So I finally weighed in today. I was meant to do it yesterday but the photo shoot was really early. And I'm to scared to check the scale any time after I start eating. But anyhoo, it was a 4lb gain from when I left the nutrition bootcamp. So I got really close to my five pound cut off. I'm ok with 4lbs.. I'm not thrilled but I'm ok. So that means I'm back on Weigh Watchers and ready to get back at it to complete the rest of this journey. I think I'm probably going to copy Gwynn's idea of putting the daily weight on my posts. I think it will keep me grounded. Let me know if I'm stepping on any toes.Extrapounds finally started going faster which is good. But from some of the complaints I've read it sounds like they still have more work ahead of them. It's Saturday which means TBL comes on in 3 more days whooo hoo. Yes.. I'm pathetic enough to countdown. I like the seasons t.v. schedule all my favorite shows are spread out this year so it's not such a hassle trying to figure out what I'm going to record because DH has his programs too.But anyways.. that's it for now. Off to do wii fit.
So I was a little dissapointed in TBL last night. I mean I liked how they show'd the people's "real age" and what their lungs look like with extra fat on them. But I really liked the green team.... They just looked like one of those couples where you'd just love to have their romance and caring ways about them. I like the brown team ( I think) too but I'm sure time will change my mind once we get to know them a little better. And their losses were outstanding. That's the only thing I dont like about the show. Is they make a 9lb loss look horrible compared to a 19lb loss. Not on purpose ..I know.. but still. I'd like to have a 9lb loss. Other than that.. been really busy still havent got caught up but I am GETTING there. Which is closer than I've ever been. I also havent faced the scale yet. I plan on doing that on Friday. We take family pictures and Anna Beth's 2 year pictures also on Friday. I'm uber excited! As far as EP.. I like the changes. Yes.. it's extreemly sloooww but considering they changed this overnight I'm sure they still have a lot of kinks to work out. I actually find it easier. It does need to get a little quicker though. But I have faith. That's it.. for now. I'm going to bed these past days I've been so exhausted. I cant wait to get caught up with you girls real soon though. Until then keep at it and we'll get there.
Biggest loser is on tonight. And to be quite frank this is what I've been looking forward to since.. well since it ended. Is it sad that I love that show so much? And then I start thinking... what's going to happen when they no longer run the show... or gasp, switch trainers. I'm excited to see the host (having a brain fart) through the proccess of her pregnancy on the show too. I love babies. As far as me, I'll be back on later. Need to run some errands. But just wanted to say I'm not starting the same pattern again. I've been busy deleting all my old messages from my myspace page. I have a bad habbit with reading them and then never replying or deleting them. I figure a good head start to this process is by de-cluttering my life. But like I said I'll be back on later. Hope ya'll have a good day.
So I've taken a few days to think about how I want to approach everything. And thanks to Tatumsmom because she had a lot to do with it. I dont do good with deadlines and times. While I still need to be better with times for organization reasons(not being at places, because I'm always 10 minutes early.. I blame that on my navy dad). I need a plan... I get so stressed because I never had plan. So I still need to work on that. But as far as weight... day by day. I set my tracker for August 13..I think? which means I would have to lose less than a lb a week to get to my goal.Although I dont like thinking about my weight taking that long to come off. It will ease my mind of stressing about it taking it all of so soon. I was also thinking about how I stayed so skinny in highschool. Now a lot of it had to do with sports but the other part is because I was always doing something. Not sitting at home all day.Sooooo.. event though I will be using more gas I think I'm going to start taking Anna Beth to the park and doing stuff with her more often. I'm going to start coming on here religiously because you girls keep me grounded and encourage me. And most importantly I'm going to work on changing my negative thinking into positive. So thats that. Thats where I'm at so expect to see my mouth running on and on again.
Been kind of furstrated latley. The nutrition bootcamp is over. I lost 17lbs in 8 weeks. Now I know some of you might think I should just keep with that diet and start over but I am sooooo sick of eating protein. I've eaten the same food for eight weeks and the thought of the same food again makes me naseous. I actually started eating a lot less the last two weeks because it made me so naseous. So back to the Wendi's plan. I'm not going to make my goal of 67lbs by November 17th. It was a stretch to begin with but still a little dissapointed. But that's not really what I'm having a hard time with. I have a really hard time with expressing my feelings. I'm pretty much a cry baby. It's a lot easier for me to cry when I'm frusterated, sad, or angry rather than to try to explain how I'm feeling. I feel guilty for being frustrated with my daughter all the time when most mom would love to spend all day. I keep thinking whats wrong with me? Or getting organized and making a schedule. Why is that such a complicated thing for me to do? Or most importantly, the thing that absolutley takes all my train of thought. Why I let everyone else get what they want and I guilt myself into paying a bill off instead of getting something I really want. The spa day thing was the first time I've done anything for myself and I'm still punishing myself for paying money on that instead of paying some of my bills off. I dont know how to get out of these thoughts. They constantly plague me and I want them to just go away. I better go for now. Making another round of my "organized" schedule tommorow morning which consists of me waking up extra early. Oh so 4ish. But if I ever get my schedule on point maybe I can finally start being a better friend on here and making time for ya'll.
this week didnt really work out exactly like I planned. I did get my hair day and spa day. But as far as catching up with ya'll.. not at all. But.. it's not my fault. I PROMISE. Since Fay decided to share my vacation. We had a lot of flooding and my power would come on and off again but would stay on for only an hour or so before coming back on. So I was actually rather upset. I had a whole bunch of days planned on what I was going to do. But I guess as far as extrapounds goes I just have to do as much I can to catch up slowly. hope everyone is ok.
Sorry it's been so long. I have a little over two weeks left and I'm starting to struggle staying on track. I think because TOM is here and also because I'm going out for my birthday dinner this Sunday. Which means Mexican and ice cream cake. It will all be allowed on my diet but if I havent had anything like that because of being scared of straying but I think I've earned it. As far as weight... I think I've hit another plateu because I just keep going back and forth between 189 and 188. But again TOM might have a reason in that as well. But still all together I've lost 24lbs roughly and and 14.5 inches. So I'm finally kicking butt at this weight loss thing. It only took me since the first of the year but hey. I can't look back now. So next week is the week that my mom takes Anna Beth for a week. ( does a little woot woot.) I know I'm going to be miserable probably by thursday.... but tuesday I get my hair done and wensday I go to a day spa..... ahhh...... And plus I can finally catch up with you girls and let you know that I'm still here to listen and support ya'll. So my apologies for not being around but I have high hopes on getting my life back on track this coming up week so bare with me. HOpe all of ya'll are ok.
So obviously... I didnt lose four pounds by saturday. I did, however get to check my weight on my mom's scale saturday and its right on track with mine. So at least I know what I'm working with. Did well during the baby shower had two deviled eggs because it was my snack time when the baby shower went on and then afterwards went to olive garden. Which was also really hard for me but I had two portioned salads and a side grilled chicken and I was greatly rewarded the next day. I had lost my personal goal of twenty pounds. So that means two more to go before my mom's goal and my week off! Yay! And I've already lost one of them on monday. my official weigh in is tommorow.We'll see if that last pound doesnt sneak back up on me. But that's it just day by day I keep telling myself. Because if I think about how long this is going to take me to defeat I'll cry and probably quit. I'm almost in the 180s though. Something I've only had a brief glimpse of since before I became pregnant.It doesnt seem like I'll get there before my deadline but I think right now I"m just happy to see that my weight is dropping. Well I g2g, just had a quick break with the baby. I'll be back on tonight to start catching up and update my pictures. Take care everyone.
So this diet is going day by day. I'm rather frusterated. But with this diet I'm following a planed eating schedule so I know I'm not doing anything wrong. Today's the start of the fourth week; week three ended with a two pound loss today. As crazy as it sounds I still feel like I should be losing more. I guess I say that because the week will start off with my loseing like... oh say three lbs. and then the rest of the week I maintain and then the very last day I gain to make it to only two. It makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong. Saturday is a baby shower My cousins to be exact so my mom will be there which will help a lot. I'm four pounds away from get that week off from DD and I've stepped up all my exercises this week to try to drop these last four lbs. LOL.. I know I'm insane. But baby shower wise.... well lets see, I'm sure there will be cake.... I'm not normally a cake person or sweets but ever since I've been on this I've longes for some ice cream and cake. Also, there will be pasta salad. My mom's pasta salad.... and I cant have any of that as well. So if you cant tell I'm really not looking forward to my plans this Saturday. I just remind myself that I'm halfway there though. Then back to weight watchers. DH grandmother said another mean thing that upset me. Haha.. what's new. DH was bragging about how good I was doing and about the deal with my mom when I lose 20lbs and how I was so close. (Btw.. this is all taking place on a webcam ) So she laughs and says," Yeah, bud did Susan(my mom) weigh her to see for herself how much she weighs that way Amanda doesnt lie." WTH? First off, I dont lie to my mom. Second, I dont know what posses her to even think that. I told my mom what happened and lol.. she was like you need to lose thirty lbs before you go down there in September. LOL.. I love my mom. She's not a big fan of them either. Kind of because of stuff like that and because they really treat Michael like crap. He's alway the F-up. And no matter how much you try to show them that he takes care of three people or how smart he is they just always treat him like a reject and its just really horrible. But that's it. That's why I"ve been MIA. I've been working my butt off. To lose a whopping four lbs in a week.lol.. I know that goal is so unreal but its fun to try anyways. Take care ladies and I'll be back this weekend to catch up.
Sorry I didnt write before now. I've come down with something and on top of that without being to graphic I've been some what backed up. I've also been frusterated because the scale hasnt moved at all the past three days. I know that sounds silly but I actually ended up loseing only a lb and a half. And I know the weight losing was suppose to slow down but still... I was on a role.Anyways, I finally decided to give in and take a lacative(sp?). I try to stay away from stuff like that because I feel like its cheating. But after three days... lets just say it wasnt helping me feel better. I was hoping I'd be down to 190 by the end of july which seemed possible at the time but now it looks like I may have to wait a little bit longer. I'm ok with it though. I knew the weight loss would slow down but I was hoping it would be later rather than sooner. But I'm still going to work my butt off and not let it get me down. And hopefully I'll be back up in spirits once I kick this bug to the side. Unfortunaltley its almost my bed time so I cant write each of ya'll right now but I promise I'll be back on tommorow to do so. Take care everyone.
. They just looked like one of those couples where you'd just love to have their romance and caring ways about them. I like the brown team ( I think) too but I'm sure time will change my mind once we get to know them a little better. And their losses were outstanding. That's the only thing I dont like about the show. Is they make a 9lb loss look horrible compared to a 19lb loss. Not on purpose ..I know.. but still. I'd like to have a 9lb loss. Other than that.. been really busy still havent got caught up but I am GETTING there. Which is closer than I've ever been. I also havent faced the scale yet. I plan on doing that on Friday. We take family pictures and Anna Beth's 2 year pictures also on Friday. I'm uber excited! As far as EP.. I like the changes. Yes.. it's extreemly sloooww but considering they changed this overnight I'm sure they still have a lot of kinks to work out. I actually find it easier. It does need to get a little quicker though. But I have faith. That's it.. for now. I'm going to bed these past days I've been so exhausted. I cant wait to get caught up with you girls real soon though. Until then keep at it and we'll get there.
). I need a plan... I get so stressed because I never had plan. So I still need to work on that. But as far as weight... day by day. I set my tracker for August 13..I think? which means I would have to lose less than a lb a week to get to my goal.Although I dont like thinking about my weight taking that long to come off. It will ease my mind of stressing about it taking it all of so soon. I was also thinking about how I stayed so skinny in highschool. Now a lot of it had to do with sports but the other part is because I was always doing something. Not sitting at home all day.Sooooo.. event though I will be using more gas I think I'm going to start taking Anna Beth to the park and doing stuff with her more often. I'm going to start coming on here religiously because you girls keep me grounded and encourage me. And most importantly I'm going to work on changing my negative thinking into positive. So thats that. Thats where I'm at so expect to see my mouth running on and on again.
and I cant have any of that as well. So if you cant tell I'm really not looking forward to my plans this Saturday. I just remind myself that I'm halfway there though. Then back to weight watchers. DH grandmother said another mean thing that upset me. Haha.. what's new. DH was bragging about how good I was doing and about the deal with my mom when I lose 20lbs and how I was so close. (Btw.. this is all taking place on a webcam ) So she laughs and says," Yeah, bud did Susan(my mom) weigh her to see for herself how much she weighs that way Amanda doesnt lie." WTH? First off, I dont lie to my mom. Second, I dont know what posses her to even think that. I told my mom what happened and lol.. she was like you need to lose thirty lbs before you go down there in September. LOL.. I love my mom. She's not a big fan of them either. Kind of because of stuff like that and because they really treat Michael like crap. He's alway the F-up. And no matter how much you try to show them that he takes care of three people or how smart he is they just always treat him like a reject and its just really horrible. But that's it. That's why I"ve been MIA. I've been working my butt off. To lose a whopping four lbs in a week.lol.. I know that goal is so unreal but its fun to try anyways. Take care ladies and I'll be back this weekend to catch up.