Back to work!!

ack, back to work today! dull. i could have rightly stayed off til my holidays haha. Getting used to having a lie in. Still i am super busy and have lots to do before i go away.

Diet still on track,  Woke up late so never got to have my planned breakfast, but at least i had some smoothie left ovr from yesterday so was bale to have that and some fruit. Tonight, i go to bellydancing!!!! i've always wanted to try it and my gym has just started classes so that should be fun. I wonder do we get to wear those tacky coin belts that jangle like crazy. I hope so :D

Didnt WI yesterday. Felt like crap last night so just went to bed. So will WI today instead. Fingers crossed!

Have a good day

Love

Angell

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its that time again!

where do all these bloody mondays keep coming from??? when is someone gonna make a law to banish them to underworld forever!

Still not well, better, ut not quite so i took today off yay! my parents left yesterday to go back to Spain thank god. Love them dearly but cant live with them. So i can maybe get round to de-cluttering my home. Maybe. that's a big maybe. Booked my holiday (again i hear you cry?) hehe yup 2 weeks in spain this time to see the parents and hang ot on the boat. And i'm meeting my RP group. I'm quite geeky really and obsessed with Lord of the Rings. I play online with a group of people and i'm gonna meet some of them in Spain!! im soo excited. we have played together for just over a year so it will be good to meet them. So added incentive to shift some flab. I wanna lose half a stone by the time i go on 10th july, so 7lbs in 10days. thats gonna be tough. I went and done a food shop today, and almost collapsed in the store. but at least i wasnt hungry and therefore managed to stock up on healthy food. And i planned my meals and exercise for the entire week. This not being at work stuff is quite proactive as i finally have time to do the things i need to do. OfficialWI later, dont think i will have lost anything as i havent been trying but we shall see. As long as i dont have a gain i will be happy.

Menu today

B - berry banana smoothie, weetabix and skimmed milk

L - Nuthin as had breakfast at 12pm (eep i slept late)

D - tossed salad followed by baked chicken, baked potato, beans and onions

E - 30 mins of WI-fit if i feel up to it and 30mins dog walk

Hope you all had a good day

Angell

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bleh!

That's how i feel today. Bleh!

I'm loaded with the cold (sore head, bunged up, chesty cough), i am constantly tired to the point where i cannot get out of bed in the morning, i havent stuck my eating healthy plan, the weather is miserable, my house looks like a bomb hit it, my car broke down and there is a full demolition crew next door making as much noise as they possibly can!

I think part of the reason i am unwell is because i have been eating crap. No vegetables, no fruits, loads of fried greasy foods etc. And the other reason is because i am quite simply run down. Work is a nightmare. Nothing i ever do is good enough for my boss, he changes his mind about a zillion times a day about what he wants and nothing ever gets resolved! so yeah am completly stressed out. And i dont do stress! usually.  My PCOS is playing up something shocking and my trich has come back with a vengance which is a sure sign i am not coping with life too well at the minute. Today i just wanna curl up in a blanket with my dog and watch (horror of all horrors) trashy morning telly. jeremy kyle anyone?

The only good news is that silly season is almost upon us (12th July for all you non norn irish folkses). Which means i get 2 weeks off work. wohoo!!!!  Of course, i could use that time to sort out our new house and decorate, de-clutter etc. but nah, i'm gonna spend it havin fun. We are plannin to go see the OH's relatives in southern ireland for a week then i'm heading off to spain again for a week to see my folks and recharge my batteries. I cant wait!

SO, i'm gonna take the rest of this week off, laze about the house and try and shake this damn cold and de-stress. i'm gonna sit down and ruthlessly plan my meals, snacks, exercise days, weight loss etc so i can start from a clean slate in a clean state of mind this weekend. And i'm gonna screw the smile on my face so tight i'll look like the joker

Take care

Angell

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crap crap crap and double crap

no folks i havent been watching re-runs of batman! i weighed myself last night. And every pound i have lost since i joined EP i have put back on. EVery last one of them. BASTIDS!!!!!! i effing knew it.

Tis my own fault, i was so annoyed i came home and literally ripped my cupboards apart. I chucked out everything (except the dog food). So today i go shopping. I've the OH well warned if he even so much as lets me sniff anything calorific, unhealthy, sweet, fattening etc i'm gonna castrate him with a butter knife. That oughta do it. Til he made cheese on toast and offered me some. I threw it at him. Why cant he understand how hard this is. He stops drinking coke and eating chocolate and drops half a stone in a few days. I slog my guts out, exercise regularly, eat healthy and drop a pound in a week. I hate men!!!!!!!!!

Went swimming last night, swam a 1/4mile. In 12 weeks i'll be able to swim a mile non stop according to my book. I havent been able to do that since i was a kid. OH and me are talkin bout going on the holiday of a lifetime next year , if we are still together, and are looking at either Dominican Republic or the Maldives. Either way i wanna get my PADI instructors license whilst i'm there and i am NOT gonna be a whale in a wetsuit!!! And i wanna start kite surfing so i need to lose weight dammit! i just want to lose it overnight

Have a good day

Angell

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Monday again!

have i mentioned before i hate mondays??? i can never drag my ass out of bed on a monday morning and work is always depressing. How are you all? Good weekends i hope? I had a crackin weekend. Friday night we went down to OH's parents house for his mum's birthday and to run them to the airport as they are buggering off to florida for 2 weeks. Saturday, me and my BF went into belfast to our favourite bar, benedicts, and tried our damndest to drink them dry. Didnt quite work but i was feelin good. I wore a tiny pair of shorts and a white tank and got loads of compliments which has given me the boost and kickstart i need to get back on track. One fella , who i havent seen in about a year, told me he couldnt believe the difference in me, both confidence wise (which i have never really had an issue with) and in how i look. So yeah, it's definitly helped get me focused. I've realised that no matter how long it takes (and it has been just over a year to get a stone off) that every little bit helps. And every little bit of weight i lose, no matter how small, its a step closer to my goal. So i am not gonna get disappointed if i only lose a pound a week or even sts as at least i'm not putting it back on.

Speaking of which, i have the dreaded WI later. Havent had one since before i went on holidays and i know i'm gonna have a gain. I just have to not let it affect me. I've got my new exercise program mapped out, swim and run alternate days, starting with a swim today. Cycle or gym every 3rd day. Its hectic and i have only given myself a rest day every 5th day. But they say it only takes you to repeat something 14 times for it to become a habit, so if i can stick to it for 14 weeks then the habit should be ingrained for life. My problem is that i am usually all gung-ho for about a month then the excuses start creeping in for why i cant go. and then bam, its been 3 months since i was last at the gym. Not this time.

I bought 3 books from amazon over the weekend, running made easy (kinda like the c25k program), the fit swimmer - 120 workouts, and wild swimming in britain. With the help of the first 2, i can plan my exercise and exercise goals. Bit worried bout the running thing though, i think i'm too tall and too heavy for running but we shall see. Excited bout the swimming one, and the third one lists loads of places in the UK you can go swimming "in the wild" lakes etc. Which will be good for the summer. if we get a summer (crosses fingers, toes, legs, ears etc).

So , goals for this week

Drink 4L water a day

Eat 3 pieces of fruit, 2 portions of vegetables a day

Make wise and healthy food choices

Stick to my exercise plan

Stop spening money on useless crap (i'm so terrible with money it's not even funny)

Go back to being my usual hilarious and observational self instead of the mopey grump i have been.

Post on EP every day

Enjoy your day, even if it is a monday

Angell

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It's Friday!!!!

Thank god! i love friday. No more work til Monday. A chance to slob about in my PJ's and play with the dog and catch up on Hollyoaks on a sunday morning whilst the OH makes me breakfast in bed. Apart from being in work at 5am (yes, that ungodly hour does exist), its gonna be a good day. I finish work at 1pm, then i'm going shopping with OH's brother. He's gay and great to shop with whereas the OH just gets grumpy unless we do nothing but walk into GAME buy something for his XBOX 360 and return home.

AS for yesterday? I was good mostly, i did have a kentucky for my dinner though as we were both soooo tired we couldnt be assed making anything and KFC is next door to where i work. But i pointed it (yup, i visited the WW site for the first time in ages) and have promised the mutt a nice long walk through the forest on saturday to counteract.

More on my mutt. The suicidal one from yesterday. Lucy (hateful name for a dog i know but its the one she came with) is a labrador-rottweiler cross mongrel type thing. Or a rottrador as i like to call her (there was a whole thing on the news yesterday about designer dogs and their silly names. labradoodle anyone?) She weighs 6 stone, is brown with a black shaggy stripe down her back, the heart and temperament of a lab and the brains, or lack therof, and bone structure of a rotty. And i love her to pieces. Even if she is suicidal. Perhaps she is fed up living with me and my constant efforts to make our household healthy. Yup, she gets lettuce like the rest of us. She's not too fond of pickled onions but she'll eat them!!!! We got her from the pound almost 2 years ago when she was 2 days away from being put down *sob* cause no-one wanted her or could handle her.  They weren't even gonna let me see her cause they had scheduled her injection already. But i threw a strop, full kiddy tantrum, until they relented. They brought her out and she jumped on me, licked me and knocked me onto my ass. A bit like the OH when we first met haha! SO i fell in love instantly (with her not the OH) and she came home with me and has lay on our sofa, watching our telly eating my chocolate, ever since.

But she is suicidal. or just incredibly stupid. Either way, my life revolves around saving her. I took her for a walk last week to a nearby forest where she:-

Jumped into a 12ft deep firepit flooded with water (she doesnt swim)

Tried to chase a cow MUCH bigger than she is

Got stuck in black mud and couldnt get out, and

ran headfirst into a tree (it was huge, how she didnt see it i dont know)

AS i said, she aint the smartest in the block. But at least i get plenty of exercise chasing after/rescuing her.

So onto today. I'm gonna

• Drink 3 litres of water
• Eat a huge breakfast (apparently new research hints that we should consume half our daily calories in breakfast )
• Make wise food choices
• Not argue with the boss
• Eat 3 pieces of fruit ( my fruit intake lately has been rubbish and my skin and hair is suffering
• cook a healthy dinner

If i can keep this up all weekend, then i should be back in the right frame of mind to kickstart my weightloss on Monday as planned

Have a good day

Angell

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Here we go again!

I've completely written off the last two weeks. I've been eating nothing but crap since i came back from my holiday and havent stepped on the scales since. I haven't followed core I havent even logged onto the WW site, and i haven't been excercising the way i should.  So here we go again. From today. I aint gonna weigh myself until my usual WI day of Monday but i am going to:-

Eat healthy and make wise food choices

Start a swimming and running plan

Stop feeling sorry for myself

Wise up and realise that my life sucks because i make it suck. PMA has dropped like a brick, It's time to hoist it back up!

I've had a rough few weeks, me and OH are probably gonna split up. I think. Scary since i've been with him 7 years, but I cant imagine being with him the rest of my life. but then when i think i'm gonna end it, he does something incredibly sweet that makes me think i dont want to lose him. Pft bloody men! My parents are home from spain and living with us, and doing my head in. AS much as i love them, i love them even more when there is an ocean between us. My job sucks. Well actually, no my job is great. My boss however, is an idiot. And i cant do my job because of him so therefore am on the lookout for a new one. We just moved house which needs a ton of decorating and OH (painter and decorater by trade) doesnt have the time to decorate.And he wont let me cause i dont paint right!! (how hard it is to drag a brush about a wall??) My dog is on suicide watch. The last two nights i have taken her out, she has jumped off a waterfall (which involved me climbing a 6ft fence, climbing down a river bank and carrying her back up. She weighs 6 stone!) and got stranded on a rock at high tide (again involving me swimming out, in jeans, and dragging her back cause she wont swim!) and i say im not getting enough excercise? haha.

Anyways positives

I got my hair done on Friday and it looks fab - copper with blonde highlights. I havent dyed my hair in 2 years because i have been growing out the red in it (it was to red to go copper apparently. Not quite sure how that works since copper is red) and it was a horribly mousy brown, black, blonde curly mess.

My tan is lasting well -i'm peeling in a few places so therefore go to bed plastered in moisturiser looking like stay puff from ghostbusters

My skinny jeans that i had just about squeezed into comfortably before my holidays still fit- just

I got my new georgina goodman shoes (www.evans.co.uk if you are a shoe freak. her shoes rock)

I'm feeling positive about moving on from here with my excercise plan and healthy eating

Tomorrow is friday.

Enjoy your day all

Angell

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Losing the will!!

its gone. Jumped out the airplane @ 30,000ft sans parachute and splatted on the ocean below. What did?? i hear you cry. My will. To live. Or rather, live well.

Everything was grand on holiday, i stuck to 3 meals a day, no snacking. But yes i did drink and eat bread (white! oh the shame) and treat myself. I reckoned i was doing enough swimmin and raking about (messing around for those who dont speak norn irish) to counteract the extra calories. Now i'm not so sure. I still havent stepped on the scales. I think i look thinnner but then, a tan is a wonderful thing. And clothes that were too big for me are still too big. But i am dreading stepping on the scales in case i have put on weight. Not a pound or two, i would accept that. But say for example i have put on half a stone. That is 4 weeks of effort down the pan. And i'm not sure i can face it. I know it will throw me back so far i may just give up and go back to my old comfy ways. And of course, since i have been back, my diet hasnt been that good either. Though OH did make a nice salad last night, god love him he is trying to keep me on track-ish.

I dont know whether its the post holiday blues but atm i am feeling rather low. And i dont like it. But i dont seem to have the strength to pull out of it. Not like me at all. Plus this week is hectic what with 2 birthday parties, a wedding and father's day, i'm in the "why bother" frame of mind that makes this so hard. I've re-read my old posts, the upbeat positive ones. And read others. but still nothing is pushing any buttons. I am seriously considering wrapping myself in a duvet, snuggling down on the couch and munching on everything and anything that comes to hand (my dog may stay well away from me!)

Pft.Emotions. Who'd have em

I'm Baaaccckk!!

no not in a "here's johnny" kinda way. My axe got confiscated at customs ho-hum. I'm back to reality, grey skies, overworked and underpaid. Had a fantastic week off. Got bronzed (some would say burnt but i'm tellin ya, red is the new brown!) Ate too much, drank far too much (thanks to the cute waiter who refused to take any money from me regardless how many euros i threw at him. Upon reflection, maybe he thought i was trying to buy summat else! he was VERY cute). Nothing to do with me. He forced me to drink. Alot. Told me his happiness and well-being depended on it. And, me being the kind person that i am, couldnt possibly let him down.

Havent stepped on the scales as yet. I know i have undone most, if not all, the hard work i have put in. It appears my resolve to stick to my healthy eating plan as much as possible, got mislaid by the baggage handlers at murcia airport. Along with my knickers! Not my luggage...just my knickers. So, if any of you are running about murcia and see some dirty old pervert wearing pirates of the carribean panties, arrest him for theft., And ruining my chance to swing off my dads boat whilst wearing said knickers in some kind of weird drunken PoC fantasy. Oh well, back to work. I'll give you the dreaded results later.

Angell

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Holy good shit!!!!

k, so as well know, i'm off on my hols tomorrow. So i decided to WI today cause i cant do it on Monday. and.........*drum roll please*

i'm 19st 13lb. Now yes, this is till bloody heavy BUT!!! its the first time i have weighed under 20st in forever (well about 4 years). I'm sooooooooo pleased. And now keen as mustard to stick to my healthy eating regime even whilst im on hols plus all the swimming n boatin n stuff while more than compensate for the alcohol i intend to consume.

so, be good, dont miss me too much. i might get to post whilst im away, but if not, keep up all the good work ladies!!

love

angell

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