A little depressed
I don't know what is wrong with me. I know that I have so much to be thankful for, BUT I am feeling really unhappy lately. I'm going to vent for a moment....
My bf is still giving me the silent treatment and honestly it pisses me off! I ask him if everything is ok and he responds like a woman would...lol "nothing is wrong", when I know damn well something is wrong. We have been together for about 4 and a half years. We broke up 2 years ago for almost a year. I live with him, which I know was a bad idea now. The old saying goes "why buy the milk when you already have the cow" I feel stupid because I always tell my friends that if he doesn't pop the question and committ by a certain time, then I'm leaving. But I never do. It is easier said than done! Lately everything he does pisss me off though.We hardly talk. If I try and tell him somerthing, he either doesn't respond or just nods. For example, I told him the other day when we were in the car going somewhere that a girl I work with that he has met before just had her baby. Told him the babies name and everything, he didn't really say anything. i was just trying to make conversation.I know it sounds silly to complain about that, but that was just an example of what he does all the time. Also, he is the kind of person that doesn't think before he speaks. The other day I was just talking to him and telling him something and he said, "so what's your point?" I told him that wasn't very nice. He said "what?" He didn't even realize he said it. OR realized it pissed me off and pretended to not realize. We are very different. He is from Chicago, he is very loud and so is his family. And straight forward. I am southern, grew up in AR until '89 and then moved to Florida. No offense to anyone from up north, but there is quite a difference. I know I'm rambling, but I am just really upset by some of the things that comes out of his mouth lately, directed towads me and others.
On the other hand, he has a very kind heart at times and means well most of the time, just has a hard time showing it sometimes. There are a lot of positive things about him, but obviously TODAY I'm focused on the bad.
As far as my diets going,not much change. The phentermine does help with the food cravings, mostly in the evening when I need help the most. Yesterday I didn't do so well though. We went on a field trip to Medieval Times in Orlando. They give you lots of food. I ate it even though I wasn't really hungry.Then last night I took my mom out to dinner to Stonewood for Mother's Day. They have the best steaks! I wasn't hungry but I felt like I had to eat because I had taken her out. I didn't eat much though. If I can just get through the social things I'll be ok. Like today, I ate a healthy breakfast but I'm not hungry at all now and I won't eat much the rest of the day because I'm at home and not in a social setting.
Believe it or not, I feel better after venting :-)
Hope everyone has agood weekend!