It's hard sometimes.
Been kind of furstrated latley. The nutrition bootcamp is over. I lost 17lbs in 8 weeks. Now I know some of you might think I should just keep with that diet and start over but I am sooooo sick of eating protein. I've eaten the same food for eight weeks and the thought of the same food again makes me naseous. I actually started eating a lot less the last two weeks because it made me so naseous. So back to the Wendi's plan. I'm not going to make my goal of 67lbs by November 17th. It was a stretch to begin with but still a little dissapointed. But that's not really what I'm having a hard time with. I have a really hard time with expressing my feelings. I'm pretty much a cry baby. It's a lot easier for me to cry when I'm frusterated, sad, or angry rather than to try to explain how I'm feeling. I feel guilty for being frustrated with my daughter all the time when most mom would love to spend all day. I keep thinking whats wrong with me? Or getting organized and making a schedule. Why is that such a complicated thing for me to do? Or most importantly, the thing that absolutley takes all my train of thought. Why I let everyone else get what they want and I guilt myself into paying a bill off instead of getting something I really want. The spa day thing was the first time I've done anything for myself and I'm still punishing myself for paying money on that instead of paying some of my bills off. I dont know how to get out of these thoughts. They constantly plague me and I want them to just go away. I better go for now. Making another round of my "organized" schedule tommorow morning which consists of me waking up extra early. Oh so 4ish. But if I ever get my schedule on point maybe I can finally start being a better friend on here and making time for ya'll.