Didnt give up

Hi, everyone. Sorry I've been missing. I just wanted to tell everyone that its not because I gave up. It's because my DD is sick. Not super sick just whiny and needs all of my attention sick. But I'll try to get back on later tonight and catch up with all of you. Thank you so much to all of you for your support.

this didnt end the way I thought it would. good song.

Come on....

Ok, so that's basically how I've felt the past two or three days.TOM should be here soon and I am just so hungry. And I have been giving in. Still not as bad as I use to but I have been going over my points.  I usually gain about 3 to 4lbs right before I start and then with my eating I was up 6 lbs this morning. Yes, I typed that correctly. I have a major headace, I'm soooo tired, and I'm sooo hungry. I have been going to the Y but I keep waking up late to go to the classes that I am so excited about. Even kickboxing and I looooooooove kickboxing. IT's like a high for me. I end up getting on the machines though for about 45 minutes. I wonder why it seems harder for me in the gym but when I go outside it's easier. Probably because there are no hills in Florida.ha. After two day's my calves are on FIRE. So I've set up a chart on the frideg and I'm going to write down my weight on it every day so the whole world, or at least my husband, will know how I'm doing. And believe me that's good enough because he will sit down and lecture me like a parent when I get off track. It's his way of trying to help so I dont get on him but  it kinda hurts even though it does help.Oh and the Y, I like it the only thing I dont like is that the times I go it mainly seniors. And they are SO FIT for being in their 70s and  80s.  I mean here I am walking and everyone around me is RUNNING. I mean go them but I had to keep telling my self "at least I dont have wrinkles". Because thats the only think this 22 year old had on them.So needles to say I've been very stressed about everything thats going on with me. The only thing I can do is try to eat right and just keep trying. I usually give up at this point but I dont want to. I honestly cant be this way anymore. It brings me to tears to think of me looking like this anymore. So I just keep trying. Today has been ok so far. Just lacking a lot of energy but I need to get things done so I must get off of here. Take care everyone.

new pictures of hair and a small difference in the face

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Can I get a do over?

Ok. So I've changed wi in days and methods and all types of things that I am now offically confused and I've been naughty and havent written in my journal either. So the only thing I know what to do is to just start all over. Although, I dont feel that bad about it because I've lost 14 lbs! But I started to think yesterday about where I would be now if I would have been up to date on everything. I mean the possibilities that could be there. Sooooo... since I'm starting the Wendie Plan tommorow. I'm kind of going to start fresh with everything else.Sort of like a do over. Tommorow will be my first trip to the Y as well. I'm excited but I'm also VERY NERVOUS. Those people look so good compared to me. It makes me feel like I'll be the center of attention and not in a good way. Plus I've always been really shy. So being in new situations itself is also nerve racking. Yesterday I went and bought some not so revealing athletic pants. Haha.. that makes me sound like I'm showing skin. More like Cellulite! Most of the pants I have as far as work out are spandex and spandex is just not that nice on my legs. And today I went and got my hair cut. It got wayyyy too long. As my hair stylist said today and the rest before her, " you have hair for three people!". And when it gets long I have the worst headaces. I mean it would be considered a migrain but  a level 10 migraine. Plus, I've notice when it also gets long I get sluggish and lazy. So a fresh new start tommorow. I feel motivated and ready to put all my effort into this. Just wanted to let you know the updates. Hope everyone is ok. Take care.

I did it!

Ok, so I just couldnt take it anymore. I had to weigh myself. I was feeling good about it. I could feel it. I know, I'm ridiculous!(sp?) But guess what! I'M IN ONDERLAND! I lost 2 lbs! I made it through a whole weekend when I couldnt help what was in the kitchen for me to eat and where I couldnt decided where we went to eat and still lost 2lbs.I'm so excited. I'll weigh in tommorow just to make sure. But it's definatley a good start to a new week! Take care everyone and dont give in.

This Might Help...

for WW people anyways. Ok, so I've been looking ever since I got serious about loseing weight again. Some of you may have heard of it. It's called the Wendie Plan. You see I have a hard time trying to figure out how to spend my extra 35lbs so this helps me orgainize it. It has lower day and upper days. And it's JUST an add on to weight watchers and has been around for a while now. Actually this is what I believe made weight watchers add the 35 pts. Because your body needs to fluctuate from high days to low days. I'll give you mine. Since I'm so close to 199 I do 24 pts. This is what it looks like for my week:

Day 1:-24 pts.

Day 2-29 pts

Day 3- 25 pts

Day 4- 39 pts. Super High Day (SHD)

Day 5- 24 pts

Day 6- 28 pts

Day 7- 26 pts

You can make your SHD fit whatever day you usually go out to eat or eat more than usual. For me it's Saturday. But obivisouly you might need to change your weigh in day because you probably will gain a lb or not lose any the next day after your SHD. So now that I have my hands on my pts for the week I think I'll have to change my weigh in day AGAIN to Wensday.  I have the other point variations too so if you'd be intrested in knowing what your pts would be I'd be more than willing to send them to you. I really like it.

But as for me. I'm back from GA.and highly upset about it. I'm just not a FL girl what can I say. haha. But I had a great time. We all had a great time. I was suprised when I logged on here before myspace. I'm addicted to myspace but I think its been put in second place now. What can I say I love you guys. I was really good this weekend and I am expecting a weight loss. Even though I'm changing my WI to Wensday. I do plan to weigh in on Tuesday for now.  It's driving me crazy not weighing in. I just want to tell you guys again just how great all of you are. I'm glad we are all here and committed. Take care and keep staying strong.

Off to GA tommorow.

Hey all, just wanted to write and tell you that I will be MIA for a little while. We are going up to GA for the weekend and leave tommorow. I AM SOOOOO EXCITED. COLD WEATHER,FRESH AIR here I come. I know this is going to sound weird but  not being a Florida native it always smell so gross. As soon as we leave the state its like a fresh pine scent. I feel so at home not matter if it is NC or not. Can you tell I dont live in FL by choice.haha. Im uber excited. Other than that. Things are going great. Been doing everything right again so hopefully that shows on the scale on Tuesday.  I went to the YMCA yesterday and I think thats where I decided to go. It would be great for Anna Beth to have children to finally play with and they have all types of classes we can take together. And I have classes that I know that I will really enjoy. So I think thats a pretty permanent decision. Well, sorry I dont have more to say been kind of lost for words latley.  I hope everyone is having a wonderful valentines day and take care.

Blah Blah Blah

Week 2- Day 1 So my title is right about how I feel today. Nothing really important but a very succesful day. I'm back! Everything has calmed down and  I feel like my old self. I'm kind of wanting to know what I weigh but I know for sure I'm keeping my butt of that scale until next tuesday. today I had 2 bologna and cheese sandwiches(all reduced in calories and fat of course), i had a lean cuisine salisbury steak and mac n cheese frozen entree, and WW modified shepard's pie. Not my favorite but my hubby's. Plus I have to fool him when I cook something because if he even slightly thinks its reduced in any way he will not eat it. Because ground turkey is NASTY. That's why he eats it almost every other day.haha. I dont feel bad either. Didnt do as much as I wanted to today. But during TBL I managed to get 200 sit ups in and some of my red chair for a total of 30 minutes. And after I'm done her I plan to do a Slim in 6 workout.  I have to credit Slim in 6 for all the sit ups I'm  able to do now. The lady is like a sit up and squat junkie! So far the squats havent gotten easier.   Still looking for a gym. It's hard to find one that offers child care too. The nice ones like Bally arent around here. I want it to be pretty close because if it's not then I wont go regularly. And if I'm going to do this I want to get my money's worth. But other than that just working hard. My goal for this week is to get down to at least 195 by next tuesday. Kinda steep but I need to kick my butt this week to make up for not weighing in today. So goodluck ladies and goodnight.

getting back on track

Ok, so I've made the decision not to weight tommorow. I think it would only hurt me more than help. I did get back into my normal routine though. And my hubby does have a sweet side. who would've thought? With all the stress these past couple of days I never saw it coming. Early Saturday morning there was a knock at our door. So I went to the door and it was tullips(sp?). My fave.  At first I was confused.. like ummm.. wrong person. But nope. They asked for Amanda and made me sign the dotted line and everything. It was really nice. thank you soo much for those of you that have supported me these past few days as well. It really means a lot.  And I will personaly thank each one of you as soon as I get a free moment. So probably tommorow.Everything is so far so good but I cant help but still stay on guard. I've been thinking about joining a gym. It's pricey but an hour or two without having to worry about the house or DD sounds so nice. It scares her when I do my workout videos. Plus she'll be in child care at the gym so she might get to play with other children every now and then. I've been thinking about the mini goal awards that people give themselves and figure it couldnt hurt. I have the problem of never getting anything for myself anyways so maybe this is the perfect excuse. Although the gym would be a great present in itself. So here they are:

10lbs. go on a mini shopping spree

20lbs go on a mini shopping spree

30lbs get hair done

40lbs. go on a mini shopping spree

50lbs. get a pedicure.. ahhh

60lbs trim hair again for the big reward

and what is the big reward you might ask. Well I've always thought that 50s pinup girl are so gorgeous.So if I can get back to where I was I have a couple of dresses that style and I will go get my hair done 50s style and take  proffessional after pictures. Might sound corny but I am so excited about it.

So one step at a time one day at a time. You have my word gals that i'm back on track and wi will definatley be next week. Expect a loss too. Until then everyone have a great night and thank you sooo much again.!