SHOPPING!

Ok... so it wasnt as fun as it sounded. I was actually really frusturated. I know I've lost some weight and I'm still loseing but it's just a drag to go shopping still. Maybe one day soon though.  I did manage to get some really cute shirts though that I will still be able to flaunt when I am skinny.  Plus I got to shop with my mom and thats a lot more relaxing than shopping with DH. I know most guys wouldnt even go shopping so I am thankful for that. But he doesnt understand why I get so emotional when I cant fit something.  And he doesnt understand why I cant just find what I want and go. He's a man, and if he knew more about what clothes look right on me than what I did I'd be pretty worried. Still pretty postive though. Loving the time with my parents but I miss DH. I'll see him tommorow morning though. Anyways, thats all I have for now. Just wanted to check in. Now I'm going to go check in on all of you.

So sorry..

So sorry everyone for kind of disapearing. I actually was so tired that I fell asleep before TBL came one. Luckily it was DVR'd.Wow! I cant believe what Alli and Kelly did. That's incredible and to knock those boys down was just a big girl power kind of moment. I guess it shows everyone that we really can do it if we want to. I've been so tired recently. I think it has a lot to do with alergies and all the extra activity I've been doing.C25K has been really hard but DH informed me that it might be because of the fact that I've been wearing KSWISS. Which are basically specifically made for tennis. Since I love tennis they are the only shoes I've almost every worn. So I went and bought some running shoes yesterday. Because when I run it doesnt hurt because I'm out of breath or because my whole legs hurt. Just my calves. I'll stick to it no matter what but for the time being I have gone back to week one just incase I'm not ready for week 2. I dont know whats wrong with me but yesterday I asked DH to get on me if he saw me drinking soda or tea  at any point in time until May 6, the weigh in day. And I know he will so maybe thats what I need in order to stop drinking  bad things. So we will see how I feel a week from now. Anyways, I do have to go play with DD now but I will be back on later to catch up. Take care.

Star struck and stressed

Weird title. I know but it's the only thing I could come up with.  So I start with the stressed part and go on to happier thoughts in a sec. So I'm sitting here drinking hella water because I'm done with my calories for the day.  Hopeing that is will some how make me full for the rest of the night. Which is possible becasue one of my goals is to start going to bed earlier. But I ate a Healthy Choice Steamers Generals Tso's Chicken. SOOO good but 430 calories. So that's what kind of arranged my day because of. I'm getting better about eating the allowed amount of calories that the biggest loser club all. But I 've been really good about not going over 1500 calories a day. Well, besides yesterday and I had binge night. No excuses for that one. Except extreeme guilt afterwards.

Now for the start struck. So no, I didnt actually meat anyone and no, I didnt talk to Bob from TBL.(sighs) But since joining the biggest loser club I wrote Amanda from the begging of the season. I could really relate to her because my husband is a stubborn as hers and I am not exagerating when I say the my DH thinks he knows EVERYTHING. And he is wrong a lot. lol. Oh well. Anyways, so on TBLC website you can write to some of the players. Well I wrote to Amanda small chit chat and asked her if she could give me an idea about how it worked on the campus. Well I recieved a letter two days ago from her! Lol.. I never would have thought she would actually write back She said she can only speak from what they told her to do. While on the campus she said she ate 1200 calories and did work out 5 to 6 hours a day at least. She said since being off she still eats 1200 calories and works out about 3 to 4 hours a day. Whatever she could fit in. It was pretty short but I didnt mind considering how many messages she probably gets. But just thought I would share if anyone was intrested. I also read something in the book yesterday. Most of you probably already know this but it said that carbs should be eaten before three everyday. I've heard this before but to be quite frank...ummm... if you dont want me to binge then I'm going to need my carbs whenever I want. Still reading it but I told you I would share whenever I found something intresting.

  Other than that, just typing to avoid the cravings. Because they are going strong. Infact I am arguing with myself in my head right now debating back and forth if I should eat. But I'm not going to let it win this time. I'm glad DH is stubborn. I was so ready to weigh myself yesterday but couldnt find the scale. DH hid it good. And when I ask him do hide it for a month... well, he's going to hide it for a month. Even if my opinion on it changes.  So it was better for me today but I'm still constantly thinking if this is helping or not. Monday I did C25K workout one week two. It was almost unbearable. So I dont know how to get my stamina up to make sure I stay with it. Any adive would be much appreciated. Anyways, better go. I'll be back on in a little bit to check up on everyone.

Not much..

to report. Typical Sunday. Went and picked up DD this afternoon. I love my reunions with her. And today is the first day of the month long process of not weighing myself. It's already killing me today. Just not knowing. So this is going to be really painful. But thats why I told DH to put it somewhere my short but couldnt reach it. That about it though. Hope everyone had a great weekend.

Going to sound crazy.

Ok. soo this is going to sound a little crazy. But here is goes. DH and I were watching a rerun of "I Can Make You Thin." It's the one he was talking about where you shouldn't weigh everyday.  He said you shouldn't even weigh every week.  He should say you should only weigh in every month. Now realisticly this would never happen for me; every single month only weighing in once. But I think I am going to try it for a month. The scale effects greatly how I feel about my weight. And seeing as how I weigh every chance I get that's bad. If I'm up or down depends on what type of an excuse I will make for eating. Even now. So with that and the fact that I'm really focused on this C25K thing I decided it might be worth giving it a try. DH is going to put it somewhere where I can reach it. Because if it just stays in the bathroom or somewhere else I can reach it then  I'll end up weighing myself. Soo.. this is going to be incredibly hard but in some ways I think it'll keep me on target.

Hope my FIT girls ok with me taking my measurements every week instead of scale weight? I know its a little different. Other than that all my goals will be the same. I probably wont keep this up after a month but we'll see what the scales say and how I feel about it then. Hopefully the snake doesnt pass or eat my mouse. I'm not sure what exactly happens on the goal thingy when it catches up to your current weight.

Thank you to all those that wished me well wishes for Disney. Unfortunatley we didnt go. We've had some nasty weather all weekend which conviently started early Friday afternoon. Go figure. That's about all I have right now though. I'm going to start checking up on all of you. Take care.

Crossing my fingers!

Ok.. so it's that time again! DD goes to my mom and dad's!HOORAY!  I'm crossing my fingers though because I really want to go to Dinsey World tommorow night. DH's company does the lighting there and can get us in for nothing. I mean it's like a special occasion because a few weeks ago there was a power outage for like almost an hour and it messed up a lot of things so her come DH to rescue. So as a thank they said that we could come one night on them. I even took today as my rest day because of all the walking I would do. Plus the exercise that i regularly do. But lets just hope the weather changes.  Anyways, back to weight stuff. I did stretching last night so my body didnt hurt as much as morning. My abs continue to hurt though. Running works your abs. Who would've thunk it..lol. I can DH is impressed to. He let me sleep in again while he watched DD. Who is this man? Haha. so I've noticed something. I'm elated because I've figured out how I want to conquer this weight loss. But I've also noticed that the little running I'm doing is really energizing me and I'm happier afterwards. I'm bubbly all day. Well, I'm thinking it's the running. All those endorphins. But I also finally got to start my birth control this past Sunday. So I'm questioning that too. Hmm.. who knows... better yet.. who cares. As long as I'm not deppressed all the time like I was right? I have to admit though. I still have been concerned about some of my fellow ep buddies. They are going through a lot right now. And it really hurts because I cant do anything to make things better. So for those of you that are going through problems just know that your in my prayers and you are in my thoughts as well. That's all I have right now.  Oh, I did want to ask. Since I've started all the running and really watching what I eat I'm freezing ALL the time. Normally I sweat in 71 degrees in my house but now I constantly have a blanket.DH has actually been complaining because the thermostat slowly keeps going up. Does anyone else experience this. Dont get me wrong though, it's still hot as ever outside. That hasnt changed for me. Yesterday was  81 degrees and humid. It felt more like 90 something.  Take care everyone.

Hiding behind my daughter.

Sooo I realized last night when I was going through pictures how much I like to avoid taking pictures of me by taking so many of my daughter. hmm.. I'm slick.. I even fooled myself. lol.. its ok. i can never get enough of my daughter but I dont want to hide anymore. Those pictures that I posted of me are terrifying me. Speaking of, I need help with my album. I'd like to put it in a new album but when I click on it it doesnt do anything. Are the extra albums just for gold members now? I also put up a new picture.It's not my goal weight but its one of my favorites.  

 As far as WI today. Nothing great. Just a few ounces but I'll take it. A loss is a loss. I kind of prepared myself too because my body is all messed up with all the different things I've been doing to it.  So if I dont see better next WI then I'll be kind of upset. Great NSV though. I did my second workout for week 1 C25k. I though I was going to DIE! Monday I was sore after running. Tuesday it got a little bit worse and then today before I went to the YMCA is was horrible pain and stiffness. Then I almost quit when I started on the treadmil because my calves were on fire. Or at least the could have been. I didnt get my full hour at the gym in like usual but I did make it to 45 with 30 minutes on the treadmill and 15 on the elliptical. I was happy that I worked through the pain and even pushed myself to do some time on the elliptical.

 You know I must say. I'm not going to win any awards any time soon for losing a lot of weight as fast as some as you girls are. But I am so happy these fast few days.I think because these past two months I've been struggling so bad just to stick with this and even though I was straying not give up completly. I said this was final diet and meant it. And now that I've finally figured out what works for me I'm ecstatic! And running no matter how little time it actually is.. wow. I have to toot my own horn on that one. Thank you to all of you that have believed in me all this time and to those that are supporting me and getting to know me.  I can feel it working. It's only down hill from here.

Everyone knows

Everyone knows that we must take a journey at our own speed with our own obstacles and goals. Everyone is doing so great and I was starting to question how I feel about where I am and how I'm not moving as fast. I've done so many diets. SOOOOOO many diets. I've been yo yo dieting for a while. I havent lost near as much weight as I have in the past in this amount of time. But I think I've been taking a self journey with myself. I had to figure out what I wanted out of this final diet for myself and which one is going to work best with my life style. WW has worked for me many many times before but I've noticed that its just not for me this time. It's weird. It feels as if the older I got whats comfortable me has changed. I guess its just weird because a diet is just a diet right? Well, I've realized that its not. As you grow your comfort grows for anything. eliminating a food for me doesnt work because I just find something else to get addicted to. LOL... talk about my own evolution. I've been learning what works for me and what doesnt. And after 2 months I think I've finally reached where I want to be and what I want to do to be succesful. For the past fourd days I've been counting calories. 1358 to 1571 a day. I've also stopped pondering about the idea of running and started the C25K yesterday. I actually messed up. The first day I was suppose to run for 60 seconds and walk briskly for 90sec and alternate between the two for 20 to 30 minutes. Well, I ran for 90 secs and walked for 60 secs. I cant believe I was running. And it wasnt as bad as I thought. Infact this one lady came up and said I had the prettiest run. Lol.. it tickled me because that was my very first day of ever running at all. I always told everyone that if some psycho guy was chasing me I would just give up because it would take him long to catch up to a girl that can run. Now, realisticly I would run. But thats how I felt about it. I'd be screwed either way. And I'm not to worried about tommorows WI. Especially since I change my lifestyle and got back to my workout routine. But I definatly will expect to see a big numer next week if I dont get a big one this week. My body is aching all over. Anyways, thats my update on me. I'm chaning and evolving and really learning how much I can push myself and what works for me. And most importantly how to be healthy. Anyways, DD just woke up but I did want to post my April goals real quick. And I will actually keep up with them this time.

1.) wear peometer. walk at least 10,000 steps a day.

2.) Continue 52K Training. I want to live for running.!

3.) Got to YMCA for an hour every M,W,F.

4.) Workout at home every Tue, Thur, Sat, Sun. Sat and Sun will be very low impact but I do want to do some.

5.)Workout for 2 hours everyday. Except Sat and Sun. Or the two days that I decide to rest.

6.) Try to do pilates every morning but especially Tue,Thur,Sat, Sun

7.) Drink at least 4 oz every day.

8.) Try to say good-bye to cafeeine

10.) Count calories and keep them under control.

So I know most of these could probably condensed but I think to start out it would be best if I just laid it all out on the table exactly what I want that way I wont make excuses with myself later. Anyways, I really have to go now but I will be back later tonight to catch up with everyone. Take care everyone.

Another good tip to last post.

I just  found a little more info on burning calories. They say whatever your daily allowance on calories is you should add 200-300 calories for the day for each 60 additional minutes each time.. For example. They say my allowance should be between 1389-1545 a day. If I do my normal 60 minutes and then get three additional hours in I would need to add another 200-300 calories for each of the extra three hours I did. Hopes this helps a little more.So your activity points if your on ww are really important because you need to make sure your metabolism is still  being feed what it needs to continue to work for you. Take care.

This might be really helpful.

Hey everyone. So I finally put my nosieness to rest and signed up for the biggest loser club online. I'm not too impressed but there are some really helpful things on there. One is where the explantation of calories in/calories out. It goes a lot like this:

our bodies burn calories in three ways.

1.)Our boday has a RMR (resting metabolism) which naturally burns calories to stay alive. it said that on average we burn 1200-2000 calories a day.

2.) daily activity is the second one. It is said that for most people we burn 300-600 calories daily alone just doing our normal routine. Walking around the office, housework, etc.

3.) Of course is exercise.

It goes on to say that you cant eat fewer calories than your allowed to because it can slow down your metabolism dramatically. you also cant exercise too much without adding calories.Then they list an example:

RMR:1300

Daily Activity: 300-600

Exercise:200-400

Total Calories burned 1800-2300

Which means if she had a low day and consumed 1300 calories and burned 1800 she would have a defiect of 500. which would lead to a one pound weight loss a week since 500 every day for seven days would equal 3500 calories which equals one pound.

Hope this was some help to someone. I never realized just how much we burn so I found it pretty useful. No personal blog tonight. This took a while to type  and I'm pretty exhausted. I'll be back on tommorow though.