Afternoon Folks

day 2 of my eat nothing but air diet

Last night i went to bed hungry. but proud. i stuck to my diet. WEll ok i cheated a little and had 3 slices of ham for dinner instead of 2 but really, can it make that much of a difference when im eating only 700 calories a day? I woke up feeling suprisingly good. Not hungry at all. Breakfast this morning was good, it actually felt like a real treat and i enjoyed the feeling of actually enjoying my food as simple and as healthy as it was. I've just had lunch. not so good.  Even on a small side plate it looked like nothing and even though i've just finished i still feel hungry. Still just the rest of today and tomorrow to go.

My diet today

Breakfast

1/2 small banana

1 slice wholemeal toast and 1 poached egg

Cup of black tea (this stuff is horrid)

Lunch

5 Ritz crackers

4oz cottage cheese

Dinner

2 Frankfurter sausages

4oz brocolli

1 banana

4oz Vanilla ice -cream

the good thing is to stave off the hunger i am drinking loads of water. Approx 3litres per day. Hopefully that is something i can continue

So my question is, is it worth it? Is it worth depriving myself of all the foods i like in an effort to lose weight and conform to the perceived accepted body type?  Or should i let it all hang out and eat what i want and just be fat? Thing is i'm not sure

People say lose weight to be healthier, to wear nicer clothes, no be more energetic. Let me tell you, even at the weight i am, i can still swim 4 mile. Yes i can't run for shit but i dont expect to be able to run for shit when i weigh less either simply because i am to tall and too heavy footed for running. Rollerblading i will kick any skinny gits ass at and as for hiking, well i can hike up a mountain easily. So is my motivation clothes? Well yes primarily. While the range of clothes for us "plus size" (and god i hate that term) women is getting easier, i find that most clothes are made from bad material or fit badly or even worse are just baggy shapeless sacks expected to hide our offending rolls of flesh from view. Admittedly things are slightly better in the states thanks to shops like Lane Bryant and Torrid but still, quality and quantity is extremely limited for us bigger ladies. And there is nothing worse than not being able to find nice clothes and wear things my peers wear. and its worse because i work in an office with 2 very skinny very attractive ladies. And yes they are on this diet with me (even though i dont think they need to but i guess you are never happy)

Should clothes be my primary motivation? Is that enough to sustain me throughout what will be a long and sometimes painful journey? Probably not. So what else can i use for motivation if not health and not appearance? Smugness? haha that is always a good one

I shall ponder the question whilst i look longingly at the chocolate and pray for Thursday morning when i can at least eat a bit more

Of course it will be worth it! You will feel better about yourself and have many more years to live.  Isn't that enough?

You have to give it a try otherwise you will be forever wondering what if?  I agree sometimes you want to give up and delve into the biscuit barrel but you have to really sit back and think about what it is doing to your body.

I am not doing this to be like everyone else.  I am doing this to be the person I always wanted to be.  I know she is in there and food should not be such a hurdle in my life - life is too short and rather than thinking about my next meal I want to concentrate on my family and having the life I want to lead.

Oh by the way I am from NI too! Limavady to be exact - nice to see it isn't all American people using this site.