. with the ob/gyn. YAY, I'm finally getting on birth control. I havent been on it since DD. And I'm tired of taking chances of getting pregnant again. Because I definitly do not need to get pregnant again right now. So I'm super excited because of that but also because I'll be able to predict when TOM is coming and maybe my symptoms and appetite will be controlled a little more. So again, YAY! So for my title. Besides being a mother and wife I've got nothing. No friends around here and my family is a good distance away where I cant just go on over to pass the time. So that's why I've realized that I do have four hours to work out. Actually more than four hours. So tommorow I start my new job. My new job to lose weight. I realized today that I dont need to make anymore excuses. I have plenty of time and plenty of oppurtunities that I might not get later on. And I would love to look good in a bathing suit. So tommorow everyone is going to see a change. A change in my blogs, in my attitude, and my weight. I can feel it deep down in my heart and soul this time. I am finally mentally ready to do this. I want to be able to fit in things in my closet again. So tommorow, is the day. Take care everyone and good night.
She had a lot of fun, though, and I dont mind that our family spoils her. It's what they are allowed to do. And Easter was a breeze. Candy was never a problem seeing as I am very picky with sweets and I'm not to fond of choclate. And DIL didnt really cook anything for Easter that I really enjoyed so I was able to watch my portions.Lol if you cant tell by now I'm a really picky eat. I'm still trying to figure out why I'm fat. Lol. But anyways, just getting settled in and everything unpacked. Grocery shopping today. I'm might come on and post later but just wanted to update for now. Take care everyone!
Especially, since chinese contains a lot of salt. So that's it for now I guess. Now I am going to check up on all of you.
Tommorow I have a doctors appt. with the ob/gyn. YAY, I'm finally getting on birth control. I havent been on it since DD. And I'm tired of taking chances of getting pregnant again. Because I definitly do not need to get pregnant again right now. So I'm super excited because of that but also because I'll be able to predict when TOM is coming and maybe my symptoms and appetite will be controlled a little more. So again, YAY!
So for my title. Besides being a mother and wife I've got nothing. No friends around here and my family is a good distance away where I cant just go on over to pass the time. So that's why I've realized that I do have four hours to work out. Actually more than four hours. So tommorow I start my new job. My new job to lose weight. I realized today that I dont need to make anymore excuses. I have plenty of time and plenty of oppurtunities that I might not get later on. And I would love to look good in a bathing suit. So tommorow everyone is going to see a change. A change in my blogs, in my attitude, and my weight. I can feel it deep down in my heart and soul this time. I am finally mentally ready to do this. I want to be able to fit in things in my closet again. So tommorow, is the day. Take care everyone and good night.