12 Steps
Good morning All. Hope you all had a fantastic weekend (and for those in the states a belated happy independance day)
I'm feeling better. Despite the fact i was up at some ungoldy hour (6am!) i still feel fantastic. Well not sick anyway hahah. Yup i took the rest of last week off from both work and dieting and concentrated on getting well again. I did try to eat healthy most of the time, including loads of fresh fruit and veg but i did have chinese takeaways twice and a chicken breast from the chippy. I dont care though i was ill and i needed comfrot food! Weighed myself today and have sts. Which i am delighted with considering how much i seemed to lose last week i was expecting a gain.
I got my `Running made Easy` book on Saturday. So that and my `Master the art of Swimming` programme should have me super healthy and super skinny in no time. If i actually do it and not just read about it. I had all good intentions on starting yesterday but it rained all day. Not just a light drizzle that would be actually quite refreshing but the kind of rain that makes you feel like your house is gonna collapse and that even the dog won't dip her nose out into. So maybe today. Maybe not.
Whcih gets me to 12 steps. We have all seen `the 12 step programme` designed to help people get over addictions of various kinds. Doers anyone actually know anyone on this program? does it even work? Ah well here goes. I am going to use 12 steps to lose weight. Now i am not sure what the verified 12 steps are, so i'm gonna make up my own 
Step 1 - Admission - admit to myself my problems and failings
Step 2 - Acceptance - accept who i am and what i need to change
Step 3 - Visualise - the new improved bodylicious me
Step 4 - Plan - ruthless planning of food and exercise
Step 5 - Decide my goal - again
Step 6 - Divide my goal into mini goals - again
Step 7 - Education -= educate myself on health, nutrition and well-being
Step 8 - Self assessment - Critical assessment of me as a person
Step 9 - Action - Do it
Step 10 - Exercise - Really need to do it!
Step 11 - Motiviation - revise and review why i am doing this
Step 12 - buy new wardrobe 
- any excuse to spend money!
So yeah, there ya have it. Sounds easy. Pft if only. I am sick of lying to myself and pretending that i know what i am doing, that i am ready to do what i need to and that i am gonna stick to it. So here goes
Step 1 -
My name is Laura and i am fat ( sounds familiar to my first ever blog!). I also have no willpower whatsoever and take the quickest, route possible with least effort i.e takeaways because i cant be assed with food prep even though there is delicious healthy food in the firdge. Driving when i can walk. Buying lunch because i cant be assed getting up early to make it.
Step 2
I accept that my weight has a drastic influence over my life. It leads me to not be healthy, it is both a cause and effect of PCOS. I accept that my eating habits have a detrimental effect on moods, on my skin, on my general wellbeing. I accept that being overweight now may cause severe damage in the future. I accept that the main focus for losing weight has been to wear nice clothes. I also accept that i attribute weight lose to a better sense of self-worth. I accept that my mental attitude needs to change as well as my physical actions.
Step 3
I visualise myself 2 stone lighter in the nest 3 months. I visualise myself 6 stone lighter this time next year. I visualise myself at the beginning the middle and the end of this journey. I visualise the pitfalls and successes that i will have in order to make me stronger
So there, step 1-3 done. Step 4-6 to follow. This is my mantra, this is my promise to me. I will do this, i can do this, i WANT to do this
Oh yeah, menu for today
B - " weetabix, skimmed milk, banana, frozen berry smoothie
S - Frozen berry smoothie
L - Tuna, sweetcorn and onion on wheatbread, banana
D - Pork, mashed potato, veg
E - dog walking, Day 1, week 1 of running program
Have a good day all
Angell
xx