So I weighed myself this morning. I looked at the number, threw up my hands and actually thought "Why Bother?" After eating precisely on plan, not eating after supper except for my green tea, drinking TONS of water, and exercising at least an hour and a half 5 days in a row, AND going to the bathroom TWICE EACH DAY, all I lost was a puny 0.6 lbs. I know, I know, it's still a loss - blah, blah, blah. TOM was last week, so I can't blame it on him. I was SURE I would be well into the 160s this morning.
Breathing...
Venting...
Calming down...
Sigh... So I almost didn't work out 3 times this morning because I just couldn't get that damn number out of my head. Thank God I was already dressed in my gym clothes, because my first thought was to hop right back into bed. I had already prepared my living room for my T-Tapp DVD, so I bit the bullet and started that. 15 minutes into the exercises, I almost turned it off. Just the thought of having to tell you that I quit forced me to trudge onward. As I completed the video, I debated over whether or not I would walk outdoors afterwards. It was raining, so the decision was pretty simple until.... it stopped right as I was finishing my workout. It would have been so easy to just hop in the shower and call it a day, but my little guardian angel was whispering to me - GET OUT THERE!!! Okay, okay, so I went. At first I figured 30 minutes would be plenty, but ended up walking for 50 minutes. Yay me!
I must say, I thoroughly enjoyed my walk. I keep having to remind myself that it's not about the number on the scale, but about how I FEEL about myself. I am strong, I am healthy, I am in control.
I'm going for a facial at 9:30 am. I can't say I'm looking forward to it, because I detest having my blackheads removed - pure torture!
My mother left for Toronto this morning - she's attending my cousin's wedding in Niagara Falls over the weekend. I would have loved to go, but I can't. Oh, well! Instead I'll be visiting 2 funeral parlors this evening. The first is our employee who died of cancer, the other is a friend whose 17-year-old son died in a car crash this weekend. It's going to be a long day!
Did you watch Grey's last night? That deer storyline was a bit of a stretch, don't you think? Private Practice wasn't bad - I guess I have to get used to the characters.
Gotta go - have a wonderful weekend, everyone!
Angel
Posted By: beaang
Comments to this post:
09/28/2007 09:58
keep going!
I know the why bother feeling! Ahhhh! It's frustrating yes, but, remember, it takes time. TIME!
Posted By:
09/28/2007 10:19
Stupid scale!!
I have a love/hate relationship with my scale! And really it's not our only measure of success.
Keep up all your hard work. Make sure you measure yourself to track inches lost!
And way to go on going through with all your exercise today. it's hard sometimes not to quit, but you did terrific, and I'm proud for you.
You're definitely an inspiration, if I haven't said that already.
Posted By:
09/28/2007 13:07
Deer Story
They did kind of stretch it with that. There are all kinds of legal issues there, first of all, and since I work in a federal recreation area, I've unfortunately heard more of my share of stories of deer being euthanized on scene (if they are severely wounded). You can kill a deer (from internal injuries) going just a few miles an hour. I'm watching Grey's and this deer caused an accident so severe that several people were critically injured but the deer managed to be okay? Come ON.
I don't care for the woman playing Meredith's sister and I'm BEYOND tired of the McDreamy/Meredith we're broken up, we're not, we are, we're not, we are and then have make up sex, we're not together, we are ..... Zzzzz - Does anyone CARE anymore?
Two things I was glad to see:
They've toned down Torres' crazy eyebrows and eye makeup (so it doesn't look like she's glaring all the time.
George and Izzy possibly getting together. Now THAT's a story line!
I got all caught up in the Grey's talk going on here and almost forgot what I was gonna say! I didn't weigh in this morning, but my first thought was that I just want to give up all together. I'm not losing at all. I'm so stuck. So, I'm with you on throwing your hands up in the air!
Now, Grey's. I love that show! I thought the deer story was cute, if not unrealistic. And I was also noticing how thin everyones eyebrows are! Now I am not feeling so bad about mine thinning with age! I like Private Practice, too. I've been a huge fan of Timothy Daly since Wings. He is my idea of hot!!
I'm jealous that you are getting a facial today! I love facials!
Have a wonderful day and a great weekend, Angel! Thanks for always being such a supportive friend. I really appreciate it. Shelley
for just doing it!! I know how the scale can make you feel defeated though, especially when you're trying to get into a new decade. You're a winner though!
Sorry to hear about the funeral home visits. I'll be thinking about you!
I don't know why it is that when we're on point the most, the scale moves the least. It can be very discouraging at times. I glad you stuck with exercising, though!
I know it's frustrating to have slow loss - but keep up the great efforts!! Everything is playing in your favor here. Hugs!! Oh and all those same recordings go through my head when I am getting ready to or am working out. Just a half a workout at Curves, no one will notice.... just a half a mile walk.... gahhhhh
I weighed 166.3 last week, and I admit that if it says I have lost .3 pounds this week I will be disappointed. Darn it. That number is so hard to deal with!!! You have your mom for inspiration, though. She's been really successful just by walking right? I think that you're doing great though. Especially since you were disappointed but kept on going. Good work Emily
Posted By:
10/01/2007 08:53
It's easy...
...to let the number on the scale discourage you!! All of your hard work will really pay off on next week's weight in. Have faith!!
